The Finale of Lovino Vargas

Spain called and called, but Romano would not pick up his phone the next day. Although Spain had cancelled his plans with Veneziano to finally spend some time with his beloved Romano, it seemed that Romano didn't want to have anything to do with Spain for the rest of the day, and that hurt Spain more than anyone could ever know.

What Spain didn't know is that Romano had been harboring pain and regret for months now, and was spending his last day writing his suicide note.

It had to be perfect, it had to tell Antonio how he felt, the happy and the miserable… The love.

As twilight managed to roll around and dusk fell, Romano deemed he was ready. Suicide note on the counter of the kitchen, Romano sat on his bed, gun in hand as he contemplated his finale.

Was it really worth it?

Maybe Greece was right. Maybe he had better things to die for.

Maybe Eliza was right. Maybe Romano would devastate Antonio and Feliciano.

But maybe he was right. Maybe he really couldn't deal with the pain. Maybe it wasn't worth staying here. Maybe… Spain would never feel the way he did.

Maybe Spain would never love him.

Romano brought the gun up to his head for a moment, but the dropped it slowly, letting out a disturbed sort of chuckle. He was killing himself over love. Of all things, it had to be love. But it wasn't just that, he decided. It was the pain of being isolated, it was the pain of being torn apart, and it was the pain of never being seen as worthy when compared to his brother.

Maybe it was just the pain.

-x-x-x-

Spain had contemplated for a long while over whether or not to come see Lovino. It was already far too late to go to the festival, but they could still catch the fireworks together, right?

But that wasn't all he wanted to do. What the Spaniard was really hell bent on was telling Lovino how he felt. Antonio didn't want to see the Italian hurt, and Antonio wanted him to know that above everything else, he loved him.

As Spain walked down the street, he stopped at Romano's familiar house and unlocked the door with the key he'd been given. But something was amiss… The house was far too quiet, not even the sound of the TV running. Maybe Romano had fallen asleep on the couch?

But the Italian wasn't there. Dining room? No. Perhaps the kitchen?

And that's when Spain found the note. And he trembled all the while through reading it-

To whoever finds this,

You will find very very soon that I am no longer here. Just go upstairs. I've decided I'm done, and yes, I've mulled over it for a while… so since Antonio is the only one I expect to find this, I have something to say to you.

If Spain is reading this, I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused you. I know I was just a burden to be around you. But I want you to know I've always loved you and there's nothing you can do about that, but there was nothing I could have done and I shun myself for not finding the courage to tell you until I was dead. I know you favor my brother over me, and I hope that I can't burden you anymore, so that you won't be frustrated by me. I know he'd needier, but I have needs too, and you can't balance that out, so you have to choose his over mine. I'm sorry I made things hard, Antonio, I love you.

It actually occurs to me that my brother might be reading this, and I don't want you to think I don't care.

So to my Fratellino, I loved you too, and I'm sorry I had to be such a fucking bother. I hope you're happier with me gone.

So to the two of you… arrivederci.

Spain froze and dropped the letter, panic rushing over him. Romano couldn't be dead… he just couldn't!

"LOVINO!" Antonio screamed, running for the stairs.

-x-x-x-

Romano froze, lowering the gun only slightly. He was, in that exact moment, about to pull the trigger, and then he heard him. Spain. Antonio, calling his name in blind panic. Romano stood there frozen for just a moment until Spain burst into the room, yanking the gun from Romano's hand and in turn yanking the Italian into a forceful hug, beginning to cry into his shoulder.

"I-Idiot, what are you doing…?" Romano muttered, 'shocked' being an understatement.

"I could ask you the same thing! What were you thinking? Do you know how happy I am that I wasn't too late?" Spain continued to sob into Romano's shoulder, tremors rocking his body. "You're the idiot! Don't you ever to that to me again!"

"You're being a massive ass for someone who says they were so concerned…" Romano looked away from Spain, albeit hugging him back. The Spaniard just looked up and took Romano's face in his hands.

"You thought I loved your brother more than you and were going to kill yourself over it… forgive me if I'm a little angry, or shaken, or afraid, or even slightly broken, Lovino…"

Romano began to choke on words to say.

"If you were too late, what would you have done? What could you possibly have told yourself to make it alright?" A stern scowl came to Romano's face, and Spain simply bit his tongue and trembled.

"What could make your death alright, Lovino? You're being very selfish right now…" Spain returned that scowl, forcing Romano's breath to hitch angrily.

"I'm being selfish? I'm not the one who's acting all high and mighty right now, looking down on someone for being in pain, Antonio! You're such a stupid bastard sometimes!"

And with that remark, Spain did two things that changed the situation drastically; the first was slap him, followed by promptly kiss him, both of which confused the Italian very, very much.

"You have… no idea how much pain reading that letter put me through. You were being very selfish, because if you killed yourself… then I would have to do the same, Lovino, and I don't want to pay either price."

"Great, so it's my fault now…"

"I'm sorry, Lovino! I'm sorry for putting you through so much pain, and it will never happen again, but you are not allowed to worry me like that again… because dammit, Romano, I love you!"

Romano let out a short, exasperated laugh.

"Hey."

"What…?"

"Stay over tonight."

"How about forever?" Spain was back to grinning again, and that was enough to bring a smile to Romano's face.

"Yeah."

A/N: CRAP.
THAT IS THE SIMPLEST WAY TO PUT IT.
The end... The ending came out too like... fluffy and crap for this god dang story. BLAME PANDORA. F***ING BLAME PANDORA. They started playing all this fluffy music that fit for what I was writing but totally obliterated what I was gonna write and made this fluffy crap.
I hope you guys like Fluffy. 'Cause this is FLUFFY.

I will not be doing a sequal or sister series to this, at least for a long time, because I have too much to work on. /facedesk
I was gonna work on Heroes of Time, but the plot bunnies that were holding Italy hostage threatened to kill him if I didn't write this, I swear!
Dang, my plot bunnies are getting rambunctious...

SO. SHOUT-OUTS:
The fic of the day is "Arreviderci" by HipsterMustache (AWESOME PEN NAME, MY FRIEND) because it is what inspired me to get off my butt and work on this. The first part was from the plot bunnies that came to me while I was working at my school's library as the assistant, because for some reason I really wanted to find Romano in a situation like that while I was there. Idk. And the third came out of no-where.

The songs of the day are "All I Wanted" by Paramore, "Servant of Evil" by Kagamine Len, and "Endless" by Green River Ordinance for being the driving forces of this story. Especially the last one, that one made the beginning of this story the good that it is. And then the end, well, you can blame Pandora for that fluff.

The person of the day is my friend Dylan, for being the person to CONSTANTLY HARASS ME WITH STUFF ABOUT TOILET PAPER CAKES AND CONDOM WATER BALLOONS WHILE I WAS WRITING THIS. Thanks, Nebraska, you're really insane.

And the last shout out is to a movie I don't know. My sister just told me about this scene once where this guy is like shouting and to girl he's gonna marry or something, and he's like "I'm going to marry you if it's the last thing I do!" and he walks out, and walks back in and yells "I LOVE YOU!" and that inspired Spain's outburst in the end lol

I hope you enjoyed this because I think it's weird :I
Ciao~!