As Gerard was falling he regretted nothing. He just wanted to put everything to an end. He could hear someone screaming his name but as he hit the ground he wasn't sure if it wasn't just an illusion.

'GERARD!' Mikey ran out the bathroom and past Vivian downstairs and outside to find Gerard lying in a weird position on the floor, likely to be unconscious. He ran up to him and picked up his head and started crying and screaming.

Frank finally gave up and hoped no doctors where around as he took his last 5 anti-depressants and unplugged everything that was attached to him and stood up from the bed only to end up on the floor unable to move or talk and it felt good, the pain was causing him to smile inside.

Confused, Vivian ran down and as she saw what just happened she thought she couldn't take it anymore. She just collapsed on the floor and hoped it's just a nightmare that she'll wake up from and not remember.

Mikey's tears wiped the blood of Gee's face. He didn't know what else to do. His biggest wish right now was to wake up from this nightmare. But he knew this was reality and you can't stop gravity or rewind time or anything.

After about 5 minutes Frank felt his heart stop beating and the blackness wasn't for long, sure there was the blackness but then the shining light appeared and as he walked right through it he ended up in a place that looked exactly like the black parade – Holy shit! It's real!

Gerard felt like he was being risen, but he couldn't feel what was rising him. He could only feel being lifted into the air and out of the nothingness that he saw, a bright white light appeared. He felt attracted and repelled by it simultaneously. He wasn't sure if he really wanted to go there, but as he was lead into that light, it seemed he had no choice but to go there.

Mikey quickly took out his phone and asked, no, he ORDERED the ambulance to prioritize them in an emergency.

Frank had randomly walked around this place and it was exactly like the black parade except for the marching band. He sat down on the ground and looked around again. 'This place is fucking awesome!' A smile appeared on Frank's lips as he forgot about Gerard for a second but then it came all back and he put his head between his knees and started crying. 'Gee, I miss you so fucking much!' He mumbled to himself.

As Gerard got closer to the bright white light he could hear a voice. A voice encouraging him to go there. The voice was missing him. Have they met before? The voice was sad and crying. He was curious, who was the voice. Now he was eager to go to that place and to meet the voice. He reached for the light with his hand and immediately, he was sucked in.

Frank heard some noises from the other part of this place, but he ignored it. He always thought that in death pain was forgotten but it wasn't. 'I love you Gee, and I'm so fucking sorry!' Frank managed to choke out

As Mikey cried and waited for the ambulance to come, his heart dropped. He felt Gerard's face – it was stone cold! His lips were turning purple and his skin went pale, and he stopped bleeding!

Hearing the voice once again, Gerard thought it was apologizing and saying it loved him. He didn't know why, but he wanted to hide from this voice but he didn't know where so he just curled up on the floor. 'Who are you?' he found himself saying; he didn't know whether he whispered or shouted; whether he said it nice and clearly or stuttered; whether he spoke fast or slow.

Frank quickly looked up and hear a voice, so sweet. Gerard's voice. 'Gee?' Frank asked hopefully as he looked around. Was he imagining it? Hallucinating? 'Gerard?' Frank asked again. But his Gee couldn't be dead. He just couldn't.

Gerard heard the voice once again but this time it was clearer that before. He could more or less pinpoint to where it came from and it seemed to be behind him. He recognized the voice, and he knew he loved it. But he couldn't remember how he knew it. He didn't know this place, or anyone in it. But he felt like he belonged here more than anywhere else 'Where am I?' he didn't care who the voice was now as long as it keeps speaking.

Frank couldn't speak. It was Gee, but no matter how hard he tried he couldn't say one word or move an inch. Gee was dead? How? Why? He couldn't be dead! But then how is he here? 'Gee!' was all Frank managed to choke out, this couldn't be true! Gee dead? How? Too many questions were in Franks head as he let out a weak shriek of horror.

Gerard heard the voice once again, but instead of answering his question, it called him the name his close friends called him. That must make us close, he thought. But then he heard a cry and he quickly turned around. Behind him, as he expected, was the owner of the voice. He couldn't quite tell who it was because he could only see the back. He just sat there and didn't dare moving in case he scared the person. 'Yes? Yeah that's... me. Do we know each other?'

Mikey screamed on top of his lungs. How could his brother do this? This is unbelievable! Now he wanted to die too, but he didn't want to leave Gerard's side at the moment.

Frank heard Gee again but didn't have the guts to look at Gerard. And then he remembered Gerard's question. Do we know each other? What type of question was that? 'Yeah. I guess so' Frank answered quietly but loud enough for Gee to hear.

It might've been hours before Gerard answered. He couldn't really judge the time in this place, or anything else in that matter. The owner of the voice seemed to be miles away, yet he was at an arm's reach. 'What... What's your name?'

Frank felt his heart break. Gerard didn't remember him. But he though that's what he deserved, he deserved it 100% but then why did it hurt like shit? Frank brought himself to say his name, no matter how hard it will be. 'I'm… I'm Frank. The biggest jerk that ruined your life.' Frank said as a tear feel down his face.

As soon as he heard 'Frank' Gerard's heart started pounding in his chest. Frank was here! He felt his face brighten up. He crawled over to Frank so that he was just a couple of inches behind him and whispered 'You didn't ruin my life. I'm still here, aren't I?'

Frank felt Gerard was near him and a shiver passed his spine. 'But you're dead! Were both dead in the middle of nowhere! You should hate me with all your guts Gerard! If not for me you would be alive and happy!' Frank felt his heart hurt even more 'I'm the biggest jerk dead or alive! You deserve someone better.'

Gerard's eyes widened and he froze in fear. How could they be dead? That wasn't possible. He stuttered. 'B. But. How? I. You're. Not. Dead.' he touched Franks shoulder 'I. You're. Alive. See?' he waved his hand in front of Franks face. Oh, how he wanted to see his face, but Frank was still turned the other way.

'No. Gee. We are dead. As dead as dead can be!' Frank knew it was his fault Gerard's dead. If it wasn't for him Gerard wouldn't be here! 'And the death part was all my fault. I'm sorry, but a apology can't change anything can it?'

'Frank? Un- unless you were. Holding the. Weapon. You're . Not the. Murderer. We- were you?' Gerard was really confused at this point. If he was dead, what was he still doing?

'But Gee! If I didn't leave you would be alive! If we never met you would be alive and happy! If. If. We never had feelings. For each other. You would be way happier! This shit is all my fault! If you hate me I don't blame you, I hate myself too!' Frank just stared ahead still not able to face Gerard. 'I'm so fucking sorry for everything!'

Gerard tried to remember how he ended up here but couldn't. He couldn't remember anything before this place, as if he's been here forever. Well, it seemed like he could've been. 'But you're wrong! If we didn't meet I could never be happy! You're my one happiness in life! Without you I'd been dead long before, you changed my life! But I was meant to die, sooner or later, so don't blame yourself for anything! I could never hate you! I love you!' he was speaking to the back of Franks head. He just craved for a second of seeing his face.

'No Gee! You wouldn't! You'd be alive and die of old age; you would be happy and find someone you deserve! Not a jerk but a nice sweet guy who would make your life great!' Frank held back his tears. 'And now because of me you're dead and what about your brother and Viv? What about them? I ruined 3 fucking lives! What kind of selfish jerk am I?'

Viv and Mikey, when did they come in the story?, Gerard thought. 'If we never met, I would've died at a very young age, you know that? I was extremely close to that, but when I met you my life turned upside down and I lived a good life. And no one deserves me but you. You and just you. And what about Mikey and Viv? He wanted to go in front of Frank to see his face and wipe his tears but was afraid of the reaction.

'No Gerard, I don't deserve you! I never did and I never will! You're too good! You never harmed anybody! You don't deserve to die! And Viv and Mikey, they will miss you! They love you! Imagine what they are feeling now? Seeing you dead!' Frank couldn't hold his tears back anymore so he started crying.

Gerard didn't know what to say. Nothing would've seemed right if he said it. With all the courage he had, he crawled to face Frank and he just stared into his tearing eyes. He wiped his tears and hugged him.

Frank couldn't look Gerard in the face and he couldn't bring himself to hug Gerard back. No matter how hard he tried. 'I'm so sorry Gee!' Frank just stared at nothing in particular knowing that this was his entire fault. Gerard didn't deserve this. No one did except Frank.

Gerard pulled away from Frank, wondering why he kept blaming himself. 'Look, it's not your fault.' He sighed. 'As long as I'm with you, I couldn't be happier.'

'Then whose fault is it?' Frank still couldn't bring himself to look at Gerard. 'It has to be someone's fault! And I'm to only one who fits into the blame section!'

'It's MY entire fault! For not being by your side this whole time! I'm sor-' as Gerard was saying this, he began to fade.

'200! CLEAR!'

'Gee?' Frank saw him fading and just stared at him wide-eyed. 'Gerard? What's happening?'

'I.. I don't know!' Gerard's voice began to fade 'I don't want to leave you! I WANNA STAY HERE!' he grabbed Frank's hand but even then he still faded away.

'His pulse is stabilizing!'

Frank tried to hold onto Gerard's hand and smiled reassuringly. 'I love you Gee. Look after yourself.' He said before Gerard faded away completely.