Yes, I know, its been weeks since the last update but Nationals were calling. A ten hour drive to New Jersey and back…
Anyway here's your chapter…
Ch. 9 So possessive
Edward and I stayed in bed all day making love, as I like to call it. I never would have guessed he would love me. Ever. I wasn't mad or sad but I was happy and content in where I was. Every time we made love, I would feel more alive. I finally felt like I had my other half and the way he was looking at me told me he felt the same.
When we would relax and talk, my mind would drift off to his story. I could look at him in a different way. Not just a bad boy but a man who keeps his emotions inside and only wants someone who could see him for him. I wanted to be that someone. I was that someone. Just thinking about that puts a smile to my face but then it would go away just as quickly because my mind would go and think about Anthony. I wanted to go to him and slap him across the face. Maybe punch him but either way I wanted him to feel the way Edward felt. I wanted to go there, see him and tell him off. Tell him I would never fall for him. It would never happen and it would be as simple as that. Hopefully.
Now that I think about it, I know its been a couple of days with me staying with Edward but I realized there's another problem.
I rolled over and straddled Edward's hips. His hands rubbed up and down my thighs soothingly.
"Edward.." I didn't really want to say this but we had one more thing to worry about before I could be worry free.
He didn't answer but he looked at me, letting me know I had his attention.
"I..I we have one more problem to deal with." I whispered looking down.
I don't why but it made me uncomfortable to be talking about it.
"What is it love?"
I loved his term of endearment. A smile was fighting its way but I bit my lips and looked at him.
I didn't know how Jake was going to take the news of me being with Edward. I already realized he was going to be pissed. That was obvious but what if he does something that we'll regret. More likely what if does something stupid and it caused everyone more problems. I was nervous. He acted out when he saw Edward and I caught up in a headed moment. There was yelling, a stare down and most likely if I didn't say anything a fight would have gone down.
"What about Jake?" I told him. As you could tell I really didn't want to talk about this at all. Wish it could just poof away.
Edward showed a mixture of tiredness and regret. He sat up and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"We're going to have to tell him about us and to tell you the truth I don't care if he gets angry or upset. My main goal is to keep you happy and not regret anything. If he doesn't take the news well, which most likely is true, he'll have to deal with what it is."
"I know but I just hate to make him sad and angry especially when he doesn't even know about your past." I whispered. "I wont regret being with you. I want to stay with you but it makes me feel like I should've did something to fix this."
"Bella there would have been nothing to change. We'll probably have to tell him of my…past but once he hears it he'll think otherwise." He said looking at me. "And you my dear have a big heart and no matter how bad a situation is you still want to make people happy. It's who you are and I wouldn't want you to change any other way. You're a big softy." He smirked at the end.
I scoffed and hit his chest playfully.
"I may be a softy to you but I can handle my own thank you."
"I bet you can't handle me." He said huskily, pulling me closer to his body. Our chest were touching and I could feel him harden between us.
My breathe hitched and he kissed me on my throat. I grabbed his head and pulled him back, enough so that my lips were brushing his.
"Edward, I can handle everything you give me but you can't even handle half of me but if that isn't true…prove me wrong." I whispered.
I heard a growl come from his chest and he flipped us over quickly. A squeal left my lips and he was attacking my neck.
It was a Monday and it was exhausting. Edward and I were at his house watching tv after a long session of being "one". My phone had at least 30 messages, 20 missed calls, and 15 voicemails. I know I should answer some of them but I didn't want to. I wanted to stay in fantasy land but then again I needed to face reality some time and I rather do it sooner then later.
My messages were mostly from Jake and the missed calls were from him and Alice. One was actually from Jasper. Then all the voicemails were from Jacob and I did listen to them. Most of them were about when I was coming back and I wasn't sure how I was going to tell him about all my decision to be with Edward but no matter what, I would always be by his side. No matter what Jacob said.
While Edward and I were on the couch just relaxing, I decided to call Alice first. My phone call with her was about an hour. She understood everything and was happy for me. I did tell her about Edward's story somewhat. She didn't know every single thing, just the jest of it. Edward didn't need everyone to know about his story. When I finished telling her she became more sympathetic towards me. She said she knew that Edward was the one for me. She was ok Jake but he wasn't the one for me and she believes Edward is the one. I believed her on this one.
