Chapter two - Pain and New Friends

Bellatrix walked into the great hall, ignoring all the stares she got from the people around her. She walked to the Slytherin table and sat down next to a girl she remembered as Lillian Smith. She glanced at the Gryffindor table and saw him sitting there with a depressed expression on his face. She looked down and sighed, waiting for the sorting ceremony to start. She wanted to go to the dormitories as fast as possible. Suddenly she felt a tap on her shoulder and she turned around and saw Lillian Smith looking at her with a curious look on her face.
"Yes?" Bellatrix asked, she really wasn't in the mood to speak with anyone.
"Is it true that you and that Gryffindor boy, Sirius Black are secret lovers? And that you are cousins?" Lillian whispered and a smug smile played on her lips.
Bellatrix frowned at her and spoke with a cold voice
"Yes, we are cousins but no, we are definitely not secret lovers. We don't even speak with each other. And if we now were even close it's none of your business. And I suggest you turn your face away right now before I hex you."

Lillian looked at Bellatrix surprised and Bellatrix thought about her words and about her plan, and that made a wave of pain go through her. Then suddenly Selena and Brianna walked up to Bellatrix and Selena spoke so loudly that made every single eye turn to her.
"Don't deny it Bellatrix. You and Sirius kissed! We saw it with our own eyes and as you know we took pictures! You are in love with him Bellatrix! You are a blood-traitor! And a disgrace to your house and your family!"
Bellatrix felt furious and quickly pulled out her wand and pointed it at Selena. How dared she say such things? How dared she even look at Bellatrix? She wanted to curse her so badly. She thought about her plan and knew that it was time. She stood up, still with her wand pointed at Selena.
"How dare you? How dare you spread false rumors about me? You don't know a thing!" Bellatrix yelled and glanced at the Gryffindor table again and saw that he was looking. Perfect, her plan would go as planned but it would kill them both more than anything. She struggled back her tears and yelled
"I don't even speak with him and you want me to love him? I hate him with all of my heart. And I wish that he wasn't my cousin. I feel embarrassed to even admit that we're related!" She turned her face towards him and saw him look at her with pain in his eyes, she hid her own pain and put on her most disgusted expression and kept yelling, but now towards him.
"Sirius I hate you! And I don't want anything to do with you! You are a disgrace to the family. You're a blood-traitor! A filthy blood-traitor! And look what you've dragged me into!" She quickly turned away to Selena again, she kept her pain hidden but couldn't help but frown slightly when she saw his hurt and painful expression. He had believed her. All Bellatrix wanted to do was to run over to him and hold him in her arms and tell him the truth, but it was impossible. She breathed heavily and pointed her wand at Selena's chest, yelling. "Stupefy!" she Watched Selena fly backwards and into a wall, completely stupefied. Bellatrix turned to look at Sirius again but he wasn't there. Brianna and the other students looked at Bellatrix with horror, and suddenly the teachers came running. They gasped at the sight of Selena and asked what had happened but no one answered, and Bellatrix quickly ran out from the great hall and out to the school grounds.

She ran towards the forbidden forest. She knew she wasn't allowed to be there but she didn't care. And she just kept running deeper and deeper into the forest. She continued running even though her feet had started aching. But suddenly her robes got stuck in a bush and she fell. And then she couldn't keep the tears back and she let them fall. She crawled up behind a big tree and kept sobbing. And she sat there in what seemed like hours. She pulled up her knees to her chest and hid her face in her hands as the tears kept falling. Suddenly she heard a twig break and she looked up and quickly grabbed her wand. Then she heard something come closer and she looked around, ready to cast a spell on the first moving thing she saw. She knew that there were all kinds of dark creatures in here and she kept looking around with tear stained cheeks. She heard the sound of paws coming closer and closer, and she got quite surprised when a big black dog approached her. She sighed relieved and relaxed against the tree again. She had expected something dangerous but she knew that dogs weren't dangerous at all so she put her wand away. The dog walked closer to her and sat down in front of her. "You scared me a bit there." She said and smiled softly. The dog looked into her eyes and they almost looked...sad, and they kind of reminded Bellatrix of Sirius. She sighed and shook her head. The black dog slowly walked closer to her and put his head in her lap, she gently stroked its head and let her tears fall again.

