I keep forgetting to mention my co-writer/beta mzdomician I love her. She helps me out a lot with some of these chapters (even though there still aren't many but where getting their) I just keep forgetting to acknowledge her doing so. Sorry sweetie I know you read these and we help each other get them out there,I'll mention you more lol. Oh and I forgot to mention Serendity3 is an actually place.I don't think there's an actual 3 in the name but oh well in this story there is. If any of you get a chance look it up is a nice place to eat or just enjoy yourself if your ever in the new York area.
Disclaimer: As always all characters belong to Stephanie Meyer lucky lady : (. But I own this plot and this story. So don't take me shit Jk but no plagrising.
Warning: foul language and domestic violence if your not a fan I don't recommend reading this. Not that I'm a fan just saying.
Sorry for the long author note and update wait but without farther rambling. Chapter 4 :)
BPOV
We all talked for a while about what's been going on in our lives. I don't know how long we were talking but eventually Edward had to go and Alice reminded me that we had a lunch date with Rose. Which I totally forgot I was texting before the meeting. she was going to be pissed I spaced out on her.
Me and Alice gradually made our way over to Serendipity3. The three block walk seemed like it was the Sahara Desert hot and never ending. My phone buzzed in my purse continuously. Oh shit that's probably Rose bitching. I pulled out my blackberry and unlocked it only to be greeted with two missed calls from Jake and a text. What the hell.
* Babe I need you BAD! *-Jake
Oh now you need me.
That text was sent two and a half hours ago and the following voice mail he left was twenty minutes old.
*Eyy Babe we needss to tawk whn youus gets homess. I Mish yer pretty facsh*- Jake said drunkenly from the noise in the background it sounded like he was at a bar. Plus his voice was slurred. of course he was drunk he's been drunk a lot lately.
He doesn't come home all last night and he has the balls to text me. Not to mention call me twice I'm happy he was talking to my voicemail and not me. I would of ripped him a new one.
I looked over at Alice and hoped she didn't notice my sudden mood change.she did. She was looking at me sadly.
"Who was that?" she said hesitantly.
" It was Jake he left me a few messages. He said he wants to talk or something like that." I said casually trying to hide my irritation.
She give me one of her you-better- get-your-shit-together looks and walked into to serendipity3.I walked in slowly behind her.
" Oh yeah be are you going to tell Rosalie about the incident?" she said turning back towards me as we waited for the hostess.
"Tell Me what about a incident ?" Rose said looking between Alice and me. This was gonna be a long lunch.
I looked at Alice and gave her my best let-me-do-the-talking looks. I took a deep breath and just as I was about to spill my guts to Rose the fucking hostess came up to us and ushered us to our table. Of course when I muster up what little courage I got left this bitch wants to sit us. I rolled my eyes and as I sat down.
An hour or two into the most awkward lunch ever nobody was talking and I knew it was because nobody knew where to start. Not that I could just blurt out I got slapped hard by my boyfriend in a room full of people trying to enjoy there meals. I could really use a drink. It should be happy hour somewhere in the world.
Once we got our food which were all salads coincidentally. We've all tried to dig into our lunch but no such luck. Besides Rose. Who was sitting next to me , was scarfing down her food like she hadn't eaten in days. She was always an emotional eater. Alice who was sitting across from me was just eating her Caesar salad slowly avoiding eye contact with us. I was basically picking at my food, I had no appetite .When I knew what telling Rose would do. She would no doubt tell Emmett who would unleash World war III with Jake . Finally Rose speaks up or should I say announced loudly "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH YOU TWO?". We definitely had a few questioning stares thrown our way from other tables around us.
I was just about to say something when Alice beat me to the punch. Why does that keep happening. " Nothing RoRo me and B are just a little overwhelmed at work. Today was a bit crazy. But what's up with your eating woman something you care to share?". She said sweetly she gave rose's hand a gentle squeeze and a smile to emphasize her point. Boy did I hate Allies nickname for Rose and she had a lot of nicknames.
That being said Rose believed it nodded her head no then changed the subject. She nodded a little to quick but i didn't think much of it. Thank god that was not what I wanted to get into at the moment. I needed to get out of here I felt my resolve slowing starting to crumble.
As always Allie just knew she look at me then said " I have to use the bathroom B you want to come with?" she said nodding her head in the direction of the ladies room. I nodded my head and we both rose to our feet and walked over to the bathroom. I heard Rose mutter something behind us about needing a drink but we kept walking. I didn't need my sister to see me breakdown like this.