She told me that we needed to go to lunch so we could talk more. I agreed and we picked the time and place. Since Jasper called, Alice told me that she would let him know that I was ok.
The last person that I needed to worry about was Jake. I wasn't sure if I should call him or go over there but going over seemed like the best idea. I decided to call him to let him know I was coming over.
"Hello." His voice sounded really tired.
"Jake, it's me."
"Bella! When the hell are you coming back?"
"Jacob, we need to talk but not on the phone."
"Then come over."
"I'll come later tonight." I told him.
"Come over now. We can talk everything out." He insisted.
"Jake, I'll be there soon." I told him firmly.
"Fine."
I said goodbye and started to get ready to go. Edward wanted to go just in case but I told him I had to do it alone. I had to get everything over and straightened out right now. I could tell by that face that Edward thought something bad was going to happen. It was like he was heart broken for some reason.
"Edward, what's wrong?"
"Come back to me." He pleaded.
"What?" I was confused.
"Bella, please come back to me. I can't bare you leaving me. Not when I just got you." His voice was serious yet sad.
I could never leave Edward. Now that I have him I'm not letting him go. I knew I was going to have to work on his trust issues but I was willing to get him to trust me 100%. I wanted him to know that I would never leave for anything.
"Edward…your stuck with me. Now that I have you, I'm not letting you go. Believe me, once all this is done, we wont to worry about anything. I'm with you whether you like it or not." I gave him a smile at the end and he returned it.
"I'll be back, I promise."
I gave him a sweet yet passionate kiss to let him know I meant every word I said. When I pulled back his face showed relief yet nervousness.
I left the his place and headed towards the elevators.
I know was going to be pissed during this conversation. There was no doubt in my mind. I was just nervous he would do something we would both regret. I know Jacob's anger was something not to mess with. He could be calm one minute then pissed beyond belief one moment. I never did like it, I always tried to avoid it.
Edward on the other hand was really sensitive now. Its probably because he let someone in knowing that his brother could most likely ruin it. I wasn't EVER going to fall for his brother. His brother could kiss my ass for all I cared. Yes I know that was a bit far but Edward needs to know that I'm his and his alone. He didn't need to worry about me leaving. That day would never come. I felt like this relationship was going to be all about how to get Edward to trust me with all his heart. I wouldn't let him down.
The elevators dinged and I walked out. I took a cab to the apartment and when I made it to the door, I took a deep breath before knocking. It didn't take but ten seconds for Jacob to answer the door.
"Bella!"
"Hi Jacob."
He opened the door wider for me to enter. I sat on the couch and waited for him to join me.
""Did you want anything to drink?" He asked. To me he sounded a little desperate.
"No, thank you." I said. I wanted to hurry this up.
He sat on the couch right by me. Our legs were almost touching but I needed space. I couldn't do this if he was going to be like this. I backed up till I got to the end of the couch and started to tell him my decision.
"Jacob I made my mind up and I decided that you should know the reason Edward never seemed to know you or understand why you were mad." I took a deep breath. "Edward never knew you because he..had a brother. A twin brother. Long story short, Edward's brother had some issues and while you were at the wrong place at the wrong time, he took that frustration out on you. Whenever he seen you, you probably were scared or nervous which made it that more fun for him to pick on you. I know it may sound crazy but it's like a bully. He wouldn't pick on someone bigger and stronger then him. He saw you, someone smaller and easier to pick on. Edward never heard of you but once but never seen you."
I looked at him to see if he was still on track with what I said. He looked almost thoughtful, trying to work everything out in his mind.
"Jake, Edward is a bad boy but to a certain extent. He was a bad boy because of his brother and it's a habit of his but behind that bad boy is someone that is really down to earth. He's like no other." I said.
I almost regretted saying those words because the look of Jacob's face was something to be scared of.
"Bella, who did you stay with this whole time?" He asked, narrowing his eyes.
"I was with Edward."
