Because I'm awesome and because I also wanted to
get over my writer's block...I wrote this in hopes of getting
my head pumping ideas and giving me something to do before
the Spring Semester in college where I have no mind for anything.

I've heard a lot of you have read Last Sacrifice
I bet a lot of you have read spoilers and believe me with this fanfiction
I know how you feel...

Usual Disclaimer: VA = Richelle Mead

Enjoy!

Chapter 12
Temporary Normality

RPOV

After my kiss with Adrian a couple of weeks ago, everything became somewhat normal.

We didn't judge that kiss, we took everything one step at a time. Still I couldn't say that I just wanted to be with Adrian. I wanted to be with Dimitri too.

Not in a couple kind of way, but in a way that I sometimes just liked his presence alone.

When I wasn't with the two brothers -separately of course- I was with my friends, catching up and creating new things, playing pranks on one another before we had to go out into the real world and behave the way we were told too.

I didn't like it. I didn't ever want to change. But sometimes you have to grow up and change to make someone better of yourself. I just hated it the thought of it all.

Still some things didn't change, like Christian. He still looked at me in the way that said he was deeply in love with me and I didn't know what to think of that.

I thought that me not spending so much time around him, would get him to look at only Lissa but I guess that was a wrong move to make.

I noticed sometimes when I was either with Adrian or Dimitri that Christian would glare when he thought no one was looking and I wanted to role my eyes every time he did that because he needed to know that I wasn't any mans property. I was my own fucking person!

To say that neither Adrian or Dimitri noticed would be a lie. Sometimes when I was with Adrian and Christian would be looking -or rather glaring- he would put his arm on my waist and pull me closer to him, making me feel so wonderful and Dimitri would sometimes take my hand in his big strong one and give it a little squeeze making me feel less uncomfortable under Christian's scrutinizing eyes.

I kind of felt bad for Christian a couple of days ago when Lissa came in my room apologizing and at first I didn't know why but then she was saying that she swears she didn't know anything and that if she did she would've told me right away. And that kind of confused me a little more, because seriously…what the hell was she talking about?

Lissa was crying while running into my room and sitting on my bed, her hands covering the wet tears spilling out of her eyes and I just comforted her like any best friend would.

"Lissa" I said as I hugged her to my body "What's wrong?" I asked as she kept hiccupping her tears to stop.

"I'm so sorry Rose I didn't know Christian would keep such a huge secret from you. You have to believe me, I-I would've told you ri-right away and I would've broken up with him because of how h-he betrayed you"

I sighed. So this is what she was talking about? Honestly…now he let her know the secret? I wonder how it even came up in the first place.

Oh yeah, my father was marrying Natasha Ozera.

"Lissa, you need to relax and calm down. I'm not upset about that anymore. Chris told me before we came back to school, and he said he did it to protect me. He knows what it was like for me, and he told me he was doing it to help. And I believe him"

Also because he was still in love with me and he also couldn't stand the woman he loves being hurt. But I was never going to tell her that, I don't think I can break her heart like that.

She sniffled and rubbed her cheeks with her wrist and her palms pressed against her eyes, willing -I guess- for her tears to stop.

For some reason, seeing Lissa cry, seeing tears on that angelic face of hers always made something inside me click. Made me want to protect her from any kind of harm that came to her. Like I wanted to be her guardian.

Which in a way seemed like something out of the ordinary, even for me.

Still I kind of felt bad for the guy because he was about to lose another girl he loves.

It kind of broke my heart in a way but I have to make him see that Lissa is the only one for him.

"Liss, Chris is a really great guy and I know best friend loyalty applies to you and me like the ultimate rule of our friendship, but I know how much it would hurt you to walk away from Christian just because of this. And I wouldn't feel right being the cause of your relationship breaking up"

She sniffled and leaned into me wiping the last of her tears away.

"But what do I do" she asked me. "How do I handle it, because honestly you know that for you I would do anything"

I nodded and squeezed her shoulder lightly. "I know but, your happiness is kind of important to me. I want you to be happy and you're happy with Chris. So just give yourself some time and when you're ready to talk. Go to him and solve it all out"

"Yeah," she sniffled again. "you're right Rose" she yawned and slowly closed her eyes as if she was about to fall asleep here. And I couldn't have that, I was kind of meeting Adrian in a little bit and I think it'll be kind of embarrassing to tell Lissa that I was hopefully looking forward to that meeting. Especially after that wonderful mind blowing kiss we shared. Yeah, I don't think I wanna have that conversation right now.

"Liss" I said as I pulled her up and walked outside my room, sliding her along with me.

"Yeah" she answered in an already sleepy voice.

"Have a good night" I said after I entered her room and laid her on her bed, where she fell asleep peacefully.

After that night. Chris and Lissa have kind of been in an in and out of conversation. I mean we all know that they still love each other, but Lissa -just like me- was as stubborn as a mule and she right now didn't want to talk to Chris. Though once in a while I'd catch them both looking at each other when they thought the other wasn't looking and I found cute and also annoying.

Why couldn't he just decide that Lissa was better for him to love than me? I won't be able to love him, and I hate to think that I'm hurting him.

"Rose" Adrian called my name, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Hmm?"

"You okay?" he asked.

I nodded. "Yeah, just thinking about what's happened the past couple of weeks. It's not even the New Year and it feels like I've gone through the half of the school year already"

He smiled and brought me closer to him, my head on his shoulder.