Once me and Alice were in the security of the bathroom she pulled me into her waiting arms as I melted into her warm embrace. All those mixed emotions,hurt,pain and confusion I been holding in came flooding down my face.
" Bella I know your have a lot of things going on in your head and your heart, but just know I'm here for you anytime you need me I'm here .I love you your like the sister god forgot to give me and I hate seeing you hurting like this. Whenever you get up the nerve to tell Rose I'm going to be right here with you." she whispered into my hair letting some of her own tears slip down her face. I wrapped my arms around her tighter.
" I love you so much Allie and I wouldn't let you miss that for the world. I need as much support as I can get right now." I said in between sobs pulling back to look at her. When we finally calmed down and stopped crying we fixed out make up . After we heard a toilet flush we figured it was time to get out of there. We walked back to our table in silence holding each other closely.
Back at work after this disastrous lunch date, I was still digesting the recent events that occurred this past week. I still hadn't told Rose about Jake or anything. She seemed to have her head on other things as well she didn't seem like herself at lunch. This was the first time in years that I kept something serious so to speak from Her but this was something I knew couldn't get back to Emmett. I already had enough on my plate I don't need to add a steaming cup of pissed off Emmett stew. I had to get my relationship with Jacob in check first. Being that Alice was the only one that knew what was going on meant I could vent to her. for now I don't know how long she'll want to tolerate my bitching and moaning.
I tried my hardest to jump back into my normal after lunch routine but I wasn't myself. I had very few calls to take care of and most of those people weren't clients so that was a bust. Normally I would have seven or eight songs done and ready to be re-recorded within my first two hours back. I just couldn't find my groove, my wastebasket was damn near full of my entire yellow notepad crumbled and balled up inside it.
I crossed my arms and laded my head on them for a few minutes. This emotional roller coaster is one bitch of a ride, my head was killing me. When I heard a soft knock I looked up to find Aro walking over to my desk and looking at me sadly.
"Ms Swan what seems to be the matter?. You don't seem like your usual chipper self. My email isn't being flooded with songs to be recorded. Nor am I being bombarded by the sound of your heels clicking into office to sign or finalize anything. Isn't this part of our normal routine?". He said calmly as always making direct eye contact. I looked back at him and smiled flatly then sat up straight.
" I'm just going through some things at home. I hadn't notice it was interfering with my work. I apologize if I let you down..." I said as a sob escaped my mouth. I knew were to right around the corner. Are looked at me sadly again as he scanned my face for a few seconds. I think he knew I wasn't going to be useful today and that I was on the verge of tears.I just hope he doesn't think it was because of him. damn I was a wreck today.
He cleared his throat then told me about the struggles in life and blah blah blah. he yammered on for what seemed like forever before essentially letting me go home early then bid me good day.I held back my tears for the most part. Since Alice drove me here I took a cab home I texted her from cab letting her know I left early. She texted me back almost immediately telling me to stay strong and get some rest.
When I got to the apartment I must of have been so out of it that I slammed the door a little harder than I intended to. It woke up a certain sleeping asshole who stood up weakly on his broad legs. I hadn't even move from my spot by the door as he stumbled closer to me. I dropped my purse on the floor which made a loud thud that traveled through the apartment. Which was unbelievably quiet an caused him to shudder. He smelled of cheap perfume and hard liquor. As came into view I noticed his clothes were heavily disheveled and outstretched. Plus I think I saw the fait stain of lipstick near his neck and on the collar of his shirt. I moved a little closer to him as he stood towering over me even in his drunken slouched state.I reached for his collar and tried to rub out the lipstick which only stained my mark was still new so whomever left this little reminder for me was in my house. My day just kept getting better.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS JAKE?" I said yelling in his face grabbing the lipstick stain on his shirt. He was wearing the deer caught in headlights look and he winced then rubbed the back of his head.
" Last time I checked I didn't need to answer to you now do I?" he spat answering my question with a question. He wiped his hand down his face and sighed as he stepped closer to me. I stood my ground.
"Last time I checked I was your girlfriend so that kind of gives you a reason to have to answer to me jackass. But aside from me pointing out the fucking obvious where the fuck have you been all night?"I said poking his muscular chest which had no effect on him.
He grabbed my arms forcefully and pushed my back against the wall closest to the door then cornered me with his palms pressed against the wall holding himself up on it. His palms were dangerously close to my head.
