Chapter 5

Renesmee

They stopped fighting when Jacob was on the floor, he had turned back into human form and was laying on the sand, bleeding from all places and I screamed in horror then ran over to his side "Mum get some towels" I seen his eyes start to close "Jake, stay awake... c'mon you have to stay awake"

It didn't take long before his closed and fell into unconciousness "Mum he won't wake up!" I screamed and cried, she rushed over to me and placed a towel over Jacob's private area.

"His pulse is weak, he doesn't have much time. His body can't repair it's self... there's to much damage done" I got up from Jacob's side and went over to my dad and started punching him with the sides of my fists in the chest "I hate you and I will never be able to forgive you for this!"

He tried to put his arms around me and hug me but I pushed him away "Can't we change him?" I asked my mum.

She shook her head "I'm sorry sweetie. I don't think he'd want that, I think he'd rather die a wolf don't you?" I went back to to his side and held his hand.

All I want id for him to wake up, tell me he loves me one more time, look into my eyes one last time. "Jake if you love me then wake up... please wake up, I have to tell you something and if you die on me then you won't ever know" I whispered to him, knowing full well that my parents could hear me.

I put my hand to his neck to try and feel a pulse but there wasn't one and he was cold... he was dead "You killed him!" I shouted to my dad "I hate you so much!"

My mum pulled me into her arms and she hugged me as I cried "He won't ever know" I repeated between sobs and my mum kept asking me what I meant but I couldn't tell her, I just couldn't "I need him back"

THREE YEARS LATER

"Mummy mummy mummy!" Jacob shouted as he jumped onto my bed at seven in the morning, it's Sunday... the day of rest. "C'mon, get up... I'm hungry" he jumped off my bed and ran into the kitchen.

Yeah that's right, I wasn't on the pill when me and Jacob had sex and I knew I was pregnant on that Island, I could just feel it. As you can probably tell I hd a little boy and he was named after his father, we moved into Jacob's home with his dad when we came back. I lived in La Push and I didn't speak to my dad neither did my mum. They broke up a few weeks after he killed Jake.

Billy died two years ago of a heart attack so now it was just me and Jake and sometimes my mum visits, dad tried many times to get into contact with me and Jacob but I couldn't talk to him or face him... not after what he did to us.

I got outof bed and went into the kitchen to make Jake his breakfast, not only did he look like his dad but everything about him. His personality, his looks, his food habits, sleeping habits.

"Mummy can we go and see Seth today?" he asked whilst eating his breakfast. Seth was his Godfather and I think Jacob would of wanted that but Seth was teaching him how to ply football and soccor and Jacob was getting addicted to it.

The other day he kicked a soccor ball in the house and broke three plates "I don't know, let me ring him and see what he's doing OK?" he nodded and went back to watching cartoons.

There was a knock on my door so I went and answered it and seen mum on the other side "Hi mum" I said and we hugged, I invited her in and lead her through to the living room. She handed me a letter and I could tell from the writing on the front that it was from dad. "Watch him a minute" she nodded and I went to my bedroom and locked the door before opening the letter and reading it.

Dearest Renesmee,

It's been a while since I spoke to you, even if it was over the phone with you shouting at me because honestly I prefer that to not hearing anything from you or Jacob.

Esme, Carlisle, Emmett, Rose, Alice and Jasper say hello and Alice wants you to ring her to arange a shopping date. Rose and Esme will probably come with you.

I really hope that you can one day forgive me for the horrible things I did to you and Jacob. I know it was a terriable thing I did and when we started fighting that day I honsetly did not want to kill him because I knew you would hate me if I did and I was right.

I know it was Jaco'b birthday last week. Of course I didn't forget. In the envelope should be a cheque for him to buy something nice, I would of got him a present but I don't know what he's into. Your mum also told me that you were having money problems so there's a cheque for you as well, I know it's not much but I hope it will help.

Please send you mother and Jacob my love and I hope to hear from you soon.

Much Love

Dad xxx

I put my hand in the envelope and pulled out the two cheques, the one addressed to Jacob was $2000 and the cheque addressed to me was for $50,000.

Of course I knew how wealthy my family were but this is ridiculous. I went out to my mum and showed her the cheques "Any for me?" she joked,. Since she left dad she didn't take handouts but I knew how much she was struggling she decided to leave the Cullen family behind her when her and dad split off and start a new fresh life so she had to get a job and all sorts and because she didn't go to college she didn't have many job oppurtunities.

I handed her the cheque for $50,000 "You need it more then me"

"No" she put it back in my hand "This is yours and you keep it, I don't need it. I am perfectlly fine on my own" she was such a bad liar.

Mum left about one o'clock that afternoon so I rang Seth and he said he was on his way round, true to his word he was round minutes later and took Jacob to the back of the house to play football.

Life without Jacob was horrible and hard, sometimes I hated him for leaving me and Jacob like that but deep down I loved him so much it hurt and I knew I was never going to find love again but I was happy having Jake in my life, he helped fill the gap that was missing, I'm gonna be OK on my own.

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