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Chris took me to the park and bought me ice cream. We were walking hand in hand when I felt him stop. Turning to look at him, I raised an eyebrow. He had a thoughtful look on his face, as he stared off in the distance at the kids playing.

"Chris?"

He shifted his eyes to mine and stared at me in silence. I shifted slightly uncomfortably until he sighed, finally breaking the silence, he said, "Do you ever think about what would have happened if we haven't lost the baby?"

I turned my head to the side and lowered it, clenching my eyes shut to hold in my tears. My breath hitched. After all these years, it still hurt to talk about my son. Chris immediately came to me wrapping his arms tightly around me.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean to bring it up. I'm supposed to be cheering you up and I made you cry. I'm sorry. Do you want to just go back to the hotel and veg out for the rest of the day?"

I nodded my head.

"Ok, lets go."

We threw the rest of the ice cream away and walked back to the hotel. Arriving at my room, we walked in and turned the T.V. on, sat down and just relaxed against the headboard. I was silent for awhile before I spoke.

"You wouldn't have those three beautiful babies."

I felt him turn his head to look at me. I slowly turned my head to meet his eyes. He had a confused look on his face.

"If we didn't lose the baby you would have never have had your children. You have three beautiful kids, Chris. Never regret that."

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"I don't regret my kids. I love them and I loved our baby. I just wish you were our mother."

I closed my eyes and felt the tears slip from beneath my closed lids," Chris-"

"Do you ever think that the two of us could be together again?"

I opened my eyes and looked at him. He looked like a little boy.

I put my hand on his face," I don't want to say never but right now, in this moment, my future is very unclear. And I'm hurting really bad," I took his hand in mine and put it on my head," hurting here", and I moved his hand to my heart, "and here. I hurt so bad in my heart right now and I think it will be a long time before I will be able to think of anything like this again." He started to interrupt but I put my finger against his lips," but if or when I do, you will more than likely be the person that I come to if you still want me then."

Chris put his free hand on my face, " I will always want you," and with that he slid his other hand free and put it on his face and lowered his mouth to mine. I stiffened in shock but slowly relaxed into it. He ran his tongue over my bottom lip. I opened to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He slid his hands to my waist and lifted me up and over so I could straddle his waist. He kept kissing me and slowly slid his hands down to my ass pulling me tight against him. I could feel him prodding my thigh and I couldn't help but grind down on his lap. He broke the kiss with a groan before trialing kisses down my neck then biting down. I tightened my grip on him before I pulled away.

"Chris, please I don't think-"

"Shh, baby, trust me. I would never do anything that you didn't want me to."

I nodded and then pressed my lips back against his. I felt his tongue tracing the seam of my lips. I opened up to him and his tongue invaded my mouth at the same time his hands slid up my hips to pull my shirt off. I lifted my arms making it easier for him. He flipped us over so he was laying on top of me bracing his weight on his elbows.

"Look at me baby."

I opened my eyes and looked up into his. He looked down then pressed a kiss to my lips. Pulling back and looking into my eyes he said,

"Let me make you feel good."

I swallowed hard before turning my head to the side, thinking. If I did this how am I any better than John? How does this make me any different then him? And what he did. But why did I even care? We were over. He broke us. Its his fault. I turned my head back to Chris staring up at him.

I nodded.

I reached down to pull his shirt off. He sat back and pulled it over his head. Leaning back down he pressed a kiss to my lips before moving down to press kisses to the top of my breasts then taking one nipple into his mouth sucking gently and lightly biting down before moving to the other. I arched my back slightly and heard a noise come from my throat. I needed this. I needed Chris to help me forget. To make me feel. I heard his breathing quicken. He pulled back earning a sound of protest. He smirked and then with a quick motion, pulled me down to the edge of the bed. He slowly ran his fingers up my thighs to the sides of my underwear before gently pulling them down. He tucked them into his pocket making my face burn. He chuckled, leaning down and giving me a quick kiss before he leaned to the side.

"May I?"

I looked down and saw he had his phone in his hand. I looked up at him and nodded. I trusted him. I knew that the pictures would be for him and only him. He backed away and I leaned up on my elbows. He snapped the pictures and put the phone down on the dresser then stood there staring. I blushed and closed my legs but he shook his head and placed his hands on my thighs pulling them open.

He leaned down and placed a kiss right above my pubic bone. He moved down and kissed the inside of both of my thighs. He reached his goal and used his thumbs to part me and leaned down running his tongue up my center . I cried out arching my back. He smirked up at me before leaning back down.

Except this time a knock sounded out through the room.

We both jumped and stared at each other. He pulled back and put his head in his hands. Taking a deep breath he pushed to his feet and went into the bathroom. Another knock sounded out and I took a deep breath myself before shouting out, " Hold on I'm coming."

I quickly pulled on my tank top and my shorts before making my way to the door, quickly kicking my bra and panties out of eyesight. I pulled the door open and came face to face with John.