Brittany sighed as she looked at Santana's sleeping figure. The latina has been behaving weirdly with her since the pregnancy alert. She was not her badass self anymore, like when Kurt made a snarky comment at her she just shrugged it off. But it was when Brittany was with Santana that things were even weirder. The latina had been acting more possessive and clingy toward her. Santana will tell her that she loves her more often and there was certain desperation as if she wanted the blonde to never forget that. Sometimes, she would even just reach out and pull Brittany in a tight embrace or kissing Brittany as if it was for the last time… Something wasn't right Brittany could feel it.

She knew that Santana was going through a rough time due to her sterility. Even if Santana didn't want to admit it, the blonde could tell that it broke something into Santana, something Brittany couldn't repair. She was relieved that she wasn't pregnant but she saw how Santana's mother looked at her daughter everytime they were all together, the sadness in her eyes. She tried to talk about it a few times with the latina but Santana would always cut short to the conversation or became every upset. Brittany really didn't know what to do anymore and as the days passed, and although Santana's possessiveness would increase, they were growing apart emotionally. Brittany was saddened by that situation and started to blame herself for all this. She so wanted to back to how things were before.

"Hey Quinn can I ummm talk to you please?" the latina asked in a small voice.

The head cheerleader turned around and eyed her suspiciously. Quinn was surprised that Santana wanted to have a private conversation with her. She had always been closer to Brittany and was just civil with the bitchy latina due to the fact that they were dating.

" Sure Santana!"

The two cheerleaders headed to the choir room which was empty. Crossing her arms over chest, Quinn sat down, facing a quiet and really nervous Santana. As she observed the downcasted girl in front of her, Quinn tried to guess the reason for this conversation. She tried to recall the past few weeks' events but came up with nothing. Eventually she grew impatient and broke the uneasy silence.

"Okay Santana, what did you want to talk about?" she asked in a snappier tone than she intended to. The latina winced a little at the tone but spoke up.

"Um… It's about Brittany and me" she said a voice still really small almost in whispers.

Quinn was getting more and more intrigued by all this. Something bad must have happened between Brittany and Santana for the latina to want to open up to her about their relationship.

"I know Brittany and you are close and I just…" the brunette sighed "I just needed someone to talk to…"

Quinn wanted to say Puck but bit her tongue. She knew Santana was close to him but maybe what she wanted to talk about was way too serious and directly implied their blonde friend. An awkward silence settled between the two girls and Quinn was getting impatient. Fortunately Santana spoke up.

"I love Brittany you know" the latina breathed out as she closed her eyelids.

Quinn faced softened at the admission. She couldn't deny how happier Brittany was since she started dating Santana. She couldn't stop blabbing about the latina whenever they got together, and since she accidentally dropped the news of Santana's condition to all the Glee club, that included lot of information Quinn couldn't unheard now. So Quinn concluded that Santana wasn't a bad person, but she could do stupid things that could hurt Brittany.

She prompted Santana to go on.

"I always thought I would be the shameful and perverted kink of people, ready to be used and tossed aside right after; I always thought I would be a shameful secret" she inhaled deeply "And then Brittany said she loved me and since then I believed I was made for her. I was made to make her happy" the latina paused as tears started to form in her eyes "I guess I was wrong..."

Quinn stared at the girl who was pouring her heart out before her. She knew there was more to come, so she just kept quiet and listened.

"Three weeks ago… I was at Puck's party…" the latina started "Everything has been so complicated lately. It felt like I didn't have any grip on my life. I needed to forget and if I was losing control, I needed it to be on my own terms" she paused again and briefly looked at the hazel eyes boring into her. The latina turned her gaze back to the ground.

"I got drunk that night Quinn. I really lost control. There was no more sadness, no more fear, not even Brittany… I felt lost and for a fleeting moment it felt good." She sighed deeply and sunk even more in the bench "But the morning after, it felt all too real… The headache, the failure I am, the disappointment I'll always be, Brittany…. And" she started sobbing and Quinn knew where this was going. Shock took over the blonde as Santana muttered the rest of her rant between sobs "The girl beside me…"

Quinn knew she should be angry. Santana had cheated on her best friend so she should yell at the latina and be extremely mad. But that's not how she felt at the moment. She was sad and pitied the downcasted brunette in front of her. Santana was sincere and her pain was written all over her face. Quinn knew the latina was scared to lose Brittany and she had to admit that the brunette's confession broke her heart too. Taking a deep breath, she scooted closer to Santana and put a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"You have to tell her Santana… She deserves to know"

"I'll lose her Quinn! I'll will lose her…" the latina chocked the rest of her words

"Maybe… She loves you Santana. You'll maybe lose her but she needs to know the truth" she said as Santana nodded. Quinn did something she never thought she would ever do: she hugged the latina and tried to calm her down. She surely had better days.

"Hi San!" Brittany bounced happily in her girlfriend's bedroom and went to kiss her. She felt how tensed the smaller girl was and frowned as they broke away the kiss. Santana's eyes were red and puffy as if she had been crying.

"San, what's going on?" Brittany asked worried

"We need to talk Brittany. I can't lie to you… I can't do that to you… You don't deserve this…" Santana sobbed "I love you so much…"

Brittany's mind raced and her heart started to clench. Her voice trembled

"Are you breaking up with me?"

Santana shook her head and when she looked up, fresh tears were running down her cheeks

"I'm so sorry Brittany. I'm so sorry for what I've done…"