Okay so I knew it took longer for me too post but so much
stuff's been going on that writing was the last thing on my mind.
I've been meaning to post it for a while, but just couldn't get to it with everything
stuck inside my brain!
Anywayz this is developing into something good.
For Adrian fans this is my 1st time writing in his POV but I think I did good.
Enjoy!

Chapter 10
I Can't Explain It

RPOV

I clung to Dimitri as I let it all out.

Right now he was my lifeline that was reeling me in before I could even drown.

We just stood there, he was soothing my hair, saying what sounded as comforting words in Russian.

I never felt so relieved and safe than I did at this very moment.

I looked up at him. His dark brown eyes made me feel warm and safe.

He wiped my cheek with his thumb and the feeling of him touching me felt amazing. Warm.

I closed my eyes and left out a small sigh.

Then I felt his whole hand cup my cheek and I opened my eyes and saw him looking down at me with an unreadable look.

I put my hand on top of his and I loved how good I felt.

He smiled and I leaned up towards him and he was leaning towards me.

We softly touched each other's lips and I pulled away.

I couldn't do it.

I let his hand drop from my face and if felt kind of embarrassed, but he just looked down at me with a small smile of his face, and a single nod.

I guess that means he understood.

I wiped away the rest of my tears and grabbed his hand.

"Come on" I said. "Let's go and meet up with everyone in the city"

He laughed and I smiled.

When we reached the garage I asked, "Mine or yours?"

He thought a little about it.

"Which do you want" he asked.

"Hmm how about yours?" I asked a little too excited.

He laughed. "Okay then, this way"

When we reached his car I was amazed. Though I know nothing about cars at all, his was beautiful and fast. From what I heard and now see…it's every guy and girl's dream car.

"Nice" I said with a big smile on my face.

"Thanks" he said with a smile of his own.

"Wanna drive?" he asked while slipping his car keys in my hand/

I nodded, very excited. I felt like I should be jumping up and down right now. "I definitely would love to drive"

He opened the passenger door and got in, while I got into the driver's seat, turned on the car, plugged in my I-pod, pressed play and I'm So Sick by Flyleaf started playing.

"Hold on" I said to Dimitri.

He smiled and I winked at him, speeding off through the back exit of the university.

APOV

Sitting here with Lissa, catching up after all these years was good. But I couldn't pay attention 100% because I kept thinking of Rose and my brother.

Dimitri likes Rose.

It's as simple as that. After all we've been through, I could read my brother like a book. Juts like he can with me. That's how close we are.

Still I couldn't blame him. I mean who wouldn't fall for Rose?

She's pure perfection.

Sarcastic.

Fierce.

Caring.

Beautiful.

The minute I stepped into that cab I was hooked.

But also intimidated. For the first time in my life a girl, no a woman, actually intimidated me.

From her I felt a spark I've never felt before, with anyone.

It's what made me more curious about her.

I wanted to touch her silky chocolate colored hair, stare into those dark brown eyes. I wanted to kiss those lips. I became hooked and I didn't care.

And when I saw her smile…I don't even have words to explain how I felt.

Then when we were in English I saw Dimitri. I saw the way he looked at her. She put him under her spell.

I don't think she sees what she does.

How easily anyone is drawn to her.

I was made when Dimitri asked Rose to the lake.

He was trying to heal her too.

I bet he knows how I feel about Rose, what I'm starting to feel. I don't wanna compete with him. But if that's what it turns into…then may the best man win.

"So Adrian, how's uncle Nathan?" asked Lissa, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I smiled. "My dad's doing okay. You know him. Business, business, and more business"

"That's great" she smiled. "How about your stepmother? You haven't told me much about her"

My smile got wider. " Olena is great. She keeps my father and me in check. She also works alongside him once in a while. She's a real great mom to me"

"She sounds like a nice woman" Lissa said.

"Yeah, she really is"

"So…Adrian you got a girlfriend ?"

"Mia!" Lissa yelled.

I smiled and winked at her "You offering?"

She blushed and looked away.

"Wow, Mia rendered speechless. That's a first" said Mason.

The whole table laughed.

Someone's phone rang. It was Lissa's.

"Rose where are you?"

Lissa nodded and rolled her eyes, then smiled. "He doesn't mind that you might kill him?" she asked playfully.

She laughed. "Well I guess that's because he doesn't know how crazy you are" She laughed again. "Yes you are but that's how we all love you" She nodded. "In the Italian restaurant. Yeah, I'll order for you" A pause. "15 mins? Okay. Love you" and she hung up.

"Dimitri gave her the car keys?" asked Christian.

Lissa nodded. Mia laughed.

"I wouldn't worry about it" I said. "Dimitri loves to drive fast" I smiled.

Dimitri always loved to drive fast. Me too. Sometimes we organized street races on the outskirts of Baia and Dimitri always won. He never took the people's money. He just loved the win and the speed. Just like I do. But what can I say? I also love the money.

Mostly spent with rounds for all the ladies during my part hours.

Still all that changed when during one of my races I lost control of my car and I almost died.

After that I left behind my racing lifestyle, the excessive drinking, and the excessive parties.

I can't say I'm anything like Dimitri. I sometimes go out to parties, I sometimes drink/ but nothing excessive. Dimitri comes with me once in a while, but it's not his scene.

Always uncomfortable.

Never loving the attention.

"Well if Dimitri makes it alive and not scared stiff, than that alone would be a shock" said Mia.