"YOU WHAT!" He roared.
"I was with Edward, I was going to go to Alice's but Edward was down stairs and wanted to talk to me. So I ended up staying there." I was getting pissed already.
"I know you haven't been there just talking. You know it too."
Jake was making that angry face, the one I really hated and tried to avoid. I wanted to defend what Edward and I did at his place.
"No, Edward and I haven't just been talking. We were getting to know each other more and yes I had sex with him more then once and it was wonderful. We confessed our love and promised each other that we were it. The one I was suppose to be with. I never felt like this before. He made me feel loved, grateful, and he cherished me like I was something fragile, something precious." I yelled.
"You don't think I tried to make you feel complete. I tried and yet you didn't want it because bad boy over there is so much better."
"Not better in the sense your saying but as in he's better for me. I can't help who I fall in love with. I fell in love with Edward and now that I can admit it, it feels good and I feel different. A good different. I know you don't love me like you say but your only doing it because I've been with you so long and the thought of giving me up for my happiness while you'll be alone is unacceptable to you. You may have thoughts in your head that say you could let me go if need be but actually doing it is another story. Jake I'm not the one for you. When was the last time we've been intimate? Or the last time you told me you loved me? When was the last time was just stayed in the house and just talked, enjoying each others company? For all those answers, its been a long time and the reason is, is that you don't see me in the way that you wish. You wish I was yours, you wish that you really loved me like we were a couple but we're not and it's ok. We can always be friends no matter what but I found someone who really makes me happy."
I could feel some of my tears rolling down my cheek. I never really spoke that much before but everything I said was true. He needed to let me go.
He was silent for a long time but he eventually looked at me and said words that I thought wouldn't happen.
"Bella." He let out a sigh. "Your right but I cant just be friends with you all of a sudden. It'll take time for me."
"Take all the time you need, I'm just a phone call away." I said with a small giggle.
I saw his mouth twitch before it disappeared.
"I should go." I said getting up.
He didn't say anything. He stayed on the couch.
I walked to the door and looked back.
"Bye Jake."
Right before I closed the door I heard a faint goodbye.
I left the apartment while thinking about the conversation we just had. I thought he would scream and yell for hours to no end. I believed he would try to convince me to stay with him but he didn't. I didn't know what was so different about him but I wasn't going to question it. I just hoped that Jacob would find a way to become friends. He was my best friend in the beginning and I wanted to keep him that way. Edward was the one for me and I would cherish everyday knowing that fact.
I didn't get back to Edward's till around six. By the time I walked knocked on the door, it was swung open. Edward grabbed me and pulled me in the room. Before I could say anything, Edward crushed his lips against mine, pushing again the door he just closed. I didn't mind it one bit but I was pretty sure he wanted this because of reassurance.
My arms wrapped around his neck and pulled him closer. It wasn't the sweet loving kisses he usually did, he was full on dominating my mouth…and body. I loved every second of it.
His hands held my hips tightly against the door and he had most of his body against me. My hands were pulling his hair and he groaned. Finally he pulled back and looked at me. That sexy face of his was doing things to my body. One of his hands moved towards my face and he thumbed my bottom lip.
"Who's lips do these belong to?" He asked huskily.
My eyes were staring into his and I could tell he wasn't playing.
"Yours." I replied breathlessly.
His hand moved down to my breasts. He grabbed one and pulled my nipple through my clothes. My head fell back against the door and I moaned. The pain and pleasure mixed created something I never felt before. After that pull I wanted to experience more pleasure and pain.
"What about here?"
"Yes...It's yours."
I saw a smile grace his lips and he moved his hand lower and unbuttoned my jeans. He pulled the zipper down and looked my in the eyes while his hands went under my underwear and stroked my clit. I moaned loudly saying his name.
"And your pussy belongs to whom?" He growled.
I couldn't concentrate with the way his fingers were stroking me. My hips moved with his fingers.
"Bella, I asked you a question and I expect you to answer it." He pinched my clit and I screamed.
"It's yours." I moaned out.
"What belongs to me?" I knew he was taunting me. I wasn't used to saying things like this but I couldn't disappoint him.
