THE TRUTH AND THE MEMORIES

I woke up the next morning around 3:00 and sighed then sat up, "A habit dies hard doesn't it," I said and reached to my back then began to heal it again, "Wizardmon how could you," Gatomon whispered in her sleep and I looked down at the floor. Joe slowly woke up about three hours after me and was surprised to see me awake, "I thought you were tired," he whispered and looked at him, "I have to wake up at three in the morning," I said and memories flooded back to me. Joe shrugged and woke the others up, "We can wait and let Kari and TK sleep," Tai said and turned to me but I looked away, "Ok Wizardmon are you going to give us our answers," Izzy said and I nodded.

"I only have death waiting for me now why not," Mimi looked at me in sorrow and asked why, "When I would leave the castle I would get punished, when I failed a mission I get punished, when I came back to the castle late I would get punished, that's two out of three so I might as well die." Gatomon stared at me and I shook the thoughts away, "Wizardmon why did you have these," Izzy said and held up the crest, tab and digi-vice, I sighed and looked at the boy, "I had those when Myotismon found me, he doesn't even know I have them considering he took them from we when I was forced to join his army. Yet I got them back without anyone knowing after a couple of weeks I was in the castle, they were sort of a comfort to me I guess," I stared at the ground and Izzy asked another question, "Why did you deceive us," I sighed. "I didn't want to but as a consolation prize if I didn't was double the regular beating and I already received one at the start of the conversation, I never wanted to even get involved with you digi-destined."

"Did you lie to us," Gatomon yelled and I looked at her, she had tears in her eyes and they were streaming down her face, "I might as well start from the beginning, I was in primary village as an in-training digimon and someone handed me the necklace and device but never got to tell me why he gave me them. I was in my cradle when someone smiled and bared their fangs, it was a Devimon, and he picked me up and threw me at a Bakemon who stuffed me into a bag, which was when I was forced to join Myotismon.

That Devimon was Myotismon and that Bakemon was Phantomon, then a couple of other in-training digimon I and were thrown into cells for a week and when we were let out I was the only little digimon left alive. Years past and I digi-volve to my rookie form Impmon, then one day a light found me, I found Salamon in the woods in a training season and I stopped in a branch to see her, unfortunately Myotismon saw that I stopped and soon found out why. When my training season was finished I was punished for stopping, the punishment was to get my mouth sewed shut, and he told me that I would be seeing more of Salamon, I was scared so I stayed away from Salamon since Myotismon told me that he told her she was there because of me so everywhere I went I was on alert.

Then when I digi-volved to Wizardmon Myotismon punished me by letting me hang in the dungeon for a couple of days, apparently in that time Salamon digi-volved to Gatomon and on the third day of hanging out in the dungeon Myotismon came down with a bowl of water and a plan. Like I said before the plan was to test her skill, I knew that it was wrong so to get me interested Myotismon punished me for a good six hours then dropped me off in the desert where our plan fell into action. Gatomon found me in the sand and because she never saw me in the castle since I was in the dungeon she recruited me for Myotismon's army, when we got back to the castle I stepped away from Gatomon to talk to Myotismon. It wasn't really a talk more of a punishment on letting her see my eyes, so in order to make her forget on who I was Myotismon persuaded me to make her forget, and his kind of persuading is in punishment, so I followed on with the plan knowing if I refused there would just be more pain.

So every day I would bring up I would disappear from the castle from either 5 to 10 hours for a punishment, one day I got sick of seeing Gatomon in pain so when I finished healing her wounds I walked out of her room then went to Myotismon. It ended very badly actually, I wasn't see in the castle for a month, I had no food or water, the only thing that saved me was when once a week Gatomon would some done and give me a piece of bread, a hand full of water, and her sapphire blue eyes. Being a Wizardmon I can survive long periods of time without food or water but it feels like you are wasting away with nothing in you for so long, when Myotismon set me out of the dungeon I was forced to make Gatomon forget again and I was punished when I hesitated even the slighted.

I missed the light in her eyes some days that I tried to make her remember but, she would think that I am nothing more than a grunt and push me away, and then Myotismon announced that we were going to the real world so I was cursed to steal a set of cards for the door. I refused at first but I got double the punishment on that occasion and I was forced to agree, I stole the cards but then Myotismon dropped the bomb, I was to somehow find out what cards went where and tell him. I questioned this and I was punished of course so I was forced to find out, when I did I told Myotismon and he was so happy he gave me a punishment.

When the castle was ready to leave I was forced to make Gatomon forget one more time and we left, when Gatomon and the others left to look for Kari I was punished so I would know what was to happen if I failed my mission. I left Myotismon then and took on a role as a regular human magician so I could see if the younger children was the child every time I failed to find the child I was punished, so when I found the digi-vice I was happy but the memory of what Gatomon said to me all those years ago rang in my ears. I knew she was the 8th digimon so I was forced to tell Myotismon he punished me for not telling me what she said all those years ago and ordered me to make her remember.

