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This is chapter three, do enjoy it!

ITADAKIMASU!

Chapter 3: two weeks later

~ 14 Days later ~

Ayase woke up in the middle of the night. A large storm was audible outside and the wind ravaged against his windows in an angry rage. The storm only became worst. Three days ago it had started to rain and not one minute had it stopped.

Ayase moved himself out of bed and walked towards the window. He removed the curtains and looked outside. In the distance he saw a bright ray of lightning crushing down from the heavens. The blonde raised his hand and counted on his fingers:

"One elephant, two elephant, three elephant four elephant, five ele…" and then a loud thunder was heard. That meant it was at almost five kilometres of distance. This was a trick he had learnt from his father when he was a kid. They also stood in front of the window, watching the storms and counting how far the storm was from their house. It wasn't that far anymore…

The blonde stared at his fingers that he had just stretched out to count. This was one of the things he had never been afraid of. Storms, thunder, lightning… in fact he enjoyed the idea of rain when he was inside the house or under an umbrella. He smiled at that. It had been a long time since he went out in the rain…

He always went to shop by foot, since the stores were near, and once in a while it started to rain. When it did, he made his walk as long as possible, to enjoy the wonderful sight and smell the rain gave when it hit the ground. He loved it so much. He turned towards the sound of the clock. It was 2AM. It would be better if he'd just went to sleep now. Then, all of a sudden, a flash came at the same time as the loud thunder. Ayase screamed in surprise and jumped from the ground. The whole house trembled because of the thunder and this time he couldn't deny he felt scared. When another thunder came right after the first one, he placed himself in the corner of the wall and couldn't but scream for help. He screamed the first name that came in mind and hugged his own knees.

"Kanou-san!" his face blushed when he realised what he had just yelled. He looked up slowly but kept leaning his face onto his knees. He had tried not to think of Kanou-san that much anymore for the past few weeks. He hid the bag under his bed, not giving the insides one look and hid the cup Kanou always used along with it. But this time he couldn't help but think of the man.

His face turned towards the bag and he tried to hide deeper into his knees. His body moved out of itself as he crawled towards his bed and pulled out the bag. His slender fingers surrounded the zipper and opened it slowly. The first thing he pulled out was the cup. His eyes stared at it and he blinked a few times. He couldn't remember that he had put the cup into the bag. His eyes scanned it slowly. Even though he knew what it looked like exactly, he decided to turn on his light to give it a better look. The colour was blue and there stood a little drawing onto it of a small pig, smoking a cigarette. Ayase smiled a the look the pig gave him. It looked angry and vile, but at the same time it was the cutest animal Ayase had ever seen in a drawing. He placed it beside him and again searched in the bag.

Clothes. All of the clothes Mizoguchi had made for him, on Kanou's order, lay neatly folded in the bag. Ayase took them out and placed them next to the cup. Only the last T-shirt he gave a better glance. It was the white one with the blue cross on it. Ayase smiled. This was his most favourite shirt to wear… mostly because it was the most normal and decent one.

Ayase grabbed hold of it and held the shirt in front of him. When he shook it lightly, to make the folds disappear, another piece of cloth tumbled out of it. Ayase placed the shirt aside and took the other thing on the floor in front of him.

It was a tie. A red tie. One of Kanou's favourite ones, because it strangely fitted with almost every costume he wore. Ayase's face again blushed. Kanou would probably miss it. The blonde closed his eyes.

Before he knew it he pressed the tie closely to his nose and gave it a good smell. Kanou-san. He could still smell Kanou-san. The same smell that surrounded him when Kanou hugged him. The same smell that hung in the entire house where he had lived for the past four years. The same smell that he smelled like after… Ayase opened his eyes at that thought. His hair would smell exactly like Kanou-san after they had sex. The exact same smell.

Ayase's arms trembled as he recalled the way Kanou looked at him when they did it. The kind eyes, with a glance of worry. The man trying to be careful as to not hurt the boy and prepare him properly.

Ayase's heart thumped loudly and he swallowed. The man had touched him everywhere. Not a single place on his body had been left untouched once the man grabbed hold of him. Ayase caressed his own arm with his finger.

The man's hot touch… his dark brown eyes and the drop of sweat sliding down his temple as he thrust into the boy deeper and deeper.

Ayase trembled at the thought. His hands slowly moved to the buttons of his pyjama shirt and opened them one by one, placing the necktie next to him.

His strong arms would capture the boy completely, while his tongue softly caressed his neck and he would leave a kiss mark on the exact same spot later on.

The boy pulled down his pants and didn't have to look down to know that he was erect. His entire body ached, and he felt both hot and cold at the same time. His insides were burning.

