Ok guys I just finished editing this and I like how it worked out.
I really wanted more detail but in some way I'm super blank.
Still it's only gonna get good from here my loves.
I hope you enjoy, I know I did when I finished editing.

VA = RM

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Chapter 19
Aftermath

RPOV

2 Months Later

I was back at St. Vladimir's University. But I've been back for a while. Three days after I buried my mother I took a plane back here.

The minute I heard that flat line I left the room. Adrian and Dimitri right behind me, Abe coming out of the elevator the minute I was stepping into it.

The look in his eyes when he saw the look in mine.

I did what I said when I returned home. I locked myself in my room, scattered all my belongings, screamed till I couldn't anymore, and cried till I fell asleep.

What surprised was that the next day, Everyone and I do mean everyone. Lissa, Mason, Mia, Eddie, they were downstairs just sitting around. Waiting for me I suppose.

I didn't say anything and when I decided to fly back to school, no one said anything. I knew they were concerned though. But I didn't have it in me to care.

I think I feel fine now. There's no trace of sadness left.

But every time I have to say "I'm fine" I want to punch someone in the fucking face.

I do things normal, I'm not misbehaving, I'm not acting out. I don't do anything but do what I want to do. What the hell is wrong with everyone.

Still something is always missing for me. In some kind of way I feel incomplete. So when I feel lost, I have nothing to do but pump up my adrenaline.

I stared to race, the only thing that got me running.

I race almost every night. And I always win. Going one hundred and twenty miles an hour is all I can ever want. Who knew that all these people love the adrenaline like I do?

No one knows my real name, to them, I'm known as "Rey"

I don't race my car. No, that would get me recognized everywhere. I don't need the publicity. My life was already an open book.

Somehow the press got word of the death of New York's most prestigious layer Janine Hathaway and I was forever being personally called by reporters, and interviewers. I told Sydney to specifically put a permanent stop to it.

For now I wouldn't be in charge of the company. But specifically in my mother's will, I would be in charge indefinitely of Hathaway Law Firm. The house was mine, the money she's had since for as long as I can remember also belonged to me. Everything was mine. And her New York property was just the tip of the iceberg. I would never have to get a single job. And what with Abe kept giving me, I'd forever be taken care of.

So with that money I bought myself my favorite model type motorcycle.

A beautiful, sleek, 2010 BMW R1200R.

Blue and mostly fast. All for me.

I win mostly a thousand dollars a night. I don't even know what to do with it all. Money I don't really need, but know I deserve it. Just like I know I always deserve to win.

It was early afternoon and I was sitting in the student lounge, right in between Dimitri and Adrian. My head on Dimitri's shoulder, my hand playing with Adrian's family crest ring. This is where I felt most comfortable.

Christmas vacation was right around the corner. In less than two weeks, the school would be empty and I didn't know what I wanted to do. You'd think with all the money I have I'd want something. But I didn't, not yet anyway.

"So I'm thinking of going to Las Vegas to fuck around" Mason said.

We were all thinking of individual places to go after we spent a certain amount of time with our families.

"I think I might go to Australia" said Eddie. "Surfing and babes?" he smirked and shook his head. "Couldn't find a better Christmas present to give myself"

Mia shook her head. "You're such a pig. I was thinking Italy. I'm sick of the cold, and I want a good tan" She shrugged. "no better place than Italy"

"I totally know why you wanna go to Italy" I smirked. "you're such a whore" She stuck out at me and huffed.

"So what?" Mia said. "There's nothing wrong with me looking for a piece of foreign ass"

I laughed and I heard everyone else do the same too.

"I think I can agree with that" I said. "But I don't need any foreign ass. I think I'm okay with what I got" Understatement of the year I thought to myself.

"You guys are unbelievable" Lissa said shaking her head. "Why not stay home? I don't really think there's anything wrong with that"

"Because some of us" I said. "don't have any homes"

"Oh Rose I'm-" but I put my hand up to stop her.

"I need to be alone" I got up from the sofa and started walking out. I could hear her footsteps right behind me.

"Go away Lissa. I just want to be alone"

"But-"

"No. just go away"

I didn't hear her behind me anymore. I was finally alone. So I walked to my solitary thinking spot.

I walked to the lake. My body sitting on the grass. My back pressed against the bench, my legs crossed and when I looked up I saw another full moon.

I sighed. This can't keep getting to me. Two months.

I've been fine. I feel pathetic and emotional.

I needed another race. I stopped two weeks ago after Adrian caught me.

I was coming from a race where I just won three grand. A beautiful smirk plastered on my face. My poor baby had a big scratch on the front which I'd have to get fixed before they called me out again next time. As soon as I slipped in through the back part of the school where no one else ever went through, I put my baby in the messed up shed and covered it up. When I stepped out and closed the door, Adrian came out from behind a tree and scared the fucking shit out of me. I swear my heart was going a million miles an hour.

"What are you doing here?" I asked in a calm voice as I made my way back to my dorm.

"Why don't you tell me why the hell you're racing and I'll tell you what I'm doing here"

I sighed. Seriously was there something he didn't know about me? Seems to be his one thing, he knows it all.

"How long have you known?"

"A while" he said.

"I'm a big girl Adrian. I do know how to take care of myself. I don't need a baby sitter"

"I realize that, but I know the dangers of racing. I now what it's like to almost lose it all"

I turned back to look at him. "If you hadn't noticed, I've already lost it all. If there's anything left to lose and you know about it, please let me know"

He sighed and crossed his arms. "Fine. If you think you have nothing to lose then go ahead and think that way, but I have a lot to lose and I don't want you to take that away from me"

He walked towards me and embraced me. His hand on my lower back, his other hand placed on my cheek. His beautiful warm lips on my forehead.

"No more racing" he whispered against me. "Please?" the last part he whispered, his voice sounding pained. It tugged at my own heart.

"Only for you" I responded. I gave in so easily. Yet, I know there isn't much I wouldn't do for him. He was a weakness. Something I never had. As a child my mom told me that falling in love was her weakness. Her only weakness. Now I know what she meant. And it makes my heart ache to know I have something I never thought I could have.

I needed to release this, whatever it was that I have deep inside me right now. I need to race. But if I do, will he be disappointed in me?

Will he give up on me?

"Roza"

I didn't even hear him come up behind me, I'm more lost in my thoughts than I realized. I smiled. He knows me too well sometimes. My other weakness.

I looked up at him. Once again I remembered the night we first met, he looked beautiful with the moon shining on him. He is my own personal Russian God.

"Do you always know where I am, or do you just stalk me because of my undying beauty?" I teased.

"Well I can't argue with your undying beauty. You are beautiful Roza, but this is where you always go when your mind wants to wander. It's also our place."

I nodded. "That's true"

He came to sit beside my head. I placed it on his knee and he began to soothe my hair.

"Am I ever gonna get over death?"

"No one ever really does. It's hard I suppose. But has to be accepted because it is part of life"

"I know. But it's the pain I don't want eating me inside out. I wasn't normal before, but I was manageable in my feelings. There was balance. I don't have that anymore Dimitri"

"You'll have it soon Roza. No one stays this way forever. I would never let you stay this way forever. You know how much I care for you, how much you mean to me"

"I know" I whispered.

He got up and sat on the ground with me. His shoulder making a better spot for my head to rest. He was warm, always warm.

"Спасибо (thank you)" I whispered and softly kissed his neck. I was proud of myself for learning Russian. It made me feel better knowing that I could hide my feelings some other way. I bet Dimitri liked it as well.

"Приглашаем Вас Роза (you're welcome Roza)"

"поцелуй меня? (kiss me?)" I whispered against his neck.

His hold tightened around me. I don't know why I asked him to do that, but I felt that pull to him, he was another drug I couldn't get enough of. I didn't want to get enough of.

He didn't make a move. He just sat there and I know he was contemplating it. Between what he thought was right…and what I know he wanted. So I made the decision for him.

I slowly began to kiss his neck, moving at an immensely slow pace, giving him the time to pull away if he needed too. And when he didn't I sighed and felt him shudder.

I made my way up some more, finally getting to his cheek. I looked more closely to his face and his eyes were closed. I put my hand on his other cheek and made him face me.

"Open your eyes Dimitri" I whispered.

He opened them and the shade of brown never ceased to amaze me. They always hypnotized me into never looking away.

"Do you want to kiss me Dimitri?"

He grabbed my hand I placed on his cheek and he began to kiss my palm slowly, sensually. I let out a soft sigh. His lips felt amazing against my hand. I almost let out a small moan.

"Open your eyes Roza" he whispered against my hand.

I hadn't even realized I closed them. I've never seen his eyes look that way before. They were shining in the most beautiful way and also covered in the most sensual way as well.

I slowly pulled him to me and pressed my lips to his lightly.

The electricity I felt when those warm lips touched mine briefly was the utmost sensation I've ever felt.

So I pulled him to me again and this time for longer.

He tasted divine and when his tongue massaged mine I had to moan. It was amazing like the sweetest fruit on the tree.

He laid me flat on the ground, hovered over me and deepened the kiss. He never went further though. His hands only placed on my hips. He was being perfect in every way. I didn't ever want to stop kissing him, but I was running out of air.

So when I pulled away, he looked down at me and I could tell by the look in his eyes that he wanted so much more. But I couldn't do it. Not right now, not when my feelings are all over the place.

"мой лучший друг (my best friend)" I said to him as I placed some un-kept hair behind his ear. It was always there. It made him beautiful though.

He smiled and laid beside me, intertwining our hands as we looked up at the stars. It was the best night of my life.

OoOoO

When I woke up the next morning, I was running late. I threw on my tight black jeans, my beat up converse, and my Paramore Small Womens t-shirt.

I was running down the stairs, out the door and when I rounded the corner I bumped into someone…again!

"Dammit what the fuck!" I landed right on my ass and it hurt like crazy.

"Late as always Rose and I see you still have that feisty temper"

I knew that voice, and I thought I'd never hear it again. When he left St. Vladimir's he said he'll see me soon. But I didn't expect this soon. A year later is too soon.

But when I opened my eyes and I looked up at him I noticed he hasn't changed since the last time I saw him.

The dirty blonde hair, the honey colored eyes, the toned muscles, and the perfect face. It was all there like I remembered it, but I just couldn't believe it.

He held his hand down to me and I grabbed it while he pulled me up.

Yeah, he was real, and he was here. Right in front of me.

"Matthew" I whispered.

"Rosalinda" he said with that cocky smile.

I sighed inward. Today was just starting.

And I thought my life couldn't get anymore complicated.

I did not plan on introducing Matthew to this chapther but I
kind of liked adding new issues to Rose's life. I love keeping my readers on edge.
So tell me what you thought of Matthew?
And what do you think his role is gonna be in this story?

Review my lovers. Id love to know what you think.

Peace In.

-Kristy