A/N: Anybody seen the newest iLost My Mind promo? It has special behind the scenes stuff and it's awesome! y /watch?v=rI9OdKEvJp0
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Sam's POV
I trudged home slowly, still not fully understanding what I just did. It was true that I hated people being so over-the-top with their opinions and judgments about my relationship, but maybe I didn't have to break up with him. I didn't know what to do anymore. If I couldn't anticipate how people would act at school, then how can I anticipate how this breakup will be? Maybe it's for the best.
No, scratch that. I know it's for the best. This way, Freddie can be with somebody more worthy of him. He can date someone who won't slap him or call him names or degrade him in other ways. He'll be able to study and do homework with them and they can have children who will be smart enough to make rockets or whatever super smart nerds do for a career. And best of all, he'll make his mom super happy. He'll be with someone who's a good influence on him, and Crazy will be over the moon about her new future daughter-in-law, who will make puzzles with them and go to pottery classes with them and just be happy with them.
Freddie deserved someone who could make all that happen. And I'm not that person. He'll be happy, his mom will be happy, and I'll be… well, miserable, but hey, two out of three isn't too bad.
I pushed into my apartment and went straight to my room. I was so sick and tired of everything, and I just wanted to sleep for days. I technically could if I wanted to. Mom wouldn't care, I didn't plan on going to school for the rest of the week, I just broke up with my boyfriend, and I really wasn't in the mood to talk to Carly at the moment. I pulled my comforter up around my neck and shoulders. I sighed and reached for my laptop to check Splashface. Melanie's snobby school gave the best students free laptops and when they upgraded the old ones they had, Melanie sent me her old one as a gift. It was one of the only things my sister ever did that I really appreciated. Otherwise, we never talked. Yet another person that I should have been able to turn to who wasn't there for me. I shook my head. My, what a shitty day…
I logged onto Splashface, looking at the newest videos my friends had posted and Liked. One video, however, caught my eye. Not just because it was on my home page or because tons of people had Liked it or commented on it. It was the title that I noticed. "Real proof of Creddie!"
Oh god, what now? I clicked on the link and started watching the video. I saw Freddie and Carly standing by the area of lockers where mine and Carly's lockers were. They were just talking, then I saw Freddie reach out and pull Carly close to him. She hugged him back and they stood like that for a few moments.
My heart broke. I never wanted to believe that Freddie still had feelings for Carly, but I can't help but have questions when I see a video like this. I snapped the laptop closed so I don't have to see anymore. I put in my PearPad headphones and blasted the first song. I laid my head down on my pillow, closing my eyes. Definitely a super shitty day.
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Freddie's POV
"I just don't know what to do, man," I said to Gibby as I paced in front of him. As nice as Carly was trying to be, I needed a guy to talk to, so I left to go to Gibby's. "The look on her face… I want to believe that she really wants it to be over, but she looked miserable. I understand that she's tired of everyone being annoying, I am too. But breaking up isn't the solution. Then people will wonder why we broke up right after we came out to the public, and they'll still be just as annoying."
"So you definitely don't want to break up," Gibby said, waiting for confirmation.
"Definitely not."
"And you don't think she wants to either," he continued, and I nodded. "So why don't you just tell her you don't want it to be done? Seems like it'll be easy to get her back if neither of you want this."
"I'm not just gonna beg! I'm not that pathetic!" I threw my hands in the air and plopped down on the foot of his bed, sitting across from him sitting in his desk chair. "Sam's too proud to let people pass judgment on anything she does. So she's thinking if she gets rid of the source of so much trouble, it'll all just disappear. But this isn't going to solve anything. We'll still be bothered with questions, but this time we won't have each other to turn to. Our misery isn't the solution."
"Then you need to tell her that! I'm here for you to talk to, but I'm not nearly as cute, so you need to sort things out with her," Gibby said, making me laugh. "Sam's not really into big ordeals, so don't go all out. Just be honest. You need to go to her and make her listen." Gibby sat back in his chair, clearly proud of his contribution.
I smiled. "Thanks, Gib. Why are relationships so complicated?"
Gibby laughed. "You're asking the wrong guy, dude."
"What about you and Tasha?"
His smile dropped and he cleared his throat. "Umm, we… we broke up."
"Dude, why didn't you tell me? That sucks! What happened? Did you end it or did she?" I asked quickly, wanting details.
"I ended it, but she wasn't surprised." He looked at me silently for a moment before saying, "Recently, I've realized something that got in the way of my relationship with Tasha."
I raised an eyebrow. "Are you gay?"
"No!" he insisted quickly.
I said back, "I mean, I don't mind if you are, I just wanna know the truth!"
"Freddie. Look me in the eyes. I'm. Not. Gay," Gibby said back with honesty in his eyes.
"Then what was getting in the way?"
He sighed. "I realized I was in love with someone else."
My jaw dropped and my eyes opened wide. Suddenly his pining looks and jealousy of Brad made perfect sense. I knew something was up. "I knew you had a thing for Carly! I knew it!"
"Is it that obvious?" Gibby asked sheepishly.
"Maybe not to everyone, but I first kind of realized when Brad said he liked Carly, and you got visibly mad."
"He hardly even knows her! He's just this guy who struts into an interview to work for you guys, then he starts going to our school, and he thinks he can just swing in and date her? I've known her for years! I know what makes her laugh, what foods she likes, what music she listens to. I know the difference between chowders and soups, simply because she does!" he ranted.
Wow, he must really like this girl. I nodded. "You love her…" I teased him. He rolled his eyes and laughed. I continued, seriously, "If you like her, you need to step up and tell her. It looks like we both have some stuff we need to come clean with."
Gibby sighed again. "We're quite a pair, you and I."
A/N: One of my favorite things to read is what I call Freddie-Gibby brotime, so I included a bit. I'm actually a bit torn between who I want Carly to end up with. I like the idea that Gibby would like her, but I also feel like she'd be good with Brad, so I'm not sure who she'll end up with at the end of this fanfic. Just stay tuned, I guess!
I'm also working on a new multi-chapter fanfic, so keep your eyes open for that. I won't start uploading it until this is done, though.
Reviewing is just really nice. Do it for me, for my birthday? It's not my birthday, but if it were, I bet you'd review, so why change your mind now?