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-Our Little Voice-
-Chapter III-Don't fight fate-
-Peter's POV-
She moved closer to me and took one of my hands in hers; she was so warm and fuck me! The pull was stronger like this, so close to me and touching me. I willed my body to remain still and bit the inside of my cheek hard.
"I…" She took a deep breath and whispered. "I want you to change me Peter." I gasped.
On some level I know I can't possibly be dreaming; I have been unable to sleep for over a century and a half after all. I know as well that with my perfect Vampire senses there is no fucking way I misheard what she just said, but for some reason my mind couldn't believe she actually said that.
She could be evil and just trying to build my hopes up or she could be borderline suicidal. Messing with my head or suicidal makes sense. There is no way someone would accept to be changed into a Vampire so easily. Right? The little voice was screaming in my head, saying I had already lost fifteen minutes thinking about my mates' non-existent mental issues. Fifteen minutes that she could be well into her change it said.
I felt something really warm touching my forehead and suddenly I was flying across the room while a fucking intense pain started spreading across my left eye and cheek. And I noticed my hair and clothes are dripping wet. What the fuck? I growled and barely managed to land on my feet instead of crashing against the wall. I shook my head trying to focus on my surroundings again.
Find my mate, kill whoever dumb enough to attack me.
The first thing I became aware of was the awful smell. Bella was in the kitchen, flanked by two pups, Sam was standing next to the couch Bella and I had been sitting on just a moment ago. I hissed and crouched. Have they decided to keep me from my mate after all?
"Peter, calm the fuck down." Sam shouted angrily but I could also hear some concern in his tone. What the fuck happened?
"What? I am fucking calm! You attacked me!" I growled at him.
"Man you lost it! Bella called, said you stopped talking, moving and breathing. She was upset and trying to shake you, splashed water at you but you were just out of it. I couldn't think of what to do so I slapped you." He shrugged. "Kinda hard to know if you are alright without a heartbeat. It worked though." He gave me a smug smile. Fucker.
"I didn't realize…" I glanced to Bella; her eyes were puffy and red, her cheeks glistening with tears. "I didn't mean to make you upset. I think I was just shocked by what you said." I took a deep unnecessary breath and walked slowly back to the couch.
"Are you good now man?" Sam asked narrowing his eyes at me.
"Yes, I am good. Thank you Sam." I nodded and he patted my back smiling for a moment and then squeezed my shoulder hard. I winced slightly but made no move to shake him off.
"Get your shit together man and don't scare her like that again!" He whispered and hissed too low for Bella to hear. I nodded sheepishly.
"We will be nearby if you need us Bella, Quil and Embry got the first patrol around town." He nodded to the two pups and they all left.
Bella took a step towards me and stopped with a sigh. I was next to her in less than a second and wrapped my arms carefully around her. I couldn't believe my mind simply went blank like that and I missed Bella's attempts to shake me out of it. She was sobbing quietly in my arms and I purred, nuzzling my nose on her neck. Her scent was the most exquisite thing and she felt like heaven in my arms.
"I am so sorry Bella, I don't know what happened. I… I couldn't believe what you said. I don't understand why or how could you just accept it so easily. I couldn't be happier of course, but I am a…" I hesitated my balls apparently went missing since I noticed I was shaking and trying to hold back a sob. Just thinking about her trying to trick me was painful. I took another deep breath.
"I am afraid that you don't mean it or that you are playing with me or hoping I won't be able to stop and drain you instead." She gasped and glanced up at me, her eyes still shedding tears but she was frowning now and trying to push me away. I untangled myself from her but it felt wrong, I wanted to keep holding her.
"So I am suicidal? Or just a sick and twisted girl that wants to hurt your feelings?" She was clearly upset and started pacing in front of me, her voice rising. "You tell me that if I become a Vampire I am destined to live eternally happy with you… it isn't just a probability, there would be no waiting for hundreds of years alone or even just a few decades, hoping to run across the man that can make me utterly happy, like so many others of your kind. The man for me is standing right here in my kitchen! And you call me suicidal? For not wanting to go against fate or destiny or the universe that for once seems not to be conspiring against me?" She was shouting by the end of her little speech.
Well, when she put it like that I had to admit it makes sense that she would be so willing to be changed into a Vampire. If I was in her shoes I would be too, I think. Who in their right mind would pass the chance of an eternity of happiness? My mate is smarter than I gave her credit for; I really need to remember that from now own.
"I am so sorry Bella, you are right." I said honestly and smiled at her.
"It's… it's ok Peter, you don't really know me but I feel something…" She rubbed her right hand on her chest, the spot right above her heart. "I don't know what it is, but when you were in the couch, frozen, I nearly lost my mind." She whimpered and shook her head.