I told Gatomon and the story goes on from there, when I was thrown into the lake it wasn't an act I began to drown but I found a log and soon found Joe and TK, then later when I was thrown into the wall it was a punishment for taking my role too seriously, then the final blow was a reminder of what I was to do. All of it was painful but not as painful as seeing Gatomon fall into the path I accidently led her into," I said and looked at Gatomon, her tears stop but her eyes were red and swollen, "I am truly sorry, you might as well give me back to Myotismon." The kids looked horrified at my story, "I'm sorry I truly am," I said saw the anger in Tai's eyes then looked down at Gatomon, I will not cause you anymore harm, I'm sorry," I said and got ready to snap my fingers but Gatomon stopped my hand, "You're not going anywhere," Tai said and I looked back into his eyes. All they held was revenge and I sighed, "I'm sorry," I whispered and Gatomon walked away while Joe began to tend to my wound on my back, "Joe," I said once all of the digi-destined went their separate ways and he glance up from my back, "Yeah," he asked and I sighed, "Do you believe me," I asked. And he sighed, "Truthfully I don't know Wizardmon," I sighed and fell silent again, "No one really wants me here they just want answers to their questions," I thought and another flashback hit me.

"The feeling of no hope, of no light, of just being a pawn in a game, of hanging on that wall nearly destroyed me but Gatomon was there. She held the first light I ever saw and as the chains dig into my arms and legs I hear the crack of a whip in my ear and the feeling of blood drip down my back made me feel sick, when will I be let free from this prison and when will the images of the past stop haunting me?" I said and the flashback stopped, "I'm sorry," I said and Joe looked at me, "What was that," I sighed and slightly flinched when he placed the antibiotic on my wound, "It's what happened last night, my past of hurt some times comes back as a flashback. I actually relive the moment unfortunately," Joe was slightly surprised, "You're not faking are you," I shook my head, "No last night was when I digi-volved to Wizardmon, Myotismon lifted me against the wall and threw me to the floor then I crawled over to the corner of the room and he let loose with his whip." Joe finished wrapping my wound and I gripped my head, "Again," I whispered and quickly sat up, "Guys you need to see this and every came over to Joe and looked at me as my eyes became glazed over as a flashback came forth.

I stared off at something that only I could see and I spoke fast, "Such pain, such sorrow, the wishes of death that fill my head all lean me to the darkness to agree with Myotismon with this plan. Yet I disagree with it, the darkness seems to take over sometimes yet I never turn my back on her…why, I know what is waiting for me if I refuse the plan and yet I still hate the plan. I will take whatever Myotismon gives me so Gatomon may stay alive thought she hates me herself I cannot turn my back on her, why I have no idea but she cannot end up like me, pathetic, pushed around, neglected, the follower. None of those traits come from Gatomon, she's the strongest person I know in this castle and I think Myotismon knows it to that she a threat to him now because of all the light she has accumulated somehow. This is also why I am just a pawn in this game, I can't change anything with what I am, pathetic and weak, I am nothing she is a key part in the survival of light so I will give me life for her if I could that is. Myotismon is my only killer here and he would refuse for anyone else to do it, he hates me so much that he wants to be my only killer; I think that's why he let Gatomon go down into the dungeon and give me some food and water. He wants me alive so I can feel the misery and pain he has in store for me and if I refuse that only means that the misery only gets bigger and bigger, I hate this…this sitting here and watching Myotismon destroy her light but I can't do anything. I sometimes wish that my life would end right here right now, but I'm not that lucky, everyone is against me now that I go against everything they say, Gatomon, Myotismon, Genii, the three angels that guard the digital world, and the four legendary beasts. All against me so now all I can do is fight back the urge to die and the darkness that seeps into my heart, maybe one day I'll find out why I got this necklace and device, probably by accident thought. I'm nothing special to this world and I will never be, if only the hate would stop and the pain would subside maybe I would be something, but I don't I will be that lucky. These thought fly through my head as the whip cracks in my ear, my blood streams down my face, and Myotismon laughed echoes in the dungeon, yet I can't seem to get these thoughts out of my head so the pain can sink in."

My eyes returned to normal and I began to fall forward, no one caught me they were all too stuck in their own thoughts to do anything but watch me fall to the ground, "Night," I whispered and fell unconscious. Gatomon stared at me with wide eyes, then sighed and walked away, "What was he doing Joe," Sore asked as she looked at me, "I think that was a moment in his past, moments before this one he had another one but this one was worse. It seems like he's actually back in time reliving that moment," Tai looked away and sat against the wall in front of me, "Is that what he was doing lest night," Joe nodded, "He said that it was but I'm not entirely sure."

