Okie Dokie do before the holidays kick in I wanted to put up a chapter
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VA = Richelle Mead

Chapter 14
Unanswered Questions

If I thought the flight from Missoula was long when I came back to school I never thought it would feel like an eternity sitting on this plane going back to New York.

"Rose" I looked at Adrian.

He put his hand on my knee. "You need to stop shaking, just relax okay? You need to be aware and focused when you land and reach the hospital"

"I know, I know but I can't help it Adrian. My mom's in the hospital! I've never known her to be admitted into a hospital. She's always been a clean bill of health"

"Roza" I turned to Dimitri. "Just calm down. We're here for you okay. And Adrian's right. You need to be aware and focused. If you're nervous and all over the place…you won't be able to function for your mom"

I nodded my head "You're both right" I grabbed both their hands and squeezed them lightly "I'm just worried. I feel like something bad is going to happen. It's like I can't shake the feeling, and it's making me more and more nervous, anxious"

It's true. I can't shake the feeling that something bad is going to happen.

In the pit of my stomach I can feel it and it's making itself known more and more as the time passes.

"I'm glad you guys are here. I don't know what I would've done if I was alone. You guys are the best"

"Yeah" Adrian said with a smirk. "we know we're the best. You don't have to tell us twice"

I let out a small snort and chuckled. "You're so full of yourself"

He smiled. "No, I'm not. I just know facts and that is 100% fact"

I looked at Dimitri. "Has he always been this weird or did it take a while for him to get this cocky?"

He pretended to think about it. "Hmm…I think it escalated until he exploded with weirdness and cockiness"

He laughed and I joined in.

"Hey" said Adrian. "I'm sitting right here you know"

"Yeah I know" I said.

Then he turned serious again. "Just get some rest okay. You need all your energy and being all nervous and anxious will wear you out"

I nodded. "Yeah, yeah okay. I'll try and see if I can take a nap before we get there. How long till we land"

"I'll ask the stewardess" He called over the stewardess and she came over smiling all cheesy, checking Adrian and Dimitri up and down. I couldn't help but scowl.

"Can I help you with something sir?" she said all smiley. Ugh!

"Yes, I was wondering how long until we land in New York?" asked Dimitri.

"It'll be another hour and a half before we land" she said.

"Thank you" he smiled a small smile and I could swear the stewardess had an orgasmic look on her face.

I couldn't blame her. These two guys were sex on legs and I'm glad everyone can see that. Still I hate to say I'm a little jealous. I hate seeing other girls ogle at them. Like I want to protect what's mine.

But then it kind of hit me. They don't belong to me. I haven't staked a claim. I can't though no matter how much I want too only because I wouldn't know who to claim as mine. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt myself.

Still I couldn't stop my mouth from saying anything stupid. Not when I was irrationally thinking.

"Wow, she looked like she was eye fucking you guys"

"Jealous much?" said Adrian.

I looked at Adrian. "What? No!"

I heard Dimitri chuckle and I turned to him and gave him a glare which caused a little laugh to come out of him. "He's right Roza" said Dimitri after he stopped laughing at me. "You do sound jealous"

"Ugh" I said leaning back onto my chair with my arms crossed. "Shut up"

"It really didn't look like she was 'eye fucking' me or Dimitri"

"Yeah right, she was basically undressing you in her head"

"Yeah you're not jealous at all" said Dimitri sarcastically.

"Idiots" I muttered.

They chuckled but didn't say anything after that.

Okay so yes, I was jealous. I am jealous. But it's like I already know. They don't belong to me no matter how much I wish they did.

I decided to see if I could sleep. It was one things the guys were right about. I do need to be focused and aware.

I still wonder what's wrong with my mother.

When she dropped me off at the airport the first day of school she was okay but still kind of mysterious, even for her.

I didn't think much of it at first, passing it as something wrong with one of her clients.

But collapsing? That involves fatigue, work stress.

My mother might love her job but she didn't overdo it. She did when I was a child. I remember staying in her office on the long body sofa she had there, sleeping until she thought time was appropriate to go home. I always noticed it was after midnight.

But still after that she slowed down, my father had asked her too only because he knew what it was doing to me. And she did slow down, I had family moments when I was younger, I knew what it was like to have beautiful memories without fake laughter, fake smiles. False declarations of love. Until my father walked away. Until he decided Natasha Ozera was more important that me. More important than my mother.

"Roza" Dimitri whispered in my ear. It sounded like a dream, that velvety Russian voice I've come to love. It made my heart swell. It made my insides swim with butterflies.

"Roza" He whispered again.

"Dimitri" I said, still sounding sleepy.

"Time to wake up Roza. We've almost landed"

"Where?"

I heard his chuckle and I wanted to have a smile on my face.

"New York" said Dimitri.

I nodded my head and my eyes fluttered open.

I did fall asleep.

"Alright, alright I'm getting up"

I opened my eyes and looked to the window seat.

I then turned to Dimitri. "Where's Adrian?"

"He got up and went to the bathroom before we landed"

I nodded.

Then I really looked at him and the way he was looking at me was wonderful. Those beautiful brown eyes I can't get enough of, so much darker and deeper than mine, showing so much love and devotion.

I've learned to read those eyes and whenever I could, I'd stare into them and I felt like I was in a different world. Like I've floated elsewhere into an oblivion of pure bliss.

I leaned in and placed a kiss on his cheek. "Thank you" I said. I shortly inhaled some of his scent and it was the scent of aftershave. It was so Dimitri, like his own personal scent that was only made for him.

Then I felt a smile of his spread on his face and I swear I blushed.

"For what?" he said.

