Chapter 11: Frustration

Despite what I said, I even wondered if it was cool. His kiss and his intimate passion had been on my mind all day, wait weeks to be precise. I knew that it wasn't a mistake Kowalski did that kiss because maybe, just maybe he did have feelings.

Feelings of taboo.

The summer was slowly giving away to the fall, which gleefully meant the zoo would be closing soon. Just 2 more weeks of hiding and I could be a little more free. Skipper still informed me of the zookeepers that would still linger and check on them, I promised I would still be their caged little songbird.

I was sitting on the recliner and was watching the boys. Skipper was working on new recon plans while Private was cleaning out his bunk, Rico was watching a movie and Kowalski, well Kowalski was in his lab, where he seemed to hide from everything.

" You know, Kowalski's not been himself lately what do you think Private?" Private shot a look at me which my face blazed in responce. I glanced away from him as I listened to him answer.

" I dunno Skippa, perhaps he's just having a bad week"

I sighed as I pulled my knees up and solemnly closed my eyes, mind playing the scene of the kiss over and over again. Why was I so worked up about this? Whenever I think of it I see Kowalski as a fake, a human. He's a penguin so why do I let my heart flutter? My knees grow weak but yet I think to myself as I curl a thread of hair, maybe just maybe, I have been falling for him.

That night at Tenzens, him and his cute tux and so unsure of himself. I got a taste of his shyness and it felt as if it pierced a hole in my heart, a sweet little hole which made me happy with thoughts that suffocated me. Fondling with the wrapper embarrassed he couldn't make amends to open it, and his skin, so soft like a silk linen sheet.

I wanted, I wanted . . . .to be honest, I didn't know what to say to him now. Time had passed since my episode and I realised, the boys were gone, except him. The clanging of metal and machinery were still echoing around the lab. I swallowed hard as I made my jelly like legs stand up and walk.

My heart ached and beated as my hand tried to grip the cold metal latch. I once again swallowed as my heart sped up as I felt my hands turn and hear the handle clicking, at that precise moment he heard it too, and stopped everything. I slowly opened the door and invited the sound of the usually annoying metal creak, instead it broke a noise to disturb the unnerving silence.

Kowalski was standing and tampering with his keypad and listening to a bit of music on the radio. He pretended that I wasn't there, I knew he was. I clenched my hands as I walked up to the penguin and lightly stood over him for a few seconds, I opened my mouth to speak but was stopped by his whip motion of his flipper.

" Sky . . . . " He whispered, I quickly closed my mouth.

" Yes, Kowalski?" My voice hinged with nerves.

" I wanna. . . .I want to let you know something," Before my eyes, the bubble encased him and burst leaving him in his human form.

He aching slowly turned around and our gazes finally met. His clouded ocean blue eyes locked with mine, and for once I actually felt as if my squished eye lashes were plied apart and opened wide enough so he could see mine.

" Go ahead, then" I stopped as I felt his hand touch my heated cheek and ruffle my stiff-stick-to-the-side hair. He then leaned forwards towards my ear.

" I can't deny it any longer, I . . . .I. . ..your different, I knew it, your beautiful, intelligent, down to earth and so . . .so lovely, I can't stand it I know there gonna be a man by your side and what aches me is that . . . .is that" He swallowed loudly and then contuned, " What I'm saying is, I really do love you Sky, it-it just frustrates me that I know it won't work, I mean your a human and I'm a short, stubby penguin, and I know you see me more than that but still, what would your dad say seeing that? He'd think it would be improbable to have grand kids" We both blushed at that thought but quickly shunned it away. " And well, I know that there is no way we can be forever, but can we, can we still be good friends?" He pulled away from me and made me stare into those maginifed eyes by his glasses. I blushed brighter and felt my body scream at him.

" I want to be more than friends" my brain came up with the wrong responce, but it was the truth. After that night after our little episode, I was drowned by him. I felt myself become needy about him, clingy if you will. Yet it was a new feeling, I knew I was in love with him. And that part was fighting with the parts the thought it was disgusting. And just thinking of his face, and goofiness made me realise it more.

I made sure my eyes were wide and locked with his.

" I love you Kowalski, and I'm glad we returned feelings," His eyes were drowned in curiosity, yet sparkled with surprise. He cupped my chin in his hand and angled my head slightly to the side, and leaned in close.

CLANG, TINK TINK.

We both looked as suddenly a metal ball object had appeared from a vent above us. In an instant it exploded into a huge fog, Kowalski huddled close to me for protection as we heard feet steeping around us. Kowalski tried his best to look around but he silently cursed under his breath. Funny, never thought I'd hear him curse before. When suddenly the fog uplifted and left us alone in the lab. I stepped away from him and looked around, nothing look out of plac-

" NO! THEY TOOK IT!" Kowalski screamed as he turned to his keypad and scammered around, I turned around abruplty, scared from his spontanious uncalled for yelling.

" Took what?" I called back, Kowalski tensed up and looked at me.

" Skippers recon plans, they have all our moves and weak points on them, if the enemy got their hands on them we'll be done for"

My attention gazed away to the metal ball, which was now split in half. Curiously I walked over and picked it up, looking at insignia that was printed on it.

" Hmm Kowalski, do you know any enemies that have a red crab printed on it" Quickly, Kowalski ran over in a panic.

" No, anyone but him" he mumurmed.

Ok, plz don't get mad at this, but i got some free time and decided to update, anyways I'll be busy with school but i'll make time for this story I promise.

1995penguin