Eddie laughed. "I wouldn't worry. Dimitri looks tough"

"It's like I said. No worries. Dimitri loved speed. I bet when they get here, they'll be grinning and laughing"

"Alright" said Christian "I've never seen anyone survive Rose's driving. But Eddie's right. Dimitri looks tough enough to handle crazy Rose"

Christian is someone I don't think I'll get along with. I don't know how but, I could see that he has small feelings for Rose. It was evident the night we met and his reaction towards me. Jealousy. I don't know if his feelings for Rose are good or bad.

Fifteen minutes later I found out I was right. Rose and Dimitri entered the restaurant laughing. I sighed. I knew it.

She looked different. Her eyes weren't sad. They were -for now- happy. Dimitri did…what I couldn't.

I took a sip of my drink and looked elsewhere but at her.

RPOV

After I hung up with Lissa I laughed.

"What?" Dimitri asked.

I shook my head. "Lissa thinks that I might kill you with my driving"

"Why?"

"Oh because apparently the speed I drive is cause for pure death by fear"

He laughed. "I like the speed. I usually drive this way back home. Well here you can't do it a lot because of police but when I can, I do."

"You've raced before haven't you?" I asked him.

He sighed. "Yeah, I used to race. But not anymore"

His voice sounded kind of sad.

"How come you don't race anymore?"

"Because I almost lost someone because of it"

"Sorry to hear that"

"It's nothing. To me, nothing is more important than family"

Adrian?

He almost lost his brother?

I guess I could understand to some extent what it's like to lose someone.

"Do you miss it?" I asked him.

"No I don't. I never really got anything out of street racing. I didn't take anyone's bets. I just wanted the win and I always got it"

"Maybe one day…we'll see who's better" I said. "Me or You?"

He laughed. "Yeah, maybe one day"

"Hey" I said. "Say it like you mean it! I'm trying to make you feel better" I smiled.

He laughed again. I liked hearing him laugh.

"Thanks" he said.

I nodded.

When we made it to the restaurant I gave the valet the keys and I took the ticket and gave it to Dimitri.

"Well I bet that everyone's gonna be happy that I didn't kill you"

We laughed as we made it to the table. And I was happy when I saw me food.

"Oh yum!" I said. "My food's here waiting" I said as I sat down next to Lissa.

While eating my spaghetti and meatballs (cliché I know) I looked around the table. Everyone was talking, laughing, all except Adrian.

I didn't notice it before, but looking at him now, he looked like he was paying attention, but the way his eyes looked said something different.

His eyes looked sad and a little vacant.

I don't what happened, but when I left him with the gang, he looked alright. A little mad maybe, but other than that he looked okay.

I wonder what happened before I got here.

Still though, after a while that vacant, sad look left his eyes and he was talking to everyone, and smiling at everyone.

Everyone but me.

Did I do something wrong? Was he mad at me?

I can't say I know what I did, but I kind of hated that he was probably mad at me. Especially because I don't know what I did wrong!

After a while though I just got even more pissed. And on top of that annoyed!

I needed a small distraction.

"Liss, I'm stepping out a bit for a cig okay?"

She looked at me questioningly.

"You still smoke Rose?" she asked me.

"Liss, please I don't need morals right now okay? I'll be right back"

I left the restaurant and stepped a couple of feet away from the entrance.

I did quit smoking. A while ago, only because Lissa kept telling me over and over again how bad it was for me. So I quit. For her.

But once in a while things like this happen.

My emotions go out of control and speed -though it helps- can be dangerous when you're not thinking straight.

So I pull out my cancer stick every once in a while and let my emotions calm down from there.

"Hey" Christian said, coming to stand right next to me. "You okay?"

I shook my head after blowing another smoke. "Not really"

"Wanna talk about it?"

"Not really"

He nodded and stuck his hands in his jean pockets, leaned against the wall and looked up at the sky.

"Can I have a puff?"

I looked at him. "You smoke?"

He smirked. "Yeah, why? Is that actually shocking?"

"Kind of, yeah" I chuckled.

He shrugged. "Not a heavy smoker"

"Same here" I said.

He sighed. "Look Rose, about yesterday. I really didn't mean to act like I have a right to dictate who you talk to or" A pause. "who you're interested in"

"Christian I-"

"Look Rose, you were right I am jealous. I'm jealous that there's a smile on your face that not even I could give you. I know you were happy with me, but now you're glowing. And…I know you hate me for the secret I kept from you, but I didn't want you to hurt anymore" He ran his hand through his hair. "I didn't want to be the person to make you sad. I couldn't do that to you. It'd be like breaking my own heart.

I layed back against the wall with my eyes closed, stomping on my cigarette.

Christian just confessed. He confessed everything in his heart and I didn't know what to say.

Though I do know how I feel.

I feel like I'm betraying Lissa, that I'm taking Christian's love away from her.

"Do you love Lissa?"

He sighed. "Yeah I do. I love her but I also love you"

"You can't love two people equally at the same time Christian, you always love one more than the other"

I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder.

"The question" I said. " is who do you love more?"

That's something he needs to think about a lot. I can't make the decision for him.

So I decided to make my way back into the restaurant and leave him to his thoughts for a little while.

I sighed.

Seriously today all my emotions are out of place and I can't even explain why…

So how was that? I hope you liked it.
Being in Adrian's head when he's hurting is such a blow for me.
He's way too cute and sexy to be bummed out but no worries!
Adrian & Rose time will come again.
So review review review!

Peace In

-Kristy