" First of all I don't need to answer to you because I'm a grown ass man. Girlfriend or not I could give a shit. Second who do you think your getting loud with you little piece of shit haven't answered my text or my calls all day and you think you can waltz in here all high and mighty thinking your going to boss me around. Who the fuck do you think you are? Because the fucking Isabella Marie Swan I know would know better" he said breathing heavily in my face he shifted his weight a little.
" I would know better? Where the fuck do you get off saying some shit like that. I walk in this house after the day from hell and this is what I'm greeted shitty excuse of a boyfriend. If I wanted to be treated like this I would stayed with my mother. Atleast then he husband would let me walk through the door before he degraded me then beat me."I said pushing pass him. He grabbed my arm again even harder then he did before. I was forced to turn around and face him. for a person that was still wasted he had some fast reflexes.
"Listen here you little bitch your gonna watch how you talk to me you understand that. I don't give a fuck what you say I could do whatever I want with whoever I want however I your two senses ain't needed you want to keep making your little comments what you got to say now?"he said harshly pulling me to him from my shoulders roughly.I knew I was gonna have bruises from the way he was grabbing my arms but my adrenaline coursing me. I pulled one of my arms lose and smacked him dead across his face. He looked at me like I had three heads.
"How dare you talk to me like that. You good for nothing piece of shit. You do god knows what all day while I bust my ass day in and day out so WE can have a roof over our heads,I PAY the bills. And you have the audacity to talk down to me like that. Last time I checked the man was suppose to bring home the bacon not the since your alcoholic ass doesn't get any clients or scripts you just sit on your ass all day. Or should I say drink on your ass all day.I've never seen duh an unmotivated person in my life. And to top it all off since you don't want to FUCK me you go downgrade to cheap,prostitute looking whores! Don't think I'm stupid I know you've been cheating on me you dirtbag! If it wasn't for me you would still be living with your fucking father. Like the big ass overgrown man-child that you are. I pay the bills and my name is on the lease not yours so basically your presence here is needed" I yelled breathing heavily in his face. He looked ten shades of red and his body was shaking violently. I thought he was having a seizure or something but the look in his eyes told me otherwise. His eyes were the darkest I ever seen them and he was looking at me viciously. He wasn't the same guy I fell in love with. He was somebody I wish I never knew. He lifted his arm and cocked it back as if he was stretching then he lunged me square in the eye. I felt all that rage he was holding in just a second ago shoot straight to my eye which was now starting to barely be able to open.
I dropped to the floor and held it as my unshed tears finally came crashing down. He looked down at me and ordered me to shut up. When I didn't he picked me up by my hair and threw me onto the couch. Now my pain was not only streaming from my eye but now my already throbbing head felt like somebody stacked a heavy load of textbooks on top of it. He told me to shut up and I just turned over and continued to cry. He grabbed by hair again but this time he grabbed me to our bedroom and liked the door close behind us. He wince at the sound of the door slamming and mutter "fuck" and wiped his hand down his face in frustration. As I lie on the floor now weeping uncontrollably looking at him sadly with my good eye.
" If you don't shut the fuck up I won't hold back next time I hit you" he said fiercely through gritted teeth raising his hand as if he were scolding a child.I tried to muster up enough energy to get up but I was to shaken to speak no less move.
He had moved over to the bed and thrown himself down then spread his legs out fanning across the relaxed as though nothing hadn't just transpired or as if he dint have a care in the world then turned on the tv. I begin to cry wen harder and louder how could he just not care about what he just did.
He looked over at me and got up from his spot on the bed then walked over to me. I scurried backwards towards the closet as he continued to walk towards me. I was backed against the closet still on the floor and he was standing a few feet in front of me. He bent down and smacked the taste out of my mouth.I could of sworn I tasted blood. I held my mouth as I looked up at him again with my good eye dumbfounded. How could that be the man I loved whole-heartedly? How could I still love him after all of this? How could I still want to be with him? I'm just a confused beaten mess.
A/N: I know some of you probably hate me right now but I just felt what happened in this chapter is going to lead ti something way better down the line. As the saying goes you gotta start at the bottom until you can reach the top.I think that's how it goes. Bella still hasn't hit her all time low yet. But as it was said somewhere I read alcoholics have weird tendencies when there wasted being abusive I one of Jakes. I only hoped I captured some of that among other things in this story.
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