Right now me and Adrian were having some alone time. Just us together. We always did this when we just wanted to hang out. We would sit in the student lounge when we knew no one was around and talked and talked for what seemed like forever.

We learned so much about one another, that sometimes it made me happy that I made a connection with someone as wonderful as him. It's shocking I think.

And other times when he would hold me like this, and we were just sitting in comfortable silence…I'd be thinking about that kiss we shared. I would always feel a small smile playing on my lips, and sometimes Adrian would surprise me by asking why I was blushing. I think it was kind of embarrassing in a way for me to tell him I was thinking about our kiss and how I wanted him to give me another just as mind blowing.

The spunky girl in me didn't want to come out and tell him that, the shy girl was sticking to the center of my brain, taking over. Making me someone I was such along time ago.

"What are you doing this weekend?" He asked me, while playing with my fingers.

I shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe sleeping in again. You know how I feel about weekend activities. I like to chill and make the best of it before coming back to prison"

He laughed and I almost melted on the spot. "Yes, I know how you are but I was asking because maybe you wanted to go down to Missoula with me so we could just" he shrugged "I don't know…hang out?"

I bit my lip and looked up at his emerald eyes, thinking that nothing could get better than this, but apparently it could. But I also couldn't go because, I've kind of neglected Dimitri the whole week and I wanted to spend some time with him. How do I tell Adrian I'm denying his invitation to try and hang out with his brother?

I sighed. I couldn't. I could never do that to him, I don't think I want to see that sad look in his eyes all over again.

"How about on Sunday?" I asked him.

He smiled at me and nodded, going back to absentmindedly playing with my fingers.

"Hanging out with Dimitri tomorrow then" he said out of the blue.

I sighed and looked at him. "Does that bother you?" I asked in a small voice.

He shook his head. "No, it doesn't. I understand. You haven't seen him all week and I know you want to spend some time with him. that's not a crime"

I internally sighed. I'm not stupid, I know these two have something going on and it's not good. I mean I know they don't hate each other, that's never going to happen. But it's something else. And when I've asked them what's wrong, they didn't say anything. They acted like I was a crazy person, when I knew I was right on the money.

If I think it's what I think it is, I don't think I'd like it. I would have to step back and move on like it's nothing and make sure that I never involve myself with brothers in the future.

I just hope it isn't. Stepping away from either Adrian or Dimitri will kind of affect me in a way I don't think I can withstand. It'd brake my heart into more pieces that I can never put back together.

"Will you ever tell me what's going on between you and Dimitri?" I asked out of the blue.

He sighed still absentmindedly playing with my hands, looking down at them like they were all that captured his attention, as if I didn't ask him anything just a second ago.

"When will you ever not ask me that question" said Adrian.

I sighed winding my fingers with his, lifting his chin, making him look at me. "When you stop dodging me and tell me what's going on. You know how stubborn how I am"

He smiled and I wanted to melt all over again "Yeah, I know how you are but I don't know what you're talking about. I told you already that Dimitri & I have nothing going on"

I rolled my eyes and he smirked and I swear I could kiss him right there. "You're such a horrible liar"

He smiled and chuckled. "How do you know if I'm such a horrible liar or not?"

"Because you've never lied to me about anything, except this. So I'm guessing this 'problem' is a big thing that you obviously don't want to tell me about"

"Rose-"

"No. just tell me, I don't want you guys having any kind of argument or misunderstanding. If I could fix it I would try. that's why I want to know"

He rubbed his thumb softly on my cheek, smiling sweetly. "I am being honest with you. There's nothing going on…I promise. Dimitri and I are like the way we've always been. You seriously are imagining things Rose"

I pouted and crossed my arms like a stubborn child.

He chuckled and I looked away from him, still pouting.

"Aww come on Rose. don't pout, you know I can't resist it when you pout. It drives me crazy"

I smiled on the inside. If he only knew what his genuine smile did to me. He wouldn't be so crazy as he so well puts it.

I turned around, softly running my fingers on his cheek. "Tell me" I whispered.

He closed his eyes and grabbed my wrist, softly kissing each of my fingers. "There's nothing to tell" he said in that sexy voice of his.

I let out a small shaky breath, and he smiled. Knowing exactly what he was doing to me. Cheater. "You're so mean"

He opened his eyes and smiled that 10k smile of his, making me want to melt right into him. He knew he won this battle for now. "I know I'm mean, but you love me that way"

I playfully shoved his shoulder. "Loser"

"The loser you love" he said with a cheeky smile.

I just rolled my eyes and laid my head down on his shoulder, placing some of my hair behind my ear. "Your lucky I love you, you loser"

He just chuckled and placed a soft kiss on my head.

I sighed utterly in content. Being this close to him, made everything bad in my head clear away for a while. Temporary normality. He's the greatest friend I could always have.

But somehow deep down inside my heart I feel like this won't last. I'm hoping I'm wrong, because I don't want to lose the little happiness that I have with all my friends.

With that happiness I have when I'm with Dimitri or Adrian.

My phone vibrated in my pocket and I sighed when I saw the number. I decided to pick it up anyway.

"Hello"

"Rose?"

"Sydney?"

"You have to come home quick"

"Why? What's wrong?"

"It's your mom"

Yeah, total cliffie I know but you guys still love me right?
I already have the next chapter written and edited -by me of course-
and definetely up for upload.
Still tell me what you think of this chapter and by sunday I'll upload the next chapter

Peace In

-Kristy