The blonde bit his lower lip as he let his hand slide over his hot length, and moaned softly. He closed his eyes, trying to get rid of the fact that he was touching himself and imaging it was the man stroking him softly.

'Ayase'

The blonde could hear the voice… whispering his own name with a husky voice, hearing how the man himself felt as good as he did. The blonde felt small tears welling up in his eyes as he pushed one of his slender fingers in himself, spreading his legs as wide as possible to get a better reach.

"Unn… Kanou-san…" he said softly, moving faster, stroking himself, blushing, crying, mewling and moaning… his entire body screaming for a release.

"I-I'm… com… Uaaah!" the blonde released himself inside his hand, feeling the hot liquid streaming down over his other hand, which he pulled out slowly.

The boy breathed harshly, trembling all over. It had felt so great. He opened his eyes now, pulling himself out of his fantasy, realising that the man was nowhere around and he himself had done this, without the other's help.

Ayase's cheeks were wet from crying, his face sticky and red. He slowly sat up, staring down at his filthy hands as another loud thunder appeared. Had it been storming this entire time? He hadn't noticed it all…

The blonde stood up, and walked himself to the bathroom, not realising at all what just had happened. He felt strange and his brain was fuzzy. His legs trembled, the feeling he just had still travelling through his body. The blonde turned on the shower and got in, the ice-cold water streaming down over his body as he washed himself. The water didn't seem to wake him up or make him feel any better. He only thought of the man, even though he had just done… that.

The blonde leaned his head against the shower wall, placing his hands in front of his face. This was unbelievable. Why did that tie have to be in the bag? Or why did the blonde actually had to look? Why was he so desperate that he even did that to himself?

Before he met he man he never had touched himself, and now, after fourteen days of not seeing him, he couldn't hold back and even… he started to sob loudly in his hands. What had happened to him these four years? What exactly had the man done that he felt like this… that he missed the man that much and missed his touch. Why was everything so difficult…?

After a few minutes the blonde turned of the shower and walked back to his bed. He didn't even try putting on his pyjama's again. He stared towards the ceiling, hearing how the clock ticked beside his bed. It was not 3AM. Only one hour had passed. Ayase sighed, turning away from the ticking thing and he stared towards the wall now. He had to do something to not think of the man all the time. Maybe he should go and find a job? Now that the strict control of Kanou-san wasn't around, he could decide what to do.

He had finished his university years. No more school now, but the man never allowed him to take a job either. Since that one time at Someya-san's bar… again the blonde sighed an he turned on his other side.

It was decided. Once he woke up the next morning, raining or not, he would go and look for a job. And for the first time in those four years, he remembered what it was like to make your own life.

Kanou's alarm clock went off. Though he had been awake for the past few hours he still gave an angry growl and pressed the upper button of the small clock. It was now time to get up and go to work.

How he hated to go to work, but at the same time, at work he wasn't reminded of the angel that had left him. He sat up now, turning his legs out of bed and he stood up.

For the past few weeks he hadn't cried anymore. It had been since he was a baby and crying three days had given him the worst headache in years. Even worse then a hangover. He coughed lightly and dawdled towards the toilet.

A loud thunder was heard from outside as he yawned loudly. He flushed the toilet and walked towards the kitchen, preparing some coffee. He opened the refrigerator, only to find that there was nothing eatable anymore. The leftovers from Ayase's dinner or breakfast were all thrown away. Probably done by Gion when he fell asleep at Gion's place. He couldn't blame him. It did make him feel better… a few things less that reminded him of his blonde.

His blonde. The man sighed deeply. Not anymore he wasn't. He took his coffee, took a large gulp and walked towards his bedroom. He dressed quickly, trying not to wander off with his mind.

And then he noticed… something was missing. Where in the world did he leave his tie? Didn't he put it on the chair, together with his costume? The man sighed deeply. He always used that tie. Now where did he put it? The man walked to his closet and searched among his other ties, but not one red one was found. Why did he only buy one red tie? He had the money to buy other ones… he sighed deeply, grabbed a mere grey one and put it on.

He stared in the mirror. Still confused of where he had left his tie. Not at Gion's place. He didn't do the effort of wearing a tie back then. Then where… he shook his head lightly. This wasn't the time to think about that. He could just buy a new one. But not one of them would have been touched by Ayase. He coughed loudly before his mind could fully wander off and walked towards the front door.

The weather hadn't changed. It was still dark and cloudy outside. The man closed the door behind him and walked towards his office in frustration. Once again, he couldn't put the angel out of his head.

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