A/N

Hey – Enjoy the 2nd Chapter. Again sorry it took so long. Christmas, New Years, lots and lots of cousins, being ill and then snow. Sooooooo. ENJOY!

Again thanks to my Beta shroomy-eyes!

Chapter 2

Cold Bum

'I'm not sure I heard you right.'

'I'm sure you did Al,' I tell her sarcastically.

She just looks at me in silence for a minute, then she speaks again, 'Let me get this straight, you are actually telling me that you are actually seriously considering it, seriously?' her voice gets louder at the end. Some third years turned to look at the two of us. they quickly turn back around after meeting with my glare - a perk of being head girl.

'I was just thinking about it that was all' I tell her

'But it's just, woo, so un lily-like, it's just, fuck, um... have you shared this little thought with James yet?' she asks obviously feeling nervous at the thought of me telling James.

'No of course not! It's just a thought, that's all. It won't come to anything.' I pause and Alice keeps looking at me, 'well it might not.'

Alice opens her mouth to say something but then bends lower and says, 'we'll defiantly be talking about this again.'

Before I can respond, a hand is placed on my back and it is slowly drawn across my back until I feel someone sit next to me and I'm pulled into them, their arm tightens around me and I feel a kiss being laid on the top of my head, 'hey.' I whisper up at him, 'you okay?'

'Yeah, I've got practice today, come with?' he asks it as a question but we both already know that it isn't one and there's only one possible outcome.

'Of course.'

'James.' Alice asks

'yes?'

'What do you think about.....' she begins but she meets my gaze and quickly changes her question 'what have you got Ais for her birthday?'

James even though I can't see his face, I know he's puzzled, not only because of her poorly disguised cover up but he probably didn't even know it was her birthday soon.

'We got her those hate, scarf and glove set she really wanted.' I tell her, not looking up from my pancakes

'Nice, the ones she was going on and on about?'

'Yep.'

She nods in agreement.

'Wow.' I hear James say.

'What?'

'We're that couple.'

Before I can reply, Alice does instead, 'umm hello, James you're the couple.'

He obviously made some move to show that he understood, 'yeah but the couple who buys presents together.'

I look up at him, 'you don't mind do you?'

'No, makes my life easier.' he smiles at me and places another kiss on my forehead, 'we better get going if we want to go to practice.' he tells me. I nod and stand up after him.

***

After practice, James dropped me back at the dorm before he went to see McGonagall. According to him she wanted to see him about some essay and I quote 'I will refuse to see you if you drag Miss Evans with you - you are a grown man James Potter and you do not need to be joined at the hip to your girlfriend. Oh and tell her it was a wonderful essay she gave in.' He even did the Scottish accent.

I'm not saying I disagree with McGonagall, actually in fact I agree with her. We have been spending too much time together recently

It gets lonely here though. I don't just mean being by myself in our dorm, but even when I with James it's lonely.

I miss being me. Well not me but the 'us'. The us that Alice called 'the couple' we are still them, but we're not at the same time. But I want to be that again, I want to be... I want to be the people who spent a whole day in London, who eat bananas in The Ritz. I want to be the girl who gets a duck party thrown for her. I want to be them again.

But I think that's just a childish dream. Wanting to go back to when it was easy. So if I can't have that, then I want something more adult, grown up, something where we can still have a laugh, and he can still kiss me. Something where he'll just turn around and be my James.

Maybe we've just reacted differently to the same thing. Maybe it's because we had different relationships with our parents. When mine died I hung on so tight to James. He never left, he never questioned he just was there, I clung to the normality, the holding hands, the hugs the meaningless conversations and if he ever thought it was odd he never mentioned it, He would just have the conversations with me. He just reacted differently and I'm being there for him and everything but it's hard.

So it can't go back to what it was, but maybe it'll be better and maybe it'll work functionally, but before that I have to come to term with that fact that it isn't the same and to make it better, different, more normal seeming than it is at the moment I have to put some effort in. I have to do something. Because the relationship that I use to have, the relationship that I want is slowly getting further and further away by the day

Because after a while the new way you live become just as normal as the old way you were use to. The way you use to live is just some fading memory almost a foreign dream that you had once and occasionally you remember it with fondness.

Or maybe it's like when you're sat on a sofa and getting cold, so you want to wrap a blanket around yourself or put on a jumper. But that would mean moving which you really can't be bothered to do plus you've been sat in the same position for so long that you legs and bum are toasty warm. And if you moved you would get colder, so you don't bother.

Actually it's probably more like that.

Well now I have deciphered what it is, I need a cure.

Not sure what I need or how I'm going to get it. I just need to find the get up and go to well get up and risk getting a cold bum.

After all worse things have happened.

I think

A/N

Again nothing to really say. But you know the deal read, review (or if you cant be bothered just alert)

And again thanks to everyone of you lot!

Ken

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