I don't own Bones, I know I have 206 in my body, but the Bones from Fox isn't mine.
I will hopefully post two of these a week, usually on Mondays. One from Brennan's point of view and the other from Booth's point of view.
Booth's point of view
The Questions in the Relationship
When I saw her at the Jeffersonian, I realized how much I missed her. She was only gone for a month, but I was glad to have her back. I enjoyed walking into the Jeffersonian and seeing her either standing on the platform, or in her office, demanding she come with me, and every time she came.
I knew she didn't return my feelings, so I decided that I needed to be there for her, but I would try to stop these feeling I had for her. I would try to move on, so I didn't get hurt. Rebecca hurt me enough, and I didn't want that again, so I would stop myself from being anymore attached to her.
We bickered back and forth about the way I was handling her father's case, and we talked about her brother. I saw a nostalgic look on her face and I realized that she was enjoying her relationship with Russ. I was glad for her, because I knew she was so alone for most of her life, until now.
When we arrived at the scene, and I saw Camille Saroyan, I knew this was going to be trouble. Since Bones never checked in when she was away, she didn't know about the changes that had taken place at the lab.
Camille was now her boss, but the trouble stemmed from the fact that I didn't think Bones knew, and one thing about Camille was, she believed in the chain of command, and Bones had that way about her that made everyone do what she asked. Yep, this was going to be trouble.
Cam and I had the kind of relationship that could be picked up from where it stopped, anytime and anywhere. She responded to me in her usual flirty way, and I responded the same way back.
Bones and I were at the diner, having our usual lunch together, something I looked forward to daily, when I got the phone call about the death of her mother's killer. As I looked into her eyes and told her, I could see so much pain, and I wished I could make it go away.
When the case was over, I took her to her mother's grave, she didn't want to go, but I thought it was important for her to talk to her. As she bent down to place the flowers on the grave, she found a small silver dolphin near the headstone. I took it out of the evidence bag and gave it to her, explaining that it was evidence of her father's love for her mother. As she looked at it, she said it's beautiful, and as I looked at her, I realized that she was, and it was more than an exterior beauty, her beauty came from inside her, and she didn't even know it.
The next case involved a foster kid named Kelly. During the investigation I found out that, Bones had a list of foster families that didn't work out, written on the bottom of a shoe. I also found out that Cam had an argument with her, and was going to fire her. When Cam asked him about it, I said be careful, because everyone will leave with Bones including me.
Eps. How could one man strike so much anger in me? This case was a difficult one for Bones. I watched her as Eps manipulated her into his web of madness. I saw her control break as we discovered the bodies of two young girls. She wasn't on the case when I arrested Eps, so she didn't understand his manipulative ways of speaking to people.
Yes, last year she discovered two young girls that Eps had buried, but this time we had to track down his accomplice, and she became involved in the case. She usually has so much control, but this case was different. In the end, she killed a man. She saved my life in the process, but I know what that does to your soul. How those scars never go away, and how you die a little inside with every shot.
We were talking about animals and I asked her what type of pet she would want. She told me a pig. Can you imagine a pig? I wanted to make her happy, so I bought her a pig. It was a little toy one, not the real thing. I thought maybe it would take away the pain of the shooting, but mainly I wanted to see her smile. As I looked into her beautiful blue eyes, and handed her the pig I felt something stir deep inside myself. A strange feeling that I didn't recognize. I felt something change in our relationship, something was different.
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She caught me in bed with Rebecca, not literally, but she called right after, and I knew that she knew. It was my business who I slept with, why should it bother me that she found out? It didn't matter, because it would never happen again. It's just that Rebecca and I had so much in the past, it was hard not to look for that again. Then that same day I slept with Cam. What was wrong with me? I usually didn't do casual relationships, but it was as if Bones brought out this desire in me and I needed a release somehow. I had to stop doing this.
At the end of the case, I had the feeling that Bones hinted that she would help with my biological urges, but I had to be wrong. It didn't matter, because Angela came in at that moment and changed the conversation.
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I hate it when we had to work on a child's murder; and to make it worse, another child killed her. At the end of the day, I decided to stay with Bones and I let Cam go home alone. What was she doing to my head? My feelings for her were growing stronger every day, and I didn't know how to stop them. If it was any other woman, I would have taken her to my bed by now, but Temperance was different, and I wanted to do this right. I still felt like this was going somewhere, and I knew if I didn't get my emotions under control, I was going to fall in love with her.
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As if fate wanted to slap me in the face, we got an undercover assignment in Las Vegas. It was bad enough that the tables and the cards tempted me, but she was incredible. I bought the dress to make others notice her, but when I saw her, I almost died. The worst part about it was she didn't even know what she did to me. When she touched me, and ran her hands over my chest, I almost lost it, but the assignment won out, and I was able to finish the task.
