Rikki's Pov

I ran out of my bedroom and into the bathroom as I once again, started to puke. This was crazy. I've been puking for 4 weeks straight and it wont stop. How long will I have morning sickness anyways? I asked myself as i grabbed a towel and wiped my face.

I looked into the mirror as I probably haven't combed out my hair in 3 days. Iv'e been lying in bed all week, trying to think of a way to tell my dad, my friends and Zane that i was pregnant.

I mean, if i told my dad, i would just be a disappointment to him. Getting pregnant at 19 with out going to collage or even being married, would probably be one of the first few things to bring up in our conversation. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to tell my dad first.

I secretly grabbed the other pregnancy test i had in my bag as i went to take the test again. This was probably my 5th test since i wanted to make sure I actually was pregnant. I haven't tooken a test all week but the chances that it would be negative, was low.

I went into the bathroom as i started to take it again.

Telling Cleo Bella or Emma that i was pregnant would probably not be a good idea etheir. They'll probably think of me as a slutt for having sex with my ex-boyfriend. Worse of all for getting pregnant.

I again threw the test into the sink as i waited for it to dry. How could this be possible. I had sex once! ONCE! and i could already be pregnant. Was that even possible?

I picked up the test from the sink as i had that feeling, where i lost all signs of hope. Its like i already knew what the test was going to say. It already said pregnant 4 times before. What would make it change this time?

I looked down at the test as i read it again. Once more it had that green plus sign. That stupid green plus sign. Wish it would just magically disappear into dust so that i wouldn't have to see it anymore.

I placed the test in the same box i got it from, wrapped it in a plastic bag and put it in my backpack so that no one could see it. I didn't want my dad finding the test in the garbage. I knew i was eventually going to have to tell him I was pregnant but now, wasn't the time.

I just didn't know who to tell first. At this point, I didnt want to tell the girls because they might get the wrong idea of me being with Zane

I really wanted to tell Will but it was Zane's baby. He might think im just as stupid as Zane for getting pregnant. If it was someone else's baby, then i would probably tell Will but since it wasn't, there was no point in telling him.

And then we had the last option and that was Zane himself. He would probably take this two ways: He would avoid me and never talk to me again or, he might think its his responsibility to take care of me and the baby and i might have to be around him for the rest of my life.

I'm not to sure if i liked ether of those options. He could also say he would take care of the baby but leave me right when the baby is born. Maybe it was best if i didn't tell Zane. Its not like i needed him to help me with the baby, but he was the father...

I frustratedly walked into my room as i sat down on my bed. I couldn't keep this a secret forever. Soon enough ill be as big as a beach ball and then everyone would know. I just wish i had someone to talk to with out them judging me from it.

Maybe Cleo, but even her would judge me. She would soon tell Emma and Bella and it wouldn't be much of a secret anymore. Imagine them taking the news. Especially Emma. She would think of me as the biggest slut ever, giving me a lecture on how irresponsible i am.

I just wanted someone to tell me it was going to be ok. Someone that i could just openly talk to about this with out them lecturing me.

I knew I had to tell Zane. He was the father and part of this situation. Not telling him could lead up to future problems but there was one thing that was even worse. I just told Zane 2 weeks ago that i never wanted to talk to him again and that i didn't want to be friends! Great, i probably just ruined everything now. Not like we already had something but i'd be lucky if Zane even spoke to me.

I stood up from off my bed as i stormed out of my room and out of my trailer. I was just gonna have to get this over with. If there was anyone who needed to know I was pregnant, it was Zane. He's the bastard who got me pregnant in the first place so it should be his responsibility too.

As i got closer to his house, i got butterflies in my stomach and my heart raced 1000 miles per hour. Ok, at this point, telling him wouldn't be easy and maybe on second thought, I shouldn't tell him.

I looked at the giant fence that was blocking my way into getting into mansion. I remember last time i came here to tell Zane we weren't friends and now, im here to tell him im pregnant. Great, just great Rikki. Now I'm officially an idiot.

I nervously opened the fence as i walked down the path that lead to his front door. I walked up to his door as i didn't want to ring the bell. I didn't want his dad finding out about this. I softly knocked, praying that he wasn't home.

"Please dont be home. Please don't be home, please don't be home..."

Zane's Pov

Boredom was all that was running through my mind. This summer has been worse than i expected. I thought i would have more freedom with the cafe closed down but now, i have nothing to do and i bet my dad will send me to collage once the summer is over.

Even my only friends thought i was boring. Maybe going to collage would be good. I just had to get out of here.

That's when i heard that small knocking sound. At first, thinking it was just my imagination, i heard the knock again but louder.

Annoyed, i stood up from off the coach and walked to the front door. It was ether one of my dad's client or some guy delivering important package. It was always for my dad. Delivering stuff to him like he was some kind of president.

I opened the door, expecting some guy in a suite or something but instead, it was Rikki. My annoyed face turned into confusion as I saw her just standing there.

"Look, if your here to tell me were not friends or something, i got the point ok? I dont need someone else bugging me about how annoying i am." I snapped at her, mad she would even come back to my house to talk to me.

She's been ignoring me for 5 weeks straight, not even answering my calls and then she randomly appears to my house with out notice. Great, just great.

I started to shut the door but she stopped me right when i was about to close it on her.

"Wait, Zane. I need to talk to you." She quickly replied as she stopped the door from closing on her.

Her voice sounded soft and upset. She looked at me in sad eyes as i looked at her back.

At this point i didn't know what to do. Was i supposed to let her back in like she was my friend again?

"What? So you can tell me how bad of a person i am? I dont need your critism any more." i snapped, wanting her to get the taste of her own medicene but, she just looked down at the ground.

"Fine whatever. Telling you would be a bad idea anyways." She sadly said as she started to walk away but I stopped her.

