Christian POV
Rose was standing there, not moving. It didn't even look like she was breathing as she looked up to find Dimitri standing there with Lissa in his hands.
His face showed no emotions as he looked from Rose to Lissa an then me.
"Christian set him on fire already!" Adrian yelled from behind me. I reacted almost immediately, throwing balls of fire in Dimitri's direction. He had dodged every single fire ball I had thrown at him. I could feel myself being drained by the amount of power I was throwing at him.
Rose had come out of nowhere and with her stake in hand, she began advancing on him. He threw Lissa on the ground and I could smell blood coming from her. Adrian took her out of the building and took care of her.
Dimitri was pleading with Rose. "Let me change you Rose, we can be together forever." She sliced him with her stake right across the heart. His screech of pain was ear piercing, nearly damaging my eardrums. "Don't kill me Rose. You still love me like I love you."
She hesitated, hesitated just in time for him to grab her by the arm. I reacted quickly, throwing all of my power at him. He screamed and let Rose go who came to stand by my side.
We watched him burn alive, screaming. Rose was crying but made no noise, she was tough like that.
I held onto Rose, stroking her hair over and over again whispering, "It'll be okay Rose. You can talk to me. I'm here for you." I hoped she believed it because it was true. If she ever needed to talk, I'd be there for her. I was starting to love Rose, just like Adrian had told her.
I knew Adrian had bandaged Lissa up whilst we were killing Dimitri so I towed Rose into the backseat of the car, not even glancing to see if Lissa was okay. It's not that I didn't care if she was hurt or not it was because I knew she was okay. I didn't have to look at her to know she was fine.
"Where do we go now?" Adrian asked as he climbed into the driver's seat after he had buckled Lissa into the other front seat. We should probably see if she had really hurt herself.
"We should probably go to the Hospital to see if she's okay." Adrian nodded his head and began driving. We all sat in silence listening to the hum of the car's engine as we drove to the Hospital.
After fifteen minutes of awkward silence Adrian pulled up to St. Mary's Hospital.
Adrian climbed out of the while me and Rose sat in the backseat looking in opposite directions. She was embarrassed about how she hesitated. She felt as if she was a bad guardian to Lissa. No guardian would ever hesitate under pressure or from what a Strigoi might say to them. I knew she felt as if she had let herself down.
"I'm proud of you Rose." I whispered turning my head slowly to the back of her head. Her head swung around in one smooth move.
"You're kidding right? I hesitated; if you weren't there we would've all been killed. Lissa would have been killed because of me, so would Adrian. I should never have listened to him in the first place. He was a Strigoi not Dimitri. Dimitri's been dead since the day in the caves." I let her get everything of her chest even though I knew she was wrong. She would've killed him eventually. She's the strongest person I know, stronger than me.
"Rose, it wasn't your fault. You loved him and he loved you, any person would hesitate at a time like that." I spoke softly to her, hoping that she would actually listen to me.
"No guardian hesitates at any time, Christian." I rolled my eyes and shook my head. Rose was impossible sometimes. She never listens to someone when she's angry. She does listen to you if she's upset though. It really does matter what mood she is in at the moment you talk to her.
"It wasn't your fault, Rose. It doesn't matter anyway. We're all safe now." I said hugging her. I loved the way she felt in my arms, like it was meant to be. It was like we were supposed to do this. Nearly losing Rose's life and your life in one day opens your eyes up a little bit.
I loved Rose. I may have only really known her for about three or four days but I knew I loved her. I just didn't know if she loved me back.
I turned the music on the radio to fill in the silence that was hanging in the air. The music was on full volume so I turned it down a little bit so I could at least hear myself think. Rose still had red eyes and blotchy cheeks as she turned to me who was staring at her.
She smiled kindly at me and took my hand. Her hand felt warm in mine and it