I turned me head and looked at him. "For being here for me. You really didn't have to, but you are and that's why I'm thanking you"

He raised his hand and put some of my hair behind my ear. "You have nothing to thank me for Roza. You know I'll always be here for you"

"I know"

Someone cleared their throat and I looked up to see Adrian standing there, looking at how Dimitri and I were sitting so close, in a small kind of intimate gesture.

I pulled back and sat down in my seat.

He passed me and sat in his seat with a sullen look on his face. A look of jealousy that for a single moment crossed his face.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

I turned my whole body to look at him tucking my knees under me. "Are you okay?"

He smiled. "Didn't I just ask you that in a different way?"

He's dodging me. I sighed and nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm kind of glad I slept, it feels like it's been a while since I slept.

"It's good that you slept you were very anxious and nervous"

"Yeah, but I feel better now" I grabbed his hand and looked deeply into his eyes softly squeezing his hand.

He didn't acknowledge the gesture which kind of made me think he was jealous, which in turn made me sad. Seriously sad. But I hope I wouldn't let it show, and if it did that he would take the sad look on my face addressed to my moms unknown condition than instead of towards him.

For now though I have to concentrate on my mother. On what the hell is going on and to hope everything in the end turns alright.

OoOoO

APOV

I'm in love with her. Dimitri's in love with her. Confrontation about it was kind of expected. I've never felt this way about anyone, and it's like I knew from the beginning. I'd have to compete with my own brother for the love of a girl.

I wasn't going to give up, not on this.

Not when my heart is for once more happy than it's ever been before.

It was after the kiss Rose and I shared. I arrived to my room I share with Dimitri and when he came back from Missoula he saw the change in me.

He knew me better than anyone. One quick glance and he saw the difference in me.

He figured it was something related to Rose and the look in his eye was sad but not surrendered.

So I told him what happened. I shared my feelings toward Rose, my feelings on how close they seem like they are though they just met. I told him straight out I love her.

"So you really love her" said Dimitri.

"Yeah, I do. I believe I do. And I would do anything to make her love me. I would do anything to reach her heart"

The way I said that, the determined look I gave him was as serious as it can be.

"I also love her. She's the most beautiful creature I've ever laid eyes on"

He was serious. Determined. He was like me in this situation. We want the same girl. We love the same girl. It's not a bet. I would never do that to Rose.

The kiss we shared changed me, when I first looked at her I felt that she was holding me to this planet, keeping my feet on the ground instead of gravity.

She was the most beautiful witch who cast her spell on me.

And I wanted to just be close to her. I would never pressure her to be anything for me. I would hang out with her and we would talk and talk and I would get to know her because everything about her was completely fascinating.

I knew she'd see Dimitri too. I didn't care. She wants to be his friend and I don't care.

She cares for Dimitri as much as she says she cares for me and just like him, I would be anything for her, do anything for her.

It's why I'm on this plane right now, along with my brother, accompanying the woman we love to New York because of the distraught news that her mother is in the hospital.

I don't think I've ever seen Rose so broken before.

No, that's not true. I have. The time she told me about her father and how he abandoned her and her mother for someone else.

For Christian's aunt Natasha.

I got up to go to the bathroom right before we land. She'd been asleep so she wouldn't be missing me anytime soon and I wouldn't be worried about her.

She fell asleep being a bundle of nerves and then when I came back I see her giving Dimitri a kiss on the cheek, thanking him for being here for her.

I got jealous and I wanted to ignore her, I wanted to be mad at her, I wanted to be mad at Dimitri.

But I can't. Rose cares for him and she cares for me.

She always asks if there's something going on between us. There's nothing going on between us and at the same time there is.

But how am I supposed to tell her that I'm fighting against my own brother for her love?

For her heart?

She would walk away from us. I know her just like I know Dimitri.

Rose would walk away from us so she wouldn't hurt one of us.

I don't ever want to think about what it would be like if she stepped away, if she decided that she wasn't worth fighting for.

But I don't care if she would think that. I would fight for her love and if I lost, then it'd still be whatever she'd want me to be.

But for now I'm fighting for her love just like Dimitri is. And whoever wins her heart is the true winner.

RPOV

When we landed and arrived to the parking lot I saw my father waiting by his limo. I let go of the guys hands and ran to him with tears streaming down my face.

My father hugged me tight and soothed my hair. I just buried my head deeper on his chest.

I haven't seen him in so long and him being here right now is a bigger weight off my shoulders.

I looked up at him and wiped away some of my tears.

"Have you seen her yet?" I asked him.

"Yes. She's not awake right now, they have her sedated"

I let go of him and got a better look at his appearance. He looked worn out, tired and sad.

"What are you not telling me?"

He looked me in the eyes and he didn't look like he had any other choice but to tell me.

"What are you not telling me Abe?" I asked again.

"Rose-"

"No!" I interrupted him. "What aren't you telling me?"

I thought about it. Thought really hard about it. Of course there's only one thing that comes to mind. The reason him and I are both here.

He knows what's wrong with my mom. They told him what's wrong with my mom.

Why didn't they wait until I got here. It's why I was called here right?

"Do you know what's wrong with her?"

He looked away from me and I just wanted to punch him in the face.

"Do. You. Know. What's. Wrong. With. Her." My voice was hard, deadly. I was getting ready to grab him by the collar and beat the answer out of him.

I could see one his guards coming closer to me. Ready to restrain me if necessary.

I also felt my guardian angels behind me, ready to come to my aid.

"Your mom's dying"

"What" I whispered.

After that a lot of things didn't register. I couldn't hear or make sense of anything.

I heard footsteps behind me though, I heard my blood pumping faster through my veins, I felt dizzy, I saw my father mouthing words but I couldn't hear him.

I felt myself falling and I didn't know if anyone was going to catch me.

"Rose!"

"Roza!"

I heard my angels and that's all before everything went black.

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