"I may not have supernatural instincts but for once my mind and heart agree that I shouldn't let this opportunity pass. I am sorry I don't have the instincts necessary to love you after one look into your eyes but I could you know… if you change me, if you really want me as your mate." She finished with her voice barely above a whisper and blushed looking down to the floor. I placed my hand below her chin and made her look up.
"I never wanted anything or anyone more than I want you Bella. You don't mind the pain though?" I had to ask.
"Of course I mind the pain!" She said looking nervous. "But I can't just get a free ride to complete happiness right? I understand that and I- I think it's worth it." She nodded and I smiled pulling her tight against me.
"Whenever you are ready Bella, you just need to ask and I will get everything we need for your change." I was secretly hoping she would say now as it would be much easier to ensure her safety during the fight if she was immortal as well, but I wouldn't push her, I would wait as long as she needs me to.
"Really?" She asked sounding hopeful.
"Yes." It was all I could say.
"I would like to be a Vampire before Victoria comes back. I am tired of needing to be protected, of putting others in danger without being able to help. Besides, too many things can go wrong with so many Vampires here. I am not saying it won't be dangerous, even with me being a Vampire, but it evens the odds a little." She whispered and I couldn't be happier, even though I was sorry she had to leave her human life behind and for the pain she will be going through her transformation.
I was surprised again by how smart she is and I was relieved she wanted to be changed so soon, besides all the safety issues with so many Vampires trying to kill her while being human, trying to keep my instinct to bite and claim her under control was already a difficult task, I could only imagine how bad it would get as the day the newborns are supposed to arrive approaches.
"Sugar your family…" I started but was cut off by the sound of a curse escaping Bella's lips.
"Charlie knows about your kind. He is with Sue Clearwater, she has two kids in the pack and with Victoria running around it was hard to keep the truth from him. He only bought a few spontaneous fishing trips before he got really suspicious and demanded us to tell him what is going on." She groaned. "He will be livid I am sure but legally I am an adult! At least he can't whisk me away and have me committed."
I just stared at her for a moment trying to make sense of what she just said. I would have to meet her father. Fuck me! I have no idea of how to deal with parents! What am I supposed to say? 'It's nice to meet you sir, excuse me while I go and technically kill your daughter. Thanks! Bye?' Fuck! I groaned as well and held on to Bella a little tighter.
"Bella he is going to hate me. He will send the mutts to kill me." I sighed and she chuckled. Fucking chuckled at my misfortune!
"Peter it will be alright, I don't have to tell him the truth right away, we could say you and the pack decided to send me away to keep me safe. It's easier to say sorry than ask for permission right?" I wasn't so sure about that, it was the easy way of course but he would hate me without a question if we do that. I sighed. The cold, hard truth is that even if he ends up hating me in a few decades it won't matter. Bella doesn't seem to mind and I don't need his approval to be happy with my mate.
"Well, I will do what you think is best Bella, all I want is for you to be happy." I cooed.
"Thank you Peter. How much time do I have?" She whispered.
"Two days at the most if you really want to be a Vampire by the time Victoria arrives. If you don't though, I can wait for as long as you want. I don't want you to regret your decision." I sighed and pushed her away from me softly. She stopped crying a while ago but it wasn't hard to notice her nervousness, the fact that she didn't seem afraid helped calm my own nerves.
"Two days, right." She nodded. "There are a few things I need to do before I am ready, it won't take me over two days though. We need to speak with the pack as well." She groaned.
"It will be alright Bella." I said softly. "We can speak with them tomorrow and you can do all you need then as well, for now I think you need to sleep, this day has been hard for me, I can only imagine how stressful it was for you. Enjoy the last few nights of sleep you have, you will miss it in a few decades. Trust me." I said with a little humor trying to break the tension. She chuckled softly and I smiled.
"Sleeping will be hard but I think you are right. Thank you Peter… You will be nearby?" She asked shyly.
"You only need to call my name if you need me, I will be a few seconds away. I promise." She bit her lip and nodded before taking a step closer to me and wrapping her arms around my back. I did the same and inhaled her beautiful scent purring softly against her hair.
"Will I see you tomorrow?" She whispered against my chest.
"The pack and I need to train for a few hours and I wouldn't want you to waste any of your time just sitting there, but I will leave you my number, call whenever you want and I will come back. I will ask Sam to leave a mutt or two with you to make sure you are safe." I wrote my number down in a notepad by the phone, took her hand and walked towards the front door. "Good night Bella." I gave her a soft peck on her cheek and left after she whispered good night to me as well.
I followed one of the mutts scent for a few yards and saw him in the woods behind Bella's house. He had a clear view of the property and I am sure he heard everything we said. I approached him with my hands raised in the universal sign of peace.
"Quil?" He shook his big head. "Embry?" He nodded and rolled his eyes at me and sat down on the grass. I nodded to him and sat down as well, I left some room between us though, his awful smell was overpowering even with the fresh scent of the woods around us.