"My…pussy. My pussy belong to you and you only." I was beyond embarrassed at this point.
"Good girl."
He continued to stroke me and he finally pulled his hand out and pushed my jeans and panties down. He pulled my shirt up and took my bra off. Edward's eyes were roaming all over my body and I didn't feel a least bit self conscience. I leaned against the door and posed for him. My hands were against the door by my thighs and I bent my knees a little, giving off that sexy look. His eyes got darker and he wet his lips with his tongue.
"Another one." He whispered.
I thought for a second and turned around. I placed my hands on the door again but this time by my face. I arched my back and stuck my ass out. I turned my head and looked over at him over my shoulder. I bit my lip just for effect. I didn't know where the confident girl came from but I felt like I could be myself and more around Edward.
'Fuck." I heard him whispered. "Stick that ass out a little more baby."
I did as I was told and I knew I was dripping already. I felt Edward's hands slide down my back to my ass. He cupped them and suddenly his hands disappeared. I was about to look back at him again but I heard a loud slap then a sharp sting. It took me by surprise.
"Ahhh!."
I felt the pain but it turned into pleasure. Yep, that got me wet even more.
His hands smoothed other the area.
"Did that feel good, baby?" He asked.
"Yes. A lot." I admitted.
He chuckled and surprised me again by slapping my other cheek. I moaned again and I heard another chuckle too. He turned me around and I noticed that he didn't have a shirt on and his pants were unzipped. I leaned forward and kissed with everything I had. His one hand fisted in my hair while the other grabbed my thigh and moved it to wrap around his waist. We fought for dominance and he won, shoving his tongue in my mouth. His hand pulled my hair, tilting my head so he could get a better angle to get his tongue deeper inside my mouth. He pushed me against the wall and grabbed my ass, lifting me up. I wrapped my other leg around his waist and without even knowing, his pants were hanging around his ankles. He was rubbing himself against me, getting both of us more wet.
"Please, Edward.." I moaned out.
"What do you need baby."
"I need you inside me." I whimpered out.
"You need what inside you." I knew he was teasing me and I couldn't wait anymore, so I said what he wanted.
"I need your cock inside my pussy." I yelled out.
That was all he needed. He shoved himself inside me and I screamed his name out.
"Yes, scream my name. Let everyone know your mine." He growled out.
He was working me hard and good. We fucked before but it wasn't like this. It was raw and animalistic needs.
"Harder, faster….yes, yes, right there. Fuck!"
I was really close. My stomach was tightening and Edward's thrust became harder and sharper.
"Fuck baby."
After two more thrust, I came. Hard.
"EDWARD!"
"Yes…Fuck! Bella."
He went as far as he could go inside me and still. after a couple seconds he swelled and came inside me. After we came down from our high, Edward slid down to the ground with me still wrapped around him. It took us a couple minutes to finally calm down and Edward was the first to speak.
"I'm sorry Bella."
"For what?" I asked confused.
He looked at me sheepishly. "For attacking you like that. My possessive side came out. You were gone for a while and I started wondering if you would came back and when you did the possessive side had to make sure you were mine."
I looked at him and started laughing. I couldn't help it. I loved that he got possessive of me but he needed to know I wasn't leaving him.
"Edward, I'm not leaving, ever. I wouldn't think of it. Your mine and I'm yours. Forever. don't ever doubt it in your mind that I would leave you.." I told him.
He stared at me for a while before a smile found its way to his lips and kissed me everywhere.
"And for the record, I loved the possessive Edward." I said, smiling at him seductively.
I know I know. Its been weeks since I last updated. I went o New Jersey for my cousins dance Nationals. It was fun but there was only so much you could do there under 21. Nothing the less nationals was fun. We stayed in the Taj Mahal in Atlantic city. Great hotel. We had the chairman towers. We were gone for a week with no internet service. It sucked.
Anyway I wanted to post this up and let you guys know that I'll be continuing the other stories too..or I'll try. I'm already writing another chapter for "Doctor, I need you". it should be out soon.
PLEASE REVIEW…..ITS BETTER THAN POSSESSIVE EDWARD…..