The digi-destined took a glance at me one more time and walked away not sure to believe, "Please Lord Myotismon that hurts, please, please stop it," I yelled and immediately came back to consciousness. "Why is this happening," I said and Joe turned to me, "Why, no please not again," I said and I gripped my head, "Wizardmon again," I nodded before my eyes became glazed over again.

"L-Lord Myotismon, I-I'm sorry I-I'll stay quiet from now on, please no," my voice was more childish and frantic as the memory play back in my mind, and all I saw was Myotismon heading toward me with a need and a spool of thread. "You need to learn to keep silent Impmon, and I'll teach you," Myotismon boomed and I yelled in pain as the needle poked into my skin and through my lip, "Please Lord Myotismon stop it," I yelled and Joe stared at me like I was insane, "Those that are worthless need to be punished." The vampire yelled and a evil smile covered his face, "Please my Lord, that hurts stop it," I yelled and Myotismon finished sewing my mouth shut he let me run out of his throne room. Digimon stared at me as I ran through the halls and I stopped at my room and slammed the door shut, I then walked over to a mirror and froze, my mouth was sewn shut and blood was dripping at the puncture wounds where the needle had slowly gone thru.

I voice returned to normal and I saw Joe standing in front of me again, "What was that about," Joe asked and I looked away from his sight and touched my mouth, "Punishment is cruel when it you from the outside. Where everyone can see," I said and retracted m hand from my mouth, Joe nodded and turned away from me, I sighed looked at Gatomon who was sitting farthest away from me.

"Why did you lie," I turned my head to Tai, "Fear is a terrible thing," I said and slipped off my glove to look at my scars on my hand, Tai flinched slightly at my hand, "There is a reason why I wear all of this. Not because I like this," I said and Tai stared at my hand, a single hole was placed in the middle of my hand where you can see straight through but I could still move my fingers and had complete feeling in my fingers. "It was painful to have people staring at me so I constructed a glove out of leather I found in the woods, so that only I would know what was under the leather," I said and stared at my own hand, "What happened," Tai said and looked up at me.

I sighed and slipped my hand back into my glove, "I took some food when I was Impmon that belonged to someone else and Myotismon didn't exactly like that," I chose to make a long story short and sighed when I was done. "Pain is a part of my life now," I whispered and Tai looked away, "I don't know if I believe you," I shook my head and memories flashed in my head, "I will find a way to show you that I am sorry," I said and I the feeling came over me again. "Tai," I said as my vision began to blur and Tai come over to me, "Yeah," he said and I suddenly latched out and grabbed his arm as my eyes became glazed over. Tai froze as he reached for his head and knelt to the ground, "Not again," I whispered and the memories took over, yet Tai's eyes also became glazed over as he entered my memories.

"Gatomon what are you doing down here don't you know what Myotismon do to you if he sees you down here," I said and she smiled, "I owe you for taking my punishment last week." Gatomon pulled out a ring of keys and unlocked my cell door and took off my chains, "Gatomon why do have so much hope," I asked and as I took a bite out of the slice of bread she got for me. "Because I know there is someone in here that actually cares about me," she said and secretly took of her gloves, I looked at the ground and took a sip of what little water I had and took another bite of the bread. I felt my hair tug a little and I glance back at Gatomon as she snuggled her face in my hair, I smiled a little and remembered the plan Myotismon told me, "Wizardmon do you know anything about your past," Gatomon asked suddenly as she continued to play with my hair and I stayed silent for a few moments. "Memories only bring more pain for me, I prefer not to talk about it," she nodded and accepted it, "What are you doing back there anyway," I said and she laughed a bit, "Don't worry about it," I smiled and finished off my bread then took a sip of my water. "Gatomon can you promise me something," she nodded and I thought for a moment, "Gatomon if either you or me can leave this place and there is only time for one of us, I want you to go," Gatomon froze and looked at me, "Wizardmon I could never." I stopped her in mid sentence and I sighed, "You have lot of things to offer this world, look at me there's nothing that I can offer to help the world prosper, but you…you have so much light to offer to help lighten this world of ours. Just promise me that, please," Gatomon sighed and nodded, "Anything for you Wizardmon, we're best friends and we'll be there for each other forever, can you promise me that?" I looked down at the ground and looked at her blue eyes, "Anything for you Gatomon, you're special you know that right," Gatomon looked at me in astonishment, "What are you talking about, I'm no different than you," I shook my head, "No you're something special, and don't let anyone tell you different. Gatomon you're very important to me, don't ever forget that," I had tears in my eyes and I pulled her close to me, "Gatomon you are my light," I whispered in her ear and we hugged.

I let go of Tai and my sight returned to normal, "I-I'm sorry Tai," I apologized and rubbed my head, "What was that," Tai asked and I sighed, "That was one of my memories, but I bet you still don't believe me do you?" Tai shook his head, "You're going have to try harder than that Wizardmon," Tai stood up and left me alone once again, "What will it take for them to believe me," I whispered and looked over at Gatomon who simply looked away.