So here's the next chapter. This is like the official opening chapter for Delena! Yaaay(:
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So I hope you guys don't want to kill me toooo much, but I've started working on a side story which might make the updates for this a little bit longer. Sorry! But check out the other story, another Delena fic, called The Story Left Untold. R&R!
Elena ran her hands through her hair as she stepped out of the joint bathroom her and Jeremy had shared since they were little. She was absolutely exhausted. Today was easily the longest day of her life. She had been kidnapped, knocked unconscious, scared completely out of her mind, rescued and informed about some seriously scary things. Not in that order exactly.
But she really didn't want to think about Elijah, or Katherine or doppelgangers at that time. All she wanted to do was climb into bed and pretend like she was a normal teenage girl with normal teenager girl problems like boys and grades.
"Cute PJ's," a familiar voice said, ringing through the room and causing her to nearly have a heart attack.
Damon was sitting on the little ledge with the cushion in front of her window, a small smile on his face.
She had absolutely no patience for this right now. She looked down at the floor and rubbed her arms. "I'm tired, Damon," she said, hoping he would get the message and leave.
But being Damon, he didn't and he began to walk towards her. He stopped about two feet away from her and held out his hand in front of him, something silver dangling from his hand.
It was her necklace.
"Brought you this," he said.
Relief washed over her and she had the urge to hug him, but she was Elena and he was Damon and that just wasn't going to happen.
"I thought that was gone," she said, staring at it in amazing. She didn't realize until that moment how much she was upset about losing it.
With a tiny quirk of his lips and shaking his head, Elena reached out for it. "Thank you."
He quickly pulled it back out of her reach.
Fear and something close to panic threatened to overtake her. "Please give it back," she said, slowly. She hoped the fear didn't show in her expression.
"I just have to say something," he said, innocently. He took a step forward and she took one back reflexively.
Her body was tense and unmoving as she asked, "Why do you have to say it with my necklace?" Her voice shook with fear.
His eyebrows furrowed and he looked as if it was the most obvious explanation ever. "Because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said in my life," he explained.
She stared at her necklace and drew in a shaky breath. "Damon, don't go there," she begged, looking up into his icy blue eyes.
Holding his hands out, he took two steps forward, closer to her and with hands out said, "I only have to say it once. You just need to hear it."
He stepped forward again and there was less than an inch between his chest and her's. She was too afraid and too caught up in the depth and emotion in his eyes to step back. It was more emotion than she'd ever seen in his eyes. It was loss and hurt and… something else.
He stared at her like he was looking through her and straight into her soul. "I love you Elena," he said, so genuinely she couldn't doubt his words. She couldn't take her eyes off of him as the fear slowly drained from her body, leaving nothing she could identity as a single emotion.
He bit those full lips of his and said, "And its because I love you that-" he hesitated and stared at her, love, longing and lost in his eyes for a second before continuing "-I can't be selfish with you."
Elena didn't know what to do, what to say, how to respond. So she stood there, listening to the silken words pouring from him.
"And why you can't know this."
Elena felt her eyes widen. She knew exactly what was happening. Damon was going to confess his love for her and then take her memories away from her, erasing this whole conversation.
"I don't deserve you," he said, with such tenderness and love in his voice it made her want to cry.
"But my brother does."
He took another step forward but Elena didn't take one step back. She watched as he leaned down and pressed his soft, silken lips against her forehead. She closed her eyes and let a breath out.
He stepped back and for just a moment, she wished he wouldn't.
Elena could feel it then; feel his pull. She could feel herself began to get lost in his eyes and she knew then what it was like to be compelled. She tried to make her body move but she couldn't; she was completely paralyzed. She was no longer the one controlling her body; he was.
"God I wish you didn't have to forget this," he said, his voice so soft Elena could imagine wrapping herself in it and sleeping peacefully forever. A single tear fell from his eye and Elena's heart clenched in her chest.
"But you do."
Elena blinked and watched as the wind blew her curtains. She walked to her window and closed it tight, peering out for a moment before climbing in bed and snuggling deep underneath the covers, wondering why she felt like crying.
Elena gasps, sitting up and looking around.
Nothing is out of place and she lies back down, breathing heavily. The alarm clocks says 3:45 A.M.
What a weird dream, she thinks to herself.
But don't you get weird dreams when you're pregnant?
She isn't sure.
Its been two months since Elena found out she was pregnant.
A lot had changed in the last two months too.
She has been getting daily doses of Damon's blood in hope to make her stronger and in effect her body being able to support the pregnancy. So far, it has worked perfectly. She's as strong as ever and so is the baby. She visits Dr. Robin every couple of weeks and is checked out. She says that so far it seems like a completely normal pregnancy. She and the baby are both very healthy and she thinks that if in the next month nothing happens, her and the baby will be fine.
Dr. Robin has her on this extremely strict and healthy diet and Damon enforces it. Dr. Robin says she should eat healthy regardless and it will also hopefully make her stronger along with the blood.
She is more or less being babysat and is rarely left alone. At home, Alaric and Jeremy are always watching her and it honestly creeps her out sometimes, though she knows its for a good reason. Bonnie, Caroline and Tyler keep a close eye on her at school, which she tries to ignore most of the time.
She's yet to tell Jenna. She figures that she isn't showing yet (which made her worry at first, but the doctor had assured her that it wasn't uncommon and some woman didn't show until they were 5 or 6 months along) so there really is no need to bring Jenna in yet. When she can't hide it any longer, she'll tell Jenna. Nut for now, she wants her aunt to stay in the dark.
Bonnie has been keeping a very close eye on Luka, which isn't hard since they are still "together." Damon told Bonnie it was best to stay with him and try to dig, see if she can find anything out before going to drastic measures. Damon is usually all for drastic measures, so Elena was surprised when he said that. Then again, Damon's been surprising her a lot lately.