I had a difficult time controlling my libido around her that week, and each night I was taking cold showers to get myself under control. I thought the gambling was going to be the problem, but she was on my mind constantly, and the tables never tempted me as she did.
Then the gravedigger kidnapped her, and I wondered what would I do if she died? We were running out of time, and since Vega, had written a book about the gravedigger, I thought Vega could get us more time, so I grabbed Vega by the throat and threatened him, so much for hiding my feelings.
She knew I was sleeping with Cam. I didn't know what to say. It shouldn't concern me how she felt. Cam and I had this understanding. It would never be serious between us, but we were there for each other, and she was great in bed. As Temperance would say, 'she helped to satisfy my biological urges'.
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Bones was out on a date with Will Hastings, and I had to arrest him for murder. When I looked into her eyes, I knew how much she was hurt. She left the restaurant, and went back to the lab. When I arrived at the lab, she told me that it was a good thing she liked being alone. She looked so sad that I pulled her into my arms to let her know I understood, and that overwhelming feeling that she was my destiny, came back. It is becoming more and more difficult to hide my feelings.
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Her father wants to protect his kids, so much, so that he killed two men; I felt a type of respect for him. Both men were crooked FBI agents.
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I killed a man today. Wow, I hate that. One minute I was holding his hand, and the next minute he was dead. That brings my count to 50. Fifty people are dead because of me, will I ever be able to make this right?
During the investigation, Cam inhaled some type of poison. She almost died, so I decided not to get involved with someone who works in high-risk situations again. I have to draw a line. I hope Temperance understands.
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I almost kissed her again, but I can't go there, ever since that night in the rain, I knew if it happened again, I would never be able to go back to what we have now, besides I am not crossing that line again.
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I shot a clown, and had to see the FBI shrink, and Bones is working with another agent. Sully's a good man, but also a flirt. I wonder how close they will get. Then, Sully came to me for advice on how long to wait until he gets Bones in bed. I almost told him forever.
He finally slept with Bones; it hurt more than I thought it would, to hear her say those words. She has her own life, so why does it bother me so much? What is happening between us?
Sully decided to instill himself into our case. I don't need his help. I can take care of my partner all by myself. Why is he still here anyways, I have been back on duty for a month now, so he should go back to his own cases instead of interrupting ours.
I think she is falling in love with him, and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Maybe this is for the best, maybe now I can move on, but when he kissed her, I felt as if I was dying inside.
He asked her to go away with him, and she came to me for advice. How do I tell the woman who I think I am falling in love with, to go with him? I know he would be good for her. I know she would be happy. I just wish it didn't hurt so much to say it.
She didn't go. I went to the marina and saw her on the pier, waving goodbye, and I never remember feeling so happy. It's too bad my happiness has to come at her expense.
I was kidnapped and tortured today, and Bones and her Dad rescued me. I hope she allows herself to form a relationship with him. Although he is a criminal, and I will arrest him the first chance I get, I like him. I think this is something she needs to do.
Bones thinks men use sports to practice their battle skills, and adults are stunted adolescents who take children's games too seriously. However, she said the statistics didn't include me, because she said I don't play at being a warrior. I am a warrior, that I'm definitely a fully developed man. I think that could be a compliment. I think she also realized that I would never think of women as a conquest. Maybe there is hope for us.
Bones made a disheartening comment today about how love is a bunch of chemicals released in the brain triggered by scent and symmetrical features, but the one encouraging thing she did say was that I have symmetrical features, and that I would be a good breeder. That sounds too clinical to be encouraging.
She made me dinner, and it was incredible. For a very brief moment, I thought about how it would be to come home to her cooking for me every night, but that isn't Bones, and it would never happen.
Angela asked Hodgins to marry him after he said he would take her the way she was without marriage. Bones and I were discussing this and I joked about her asking me to marry her. She said that jokes are the way that we manifest many of our hidden desires. I hope that's not true.
Hodgins asked me to be the best man. When I asked him what I had to do he said, "Stand there, make a toast, hand over the ring, tongue kiss the maid of honor at the reception when people clink glasses."Then I asked him who the maid of honor was and Bones replied,"Me"
How am I going to kiss her? Tongue or not. I can't go there. I know I'm not strong enough. All those hidden memories from that kiss in the rain came rushing back. What am I going to do?
I had to arrest Bones' father today. He walked right into her office. He had a false identity, but after a DNA sample, I got the proof I needed to arrest him. It was the hardest arrest I ever had to do.
Max was willing to have me arrest him, because he said that he would never leave her again, but I didn't want to do it. This is the first time I regretted arresting a suspect.
Then at Angela's wedding, we found out that she was already married. That left Bones and I at the altar. Is this a sign of things to come? It really felt right.