I grabbed my cell phone from my pocket and took a deep breath considering my options. I could call a friend or two from the Wars and risk them scaring the hell out of my Bella, since most hardly know how to behave around humans except for feeding. I could call Charlotte and her mate but that would be a little awkward, especially once Bella is a Vampire. That only left the Volturi and considering the amount of mysterious deaths in Seattle I wouldn't find it difficult to believe some of them are already in the area or at least on their way. But first I really need to speak with Jasper.
"Embry I need you to stay quiet no matter what you hear. I am calling one of the Cullens." He growled. "Don't worry I won't let him know I am here with Bella or anything of what's going on." He huffed and turned his head away from me.
I sighed and dialed Jasper's number. It only took a couple of rings for him to answer.
"Hello Peter." He sounded like someone just kicked his puppy.
"Jasper." I greeted him barely able to hide the venom in my voice. "Want to tell me why the fuck I can't stop hearing about all the bullshit you and your stupid coven pulled on a human girl?" Alright maybe trying to hide the venom in my voice was a lost cause.
"What? Who told you that?" He choked.
"No one, I just know Jasper. What the fuck were you thinking? Did the animal blood finally made you lose your fucking mind? You know the shit-ton of trouble your coven can get in if anyone gets wind of this? Fuck man you broke one of the rules! The Volturi won't care about your pretty golden eyes you know?" I could hear the rest of his fucked up family hissing and speaking too quietly for me to make much of it. Jasper was growling softly.
"I- I know Peter, I tried but Edward…" His growling got louder. "Damn it Alice I don't need you to babysit my calls." I heard a door slamming, glass shattering and the wind as Jasper ran from the house. He sighed after a few seconds.
"Fuck Peter! This is a fucking mess. I was so close to just going back to her and changing her myself and not just for the rules Peter, there was something about her, she wanted to be one of us, I could feel it, she was gifted too, Edward couldn't hear her thoughts. It's like she was made to be one of us." I frowned. My mate is gifted? And why is he was speaking about her like she was dead? He spoke again before I could ask.
"She… she disappeared from Alice's visions a couple of months after we left. Alice said the last thing she saw was a nomad attacking her and then nothing! I think… Alice said that it means she is dead Peter." He let out a feral growl that turned into a sob. "And only Emmett was upset about it! Everyone else was relieved! She was supposed to be Edward's mate! Alice's fucking best friend and they felt fucking relief! At her birthday party, I didn't mean to attack her but everyone was so fucking thirsty Peter! She was Edwards' singer for fuck's sake and now she is gone. We were not very close but I don't know Peter, she reminded me of you."
He sighed and I was fucking speechless. The mutt looked as surprised as me. It has been decades since I heard Jasper so upset and the fact that he tried to come back to change her was more than I expected. Perhaps I won't have to burn the fucker after all. The rest of his stupid family may not be so lucky though.
"Peter could you… Fuck! I know it's asking a lot but please go to Forks and see if she is there, alive?" He pleaded. "Alice's visions are failing lately, perhaps she won't see it, she had no idea you would call. Please Peter, I will do whatever you want in return. I just have to know. She is the Police Chief's daughter; so you won't have a hard time finding her house. Please don't hurt her though."
I glanced at the mutt for a moment, thinking carefully about how to answer. I really hated hearing him so upset, it's clear he cares about my Bella but the little voice screamed at me not to tell him she is here, safe and that she is my mate. The mutt shook his head and bared his teeth in a silent growl. I sighed.
"I need a few days Jasper but I can make the trip. I just want you to think really hard about how fucked up your coven is. I don't need anything in return for my help but fuck man! Just think for a second! I find it incredible that you allowed them do reveal the secret to a human and then leave her with a heartbeat! Some mate your brother is." I spat and he let out a sigh of relief.
"I know it was wrong, thank you so much Peter. I will call you in a few days." He sounded so grateful. It made me feel a bit guilty and I just murmured my goodbye.
"This shit got a little more weird Embry." I said to the mutt shaking my head. He walked closer to me again and sat down shrugging.
I couldn't understand why they left Bella here or why Alice and Edward went as far as stopping Jasper from leaving to change her. Where they fucking suicidal? The Volturi don't make exceptions when it comes to breaking one of the rules, no matter how much time has passed or if the humans in question are dead. Fucking animal blood messing with their minds.
With Jasper's call out of the way and a little more information on my side, I just have one call left. Unfortunately they are a wild card in the best of days. I just hope they focus on the fucking newborn army instead of on my mate. I sighed, found the number I needed and pressed my finger against my lips motioning the mutt to be silent again while I waited for Alec to pick up his phone.
Thank you all so much for your reviews and alerts! I really hope you like this chapter! It came out a little more dramatic than I intended, Jasper's gift makes him a little emo! But at least there is no evil cliffy this time!
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