He's been very… sweet lately. She sees him almost everyday and he still takes her to every doctor's appointment. The cocky, arrogant, dangerous Damon she knows is fading more and more and she sees a new Damon more and more everyday. A more sweet, kind, overall nice Damon. She isn't sure exactly what made this change but she isn't complaining. She likes how close she's grown to Damon in the last two months. She likes having him as her friend again. She had missed him.
She's thrilled that she is graduating in three months and won't have to worry about school anymore. She hasn't decided whether or not she is going to college first thing out of high school. The baby is due in September, so she honestly doesn't think she'll be able to. Maybe waiting a year of two will be better.
Overall, life hasn't been to hectic over the last two months. Besides being watched constantly and her eating habits changing, life has been almost normal.
Of course, until this dream.
It is very weird.
What's even weirder is the sense of déjà vu that comes along with it.
She feels like she's experienced this before, but she knows she hasn't. Damon hadn't visited her bedroom after they had saved her. He hadn't. It was impossible. She remembers that night perfectly.
She closes her eyes and hopes sleep will come. She has another doctor's appointment in the morning and she doesn't want to be exhausted.
Unfortunately, sleep didn't come and she's exhausted as she gets ready for Damon to pick her up.
Jenna is out grocery stopping and she, Jeremy and Alaric know the drill. They'll tell Jenna that she went to Caroline's or out or something along those lines. Jenna will believe it and problem solved.
Damon waits in his car patiently for her to come out and she tries not to watch him as she gets into the car.
"You look terrible," he notes as she gets into the car.
She sighs. "Gee, thanks," she says, buckling her seatbelt.
They pull out of the driveway and he watches her from the mirror. "Trouble sleeping?"
She nods, avoiding his eyes. "You could say that." I was just analyzing the dream I had where you told me you loved me and then compelled me. Nothing major.
The ride to Dr. Robin's is uncomfortably silent, at least for Elena. Damon looks completely content with the silence, so she figures her mood isn't radiating throughout the car.
She can't stop thinking about the dream. It may be nothing, but she can't help but wonder what it means. Of course, it had to just be a dream right? Damon didn't come into her bedroom that night. She would have remembered.
Unless he made you forget…
No, impossible. There's no way he could have compelled her.
The thought nags at her the rest of the way to the house and through the entire appointment.
Nothing new happens at the appointment, not really. Dr. Robin asks how she's been feeling, if she's noticed anything strange and then she takes an ultrasound photo.
"A lot of exciting things happen this month, Elena," Dr. Robin says, smiling. "The baby's bones will begin to harden, the baby's eyes are now large and open, he or she is moving, though you probably can't feel it yet, the external ears have formed and by the end of this month, we'll be able to hear the heartbeat on a Doppler. The external genitalia will also began to differentiate, though I can't' tell you the gender quite yet. The embryo is now counted as a fetus."
This information fascinates Elena. The thought that in a few weeks she'll actually be able to hear a heartbeat and that in a few more she'll know whether its a boy or girl brings a huge smile to her face.
But still, the dream nags her and she wants to talk to Dr. Robin about it, without Damon.
After getting the stuff wiped off of her stomach, she sees an opportunity.
"Damon, I left my cell phone in the car and I really want to text the photo to Bonnie. Can you get it for me?"
"Sure," he says and disappears.
Due to the fact that her cell phone is in her coat pocket, he'll be busy for a moment.
"Dr. Robin, I need to ask you something," she says, voice low just in case.
"Of course," she says, raising an eyebrow. "What's going on?"
"I had this dream," she whispers. "But it doesn't seem like just a normal dream you know? When I woke up, I felt this sense of déjà vu but I know this didn't happen. At least, I can't remember."
The doctor's eyebrows furrow and she asks, "What was it?"
Dr. Robin is familiar enough with everything that's happened that Elena doesn't need to explain anything. "It was after Stefan and Damon saved me from Elijah. It was after I got home and in the dream Damon showed up."
"What happened?"
"He… he brought me my necklace, told me he loved me and then compelled me to forget."
The doctor's eyes widen and she says, "And then what happened?"
"He disappeared."
"Is this the first time you've had a dream like this?" she asks.
Elena nods. "I've never had a dream like this before. The sense of déjà vu was just… unreal."
"Elena," she says, slowly. "Is it possible that this could have happened?"
"No of course not," Elena says. "I had-"
She cuts off suddenly. She was about to say she had her necklace so it would have been impossible to compel her, but she didn't have her necklace. A terrifying thought is slowly forming in her head. That day, she did lose her necklace and when she woke up the next morning, she had it. She hadn't really thought about how she had gotten it. She hadn't until now.
"But… if its true," Elena says, slowly. "Why would I just be remembering now?"
"Well, when a human is turned into a vampire, any compulsion that had been used on them disappears and they remember what thoughts had been taken away," she explains.
Elena's thoughts drift to Caroline and how she had remembered everything Damon had did to her while she was human.
"I can't give you a concrete answer," Dr. Robin says. "But maybe because you're carrying a half vampire child, any compulsion that was used on you has been taken away and you can remember it now."
Elena doesn't get the chance to respond because she hears the front door open and a minute later Damon is downstairs.
"I can't find your phone," he says, completely unaware of the panic Elena feels.
"Its fine," she says, trying to control her voice. "Maybe I didn't leave it in the car after all."
If Damon senses her distress, he doesn't say anything.
After getting her ultrasound photo, they get into the car and the car ride back to her house is completely silent.
She's much to caught up in what she now knows she notice Damon staring at her through the window, a worried look on his face.