The dog looked up and tilted its head slightly, then it licked her hand like it wanted to comfort her. Bellatrix looked at the dog sadly. It was just a dog, it wouldn't understand anything, so Bellatrix let her heart take over the talking again. She needed to tell someone, she needed to empty her heart from the pain that was killing her. It was something with the dog that made Bellatrix feel safe, there was something familiar with it. But she had never seen this dog before so she assumed it was just her imagination. And she started to talk, still with tears falling down her cheeks.
"I didn't have a choice, I had to do it, it was for our own good." She kept stroking the dogs back and it looked up at her with big surprised eyes, Bellatrix didn't understand why he looked so surprised but she kept talking. "He believed me, but I really wish he hadn't because I still care for him!" She buried her face in the dogs fur as her tears came rolling faster down her face. "All I said was lies, I had to do it, for our family's reputation, but I don't think I care anymore. I still care about Sirius...I want him back, but it's impossible, I will never have him back. He hates me...he thinks I hate him, but I don't. I could never hate him." She wrapped her arms around the dog and kept sobbing. "I think I might even...love him." She whispered and the dog made calm whimpering noises that soothed Bellatrix slightly. She sat there with the dog, her head resting on its back. It was past midnight, she knew it. She was hungry and tired but didn't want to walk back, so she sat there with the dog in her arms and her head in its fur, she closed her eyes and she soon fell asleep.

Bellatrix woke up in the morning, the dog was looking up at her and she smiled slightly towards it. She yawned and stretched and looked around. "I have to get back. My first lesson starts soon and I need something to eat." She slowly stood up and patted the dirt away from her robes. "Thank you for listening. It was nice to have someone to talk to." She said and leaned down and kissed the dogs forehead.
"Goodbye." She whispered and turned around and started walking towards the castle.

She met her sisters on her way up to the castle, they were going to their first lessons and asked her where she had been and that they had been worried about her. Bellatrix just said that she'd been sitting in the forest and walked away. She had missed breakfast and she was hungrier than ever, but she couldn't do anything now, she has to wait until lunch, that was twelve o'clock. Only four hours, she told herself and walked to the common room and grabbed her bag. Her first lesson was Potions, and much to her dismay it was with the Gryffindors. "Perfect..." She muttered sarcastically. The last thing she needed was to spend a complete hour in a room with the man she had just broken the heart on. She slowly walked to the Potions classroom and her stomach kept rumbling quietly. She sighed and walked into the classroom, she had no choice. All the other students were already there but class hadn't started yet so she wouldn't get any detention, thank god for that.

The lesson went very slowly and Bellatrix tried not to glance up at the desk in the back of the classroom where he was sitting. And she found it very hard since he didn't stop looking at her. She made small notes on a piece of parchment once in a while and then she kept forcing her eyes to look down and not up to meet his gaze.

She felt horrible, she was dead on the inside and every time during the day that she saw him, a huge wave of pain went through her. She almost wished that the big black dog was with her.

The rest of the day had gone very slow, but finally she was sitting in a couch in the common room. She had gotten a wonderful lunch and a more wonderful dinner and it was now 20.30 pm and she sat curled up in front of the fire. She looked out of the window and thought about the dog, she wondered if he could still be there in the forest. Maybe she should go out there and check? She felt like she really needed to see the dog again. So she stood up and walked out of the common room. She sneaked out to the grounds and walked to the forest.

It was a bit chillier at night so she wrapped her robes tighter around her and walked deeper into the forest, looking around.
"Hello? Black dog? Are you there?" she yelled, in hope that he would show himself. Then she heard a noise from behind and she turned around, but she didn't see what she had expected to see, it wasn't the black dog standing in front of her, it was a fully grown werewolf. Bellatrix started to shake hysterically and looked up at the werewolf with fear in her eyes. She reached after her wand but it wasn't there. Damn! She had left it on her bed, and that was quite unusual because Bellatrix hardly went anywhere without her wand. But now she was defenseless and would probably die. She backed away slowly but the werewolf walked closer to her, with its mouth open so she could see his big teeth. She thought about Sirius and that she would never be able to see him again, and tell him the truth, she felt tears running down her cheeks and she backed away more and suddenly she fell and the werewolf was leaning down towards her, ready to take a bite.

