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Aghhh! Chapter two out one week after the first chapter came out! So exciting you guys! :D Okay, so I hope you enjoyed the last one, and I hope you'll enjoy this one. Remember, it is both Vanessa and me that are creating this story, not just me.

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Time surged past me, like a hurricane's wind, my cloak blowing madly around my body. I could just barely make out my own figure going about my daily activities as I flew backwards in time. It wasn't uncomfortable; I felt as if in a cocoon, protected from most of the torrential winds. I shut my eyes and waited to reach that day that felt so long ago.

"I'm going to kill them tonight, Severus."

"I beg you, leave her. Leave her! Leave her…"

My past zoomed and swirled around me for what seemed like hours until finally, I landed in the shadows on my feet, facing the back of my harsher, crueler past self.

"What are you doing with your life, Severus? You think this is good? You think this will get you anywhere? What happened to you Sev?" said the fiercely lovely red head, her hair flowing down her back in those same ringlets that now seemed to gag me in an endless pit of self-loathing and heartache.

"You think this will get me no where? You'll see. I swear it to you, like everything else I swore to you that you didn't believe." The man with the cruel wrinkle in between his eyebrows bit back.

"And did you follow through with any of them?" retorted she, her eyes flashing in hurt and anger for her long time best friend and almost love. She didn't even wait for a reply before adding, "no. They didn't. You can't keep living like this Severus. One day you're going to wake up and I'm going to be gone, and so is everything else you love."

The words stung still. My other self gave Lily a glare that sent chills through both of us. How I could look so inhuman was a mystery to me.

Without another word, my past self stormed off, cloak flying angrily behind him. Lily's emerald eyes shut, a tear managing to make a trail upon her pale, beautiful cheek. She slowly sagged to the ground, a whimper in her throat.

That was more than I could handle. I had no control over my body as I threw myself from the shadows and wrapped my arms around her small body. She squeaked in surprise, and flailed against me.

"Please... Please... I'm sorry. I didn't mean it," I whispered into her silky locks of hair. "Please... I cannot bear to lose you." Her motion stopped, relaxing in my arms. Her breathing stuttered with the small sobs permeating from her chest.

We sat like this for what felt like hours. Lily finally looked up at me, eyes puffy-looking and tender, hurt and confused. She was still so beautiful. Always.

"Severus, why..." she murmured into my cloak, gripping on tighter. "Why do you hurt me so?"

"Because…" I started out, the words getting caught in my throat, digging their feet into the soft tissues of my lungs so that they would not completely deflower my pride.

She looked up, bug eyed, following my every sound and silence, nodding her head for me to go on.

"Because you're so damn perfect! And I can't ever deserve you or be with you because I can never be as perfect as I want to be around you. I will never be able to hold your hand and tell you how beautiful you are and I will never be able to kiss those lips again or even touch your nose as it scrunches when you're embarrassed!" I shot out, my control completely diminishing before my eyes.

Lily gaped at me. Her mouth opened, and then shut softly.

"What?" she whispered. I sighed.

"I guess I'll just say it clearly," I muttered, a slice of pain that would soon become a migraine formed between my eyes.

"Lily, I love you. I've loved you for as long as I've known you."

She stared at me for a long time, eyes agape and slightly confused until I started to feel uncomfortable and embarrassed at myself.

"S-Severus…I can't do this right now. I can't! I have a-a h-husband an-and a son. No…this-this can't work." Said the love of my life, turning her head, still astonished and shocked and completely alarmed, and staggered away as briskly as she could muster.

My hand involuntarily reached for her as tiny droplets of water began to moisten my eyes.

"Lily wait! You can't go without knowing this!" I yelled at her fast-moving form. My hope grew smaller and smaller as her form receded into the distance. Suddenly she turned and began walking back slowly, caution and alarm obvious in her form.

"Know what, Severus?" she asked exasperatedly, stopping in place. Relieved that she actually listened, I rushed to her side.

"The Dark Lord is planning a raid on your house," I whispered. "He wants to kill Harry. And he's eager to kill you and Potter too."

She scrunched her eyebrows together angrily, and her mouth twisted down in an almost scary and unattractive face, a sneer. Her hands balled into fists so that her nails dug into her palms and her hair seemed to ignite in orange flames licking her neck in a frazzled manor.

"Lies, Severus. He wouldn't give us away like that…like you." Lily whispered, eyes were burning emeralds as she glared at me in an accusatory way.

Feeling my heart sink and drown in the epitome of my sorrows, I watched in longing as she turned and nearly sprinted away. Her mind was set. She would not believe me. In a way, I suppose I never expected her to believe me, it was me after all who betrayed her so many times in our years at Hogwarts. But I had secretly hoped that she would.

Time changes nothing, no open wounds, no scars, no headaches nor heartbreaks. Time changes only on the clock, and going back only makes Father Time repeat himself which he so terribly hates to do. My only hope now was to stop the Dark Lord before he has his chances of hurting her.

But those chances that I am banking on so heavily are slimmer than my wand or even the greasy hairs on my head, but if I am to die in this at least it would be because of her. She is the reason I would risk everything. She is my reason for existence.

And I blew it.

Voila, non? J'aime tres beaucoup le chapitre! (Here it is, no? I enjoy this chapter very much).

Pardon the French XD

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