"Wait... I- what is it?" I grabbed her arm as I knew deep down inside, i really just wanted to talk to her again.

She just gave me thoes sad blue eys as I never seen her this upset before. What was so bad that she would come all the way to my house to tell me.?

"Look Zane. I'm not sure how to say this, or if there is even any way to say this but..." She stopped as i was hoping she would continue.

She opened her mouth like she was going to say something but nothing came out.

"Um, whgy dont you come inside. Im sure you dont want to talk about this here. I mentioned as I grabbed her arm and gently started leading her inside the house.

She awkwardly walked in my house as I went into the living room. The same living room where everything happened. One of the reasons why she was avoiding me now. She looked down at the coach as her face was slightly red from the sadness.

I sat down on the coach as she awkwardly stood there, not knowing if she should sit down too but she did.

She was quite distance while sitting down next me but i put my full attention on her as i wanted her to know that I was here for her.

She kinda still looked down at the ground as many thoughts ran through her mind. I just wanted to know what she was going to tell me. Maybe she thought us not being friends was a mistake. Hopefully, because the fact that i wasn't able to talk to her was making me go crazy.

"Zane, i really dont know how i can say this but" She started saying but at this point i just needed to know.

"Its ok. Just tell me." I scooted closer to her as she still looked down at the ground.

It took her some time to think as she opened her mouth to say something. Seconds felt like hours as I sat there, waiting for her to say what she going to tell me but the words didnt slip out.

I looked into her eyes, but she didnt even look at my face. She still had her mouth open as the words finally escaped her mouth.

"I...I...Im pregnant." She finally said as she looked directly at me.

Confused, i sat up straight as I re-ran the words in my head. Pregnant? Pregnant as in a baby?

I looked into her eyes, expecting her to tell me this was some kind of joke but, she didnt. She just gave me those big blue sad eyes as I tryed to find a way to talk.

"Your... your not joking right?" I softly asked as she gave me a disgusted look.

"Joking? You seriously think i would come all the way to your house, tell you im pregnant and say this is some kind of joke?" She started yelling as she almost stood up from off the coach but i made sure she didn't.

"No! that's not what i meant. I... just... how could this be possible? Are you sure your pregnant?" I quickly asked, hoping that this could end up being a false pregnacy.

"yes, im sure! I've taken 5 pregnancy tests over the past week and a half. All of them say positive." She started off yelling but then her voice went soft.

It was silent. Both of us looking at the ground, as i thought about what she just told me.

Pregnant? She can't be pregnant! Im only 19! I can't raise a baby. I have so much i wanna do with my life and i have to waste it all on a baby.

I looked over at Rikki as it looked like she was going to cry, just staring at the ground.

I wasn't sure if i should of comforted her or just talked to her. I didn't want to make her even more upset. It's like everything i did, i ended up making it worse.

She looked over at me as we both tryed to find something to say. All of this was just happening soo fast. I cared for Rikki but, i dont think i would cut out for being a father.

"Are you going to keep it?" I softly asked, looking directly at her.

She paused to think abut what i just asked her, as the sadness on her face started to disapear.

"Keep it? The baby?" She asked confused.

"Ya, are you planning on raising it or something." I quickly added, making sure she understood what i asked.

She continued to look at the ground as she put some deep thought into this.

"Well i kinda have to raise it. There's not really much i can do about it now." She mentioned as she was fiddling with her fingers.

I thought about it as maybe there was another option. I just couldn't raise a baby. I didn't even want kids.

"What about adoption?" I added as she didnt take the effort to look at me.

"No, i cant. What if it turns out to be a..." She paused as she tryed to find the exact words as to what she was saying. "a fish..." She softly added.

I relaxed against the coach as I knew there was one more option...

"Abortion..." I softly metioned.

She sat up straight as she gave me this mad face expression.

"What so now you want me to abort my baby? How is this going to help anyone?" She snapped at me in anger.

"Rikki! Think about it! You honestly think we can cut out to be parents! Were only 19 for gods sake! We can't raise a baby! At least i cant! I would never be a good father! This is one of the reasons i never really wanted kids! The diapers, the crying! Paying for food and collage! How are we going to be able to do this huh? I barley can watch out for myself and now i have to look out for a baby! I... I just cant!" I yelled back as it went silent.

Rikki's eyes were full of confusion and sadness as she slowly relaxed back onto the coach.

"God fuck! How the hell did we get here...?" She softly asked, both knowing the answers to that but we both kept quite.

She slowly stood up from off the coach as she started to walk away. I didn't even take the effort to chase after her. I was in too much shock. I just wish all of this could go away. I didn't ask for this to happen. Why was i the one who had to end up in this situation?

I saw her leave the living room as she disappeared. I layed back against the coach as i took a deep breath. I knew whatever would happen, i was definitely screwed...

Rikki's Pov

"Abortion...?" I asked myself as I was walking back to my house. "Was that the only option i had? I couldn't afford to raise a baby and Zane was right. Were only 19. We would never cut out to be parents. Plus Zane would never take the time to raise a baby with me so what's the point?" I thought as I walked past the closed cafe.

I wanted to go to collage, go to parties, meet new people. Not raise a baby with my ex-boyfriend, well that is if he agrees to help me.

"Damn it!" I screamed out loud as people looked at me strangley but, i didnt care. I just needed to scream or punch something.

I walked up the sandy hills and sat along the beach, far away from the ocean.

Maybe abortion was all i could do at this point. I needed to continue with my life. If i kept the baby, i would just be a disappointment to my dad and all my friends. Even Zane would probably leave me. Just having my whole life crash on me like this, was not something i wanted.

I had to do what was best for me. I had to do this. Even if it meant getting an abortion...