Bellatrix closed her eyes and thought about Sirius, she thought about their kiss while she waited for death. But just before the werewolf bit her she heard another sound and she quickly opened her eyes. She saw that the werewolf wasn't standing over her anymore and it was now battling with another animal. A big black dog. Bellatrix watched the two animals fight in horror, she didn't want the dog to get hurt. She wanted to help but didn't know how. The battle was terrible, the werewolf tried to bite the dog but the dog just defended himself, like he didn't want to hurt the werewolf.

Suddenly a howling noise came from far away. The werewolf stood up straight and looked up, howling back. It was like it had forgotten all about Bellatrix and the dog, he turned around and ran in the direction of where the howling had came from.

When it was gone Bellatrix turned around to the dog and saw him lying on the ground, breathing heavily. She hurried over to it and sat down next to it, putting its head in her lap. He was shaking and Bellatrix soon saw that he had sever scratches over his face and a big cut on his left foreleg, that was bleeding. Bellatrix kept shaking and tears continued falling down her cheeks, she couldn't let him die so she ripped of a part of her robes and tied it tightly around the cut to stop the bleeding. The dog whimpered and looked up at her and she stroked its head gently. "You're going to be alright." She whispered and kept stroking his head. And she sat there with him for hours. Bellatrix placed soft kisses on his head. More hours went and she soon fell asleep with the dog in her lap.

Bellatrix woke up in the sunrise, she was lying on the ground in the forest. The dog was gone and she was there all alone. She sat up, leaves and small twigs had gotten stuck in her messy and curly hair. She tried to stand up but her entire body ached from lying on the ground. After minutes of struggling to stand up she finally made it and she slowly started walking back towards the castle. She walked down to the common room and decided to take a shower before she went up for breakfast. The leaves and twigs were really hard to get out of her hair and when she finally was done she realised that she just had fifteen minutes left before her first lesson started. She had to skip breakfast today too. She changed into new robes and placed her wand in her pocket. She grabbed her bag and took out her schedule. Her stomach rumbled loudly but she ignored it as she read the schedule. She had a free period after her first lesson, that was Charms with the Hufflepuffs, so she could eat something then. She walked out of the common room and to the Charms classroom.

The lesson went very fast and when it was over Bellatrix ran to her dormitory and opened her trunk, she found a couple of chocolate frogs in it and she ate them. They didn't completely satisfy her but she didn't had anything else to eat, she had to wait until lunch that was in two hours.

Her next lesson was a double hour in Transfiguration with the Ravenclaws. She hadn't seen Sirius the whole day, and she didn't know if she should feel happy or sad about it. She shook her head and started walking towards the Transfiguration classroom.

Transfiguration was very boring according to Bellatrix, and she spent most of the time doodling on her piece of parchment. When she looked at her doodles she realized that she had drawn a big dog, and Bellatrix immediately thought about the big black dog and wondered where he was and how he was feeling. When the lesson ended Bellatrix hurried to the great hall and sat down at the Slytherin table, between her sisters.
"How have your day been Bella?" Andromeda asked happily.
"It's been quite alright." Bellatrix answered, she really wasn't in the mood of talking.
"Oh okay, mine was great! We practiced new spells today and it was super fun." Andromeda said and she had a big smile on her face.
"That's good dear." Bellatrix replied and forced a smile and then looked down at her plate. When everyone had entered the great hall the food appeared on the tables and everyone started eating. Bellatrix ate roast chicken with mashed potatoes and she drank pumpkin juice. It tasted wonderful and after a while she wasn't hungry anymore. She kept thinking about the big black dog and the deep cut that it had gotten. She wanted to go back and find him but after seeing the werewolf she felt too scared. Bellatrix was chewing a piece of chicken when she glanced over to the Gryffindor table, and saw something that almost made her choke. She saw Sirius sitting between James Potter and Remus Lupin, who looked like he just had gotten five minutes of sleep. But it wasn't how his friends looked like that made her choke, it was him. Sirius had scratches over his face and had white bandage wrapped around his left arm.

A/N: Any guesses of who the big black dog might be? ;) It's not so hard to guess. Oh and I'm sorry for the shortness of this chapter, I need to figure out some new ideas. Don't forget to review :P