Claire
It's five to midnight and Shane still hasn't turned the damn music off. Last time I knocked on his door, he screamed at me to fuck off and go back to Myrnin.
I'm confused. What's Myrnin got to do with any of this?
Ugh. Time for one last try before I die of depression.
I tiptoe to Shane's door and knock gently. "Shane?"
"What do you want, Claire?"
Wow. I wasn't expecting such a civilized answer. He must have calmed down quite a bit.
"Can I come in?"
"Fine."
He throws something at the door and the lock clicks open. Show off.
I open the door and see his lying on his bed bathed in moonlight. All I want to do is climb into bed with him and feel his arms around me and his lips on my neck.
"I love you, Shane. I'm sorry for everything this morning. I was a total bitch and I don't deserve for you to forgive me, but if you could try, that'd be nice."
"I love you too, Claire. The thing is, I don't think your heart fully belongs to me anymore."
"What do you mean?"
"You and Myrnin! That's what I mean!"
He's angry again. Shit. He sits up and walks to the open window. He turns around and sits on the windowsill whilst looking intently at me.
Oh my God. I've just realized what he said.
"Myrnin? Me and Myrnin?" I'm absolutely mental. I start laughing. He looks at me as if I've gone crazy. "You think I'm…Myrnin…and me? Eww!"
"Then why did he kiss you this morning?
Oh fuck.
"I have no idea! Seriously, Shane, I was expecting him to be furious about me arriving late. But he was going on about something to do with the three kings and Jesus and then he hugged me and then he went like, you know…"I mimed fangs "and then he kissed me."
"Uh huh? You know what I think? I think we should take a break from each other. You could find a room somewhere with one of your precious vamps and just you know…not see each other for a while."
Did he really just say that? Is that really what he wants? He doesn't love me anymore? He's breaking up with me.
I knew it all along. What would Shane Collins, who could have any girl he wanted, want with a freakish nerdy vamp pet like me?
But why did he have to lead me on for so long?
"If that's what you want" I say through the tears that are building up behind my eyes. He nods. "You, Shane Collins are a complete ass!"
I run out of the room and throw myself onto my bed, letting the tears burst free.
"Ugh!" I scream into my pillow, just to get rid of some of the emotions inside me. "You complete bastard!"
On hearing Michael and Eve waking up, I run over and look my door.
What hurts the most is that Shane didn't even try to follow me to see if I was alright.
Didn't even care.