Four…. =)
Edward was wrong. We weren't okay. We almost got caught…five times in the past week. One from each member of the family. Well, except Emmett…
He was too busy thinking I was a spy…Sigh…what a weirdo.
I've been here for almost a month, and things have semp't pretty normal. School had gotten better, but Alice was very suspicious between Edward and I. It's like she could see the near future or something…
Rosalie was also keeping tabs on us, watching our every move. Usually Edward has to sneak into my room, around midnight. Good thing Rosalie's room is on the other end of the hall.
Although; I prefer Edward's room. It's just easier to hide if someone would catch us.
Edward was like my best friend. I feel like I've known him my lifetime, and in reality we've only known each other a month. Of course I'd feel nervous, or butterflies in my stomach, whenever I was near him. But, who wouldn't? He's a god.
The kiss…oh, yeah…I think it meant something, and we were getting past it. But; deep down, I didn't want too.
"Hey, bells, wanna come take a walk with me?" Edward asked; flashing me his perfect smile. I agreed, way too quickly. He just chuckled.
We walked down the narrow path that led deep into the woods, and behind the Cullen's property.
"Woah; this is beautiful." I commented, as we walked into a small meadow that was lightened by the sun flittering threw the trees softly.
"I know. I love coming here."
I was confused. "Than why'd you bring me here? Is this like…your place to get away? I don't want to ruin it-" He cut off my blabber. "Bella, your not ruining anything."
His hand quickly caught mine, and the familiar spark flew. "It's better with you here…" He explained softly; in his musical voice, instantly dazing me.
His green eyes caught mine, and locked them instantly. I couldn't look away if I wanted too.
"Bella," He whispered, leaning his head toward mine. "Edward-" I stopped him, "Is this such a great idea?" I asked; cautious. He sighed, obviously frustrated.
"Bella, so what if someone catches us? It'd be easier to tell them if we were together." I knew what he meant by "Together," I just couldn't imagine it.
"Your right," As always…
He didn't wait for me to react as he leaned his head toward me again. His lips crashed to mine, creating a spark, that couldn't break us.
"Isabella?" Mr. Varner called on my non-raised hand. "Bella," I muttered quietly. "Yes?"
"The square root of pie is…?" He impatiently tapped his ruler on the blackboard.
"1.77245" I said, and he huffed quietly, possibly hoping to catch me not paying attention. Edward smirked beside me. I rolled my eyes, and continued doodling on my notebook.
The lunch bell rang, and we were off. Edward walked patiently by my side, as people gave us stares, and glares. I sighed again. This would never work. We could never be in a real relationship. We were now siblings after all.
We entered the lunchroom and walked toward the usual Cullen table. Alice sensed the closeness between Edward and I. "Hi Bella." She smiled brightly. "Hey, Alice."
Edward sat next to me, and Alice looked back and forth between us. "Yes, Alice?" Edward asked, She smiled brightly. "Oh, it's nothing Edward." She winked.
The rest of the day had gone by good, until we arrived home.
I sighed and sat on my bed. "Bella, what's wrong? You've been like this all day." I bit my lip, trying to process how too do this. "Edward, we can't be together." My voice cracked. "Why not?" He sounded hurt.
I knew I was going to have to leave in a while anyway….I didn't want him to be in love with me, when I left.
"Because,…we just can't." I felt the tears slide down my cheeks as I stared at his beautiful eyes.
He ran his hand threw his hair, and stormed out the door. A minute after, I heard his car start, and peel out of the driveway, and go down the road. I sobbed, wishing it didn't have too end this way. Maybe I could just end it all…
I looked up toward the bathroom, and ran into it. I searched threw my drawer, when I finally found it. I sat, leaning against the tub, and pulled the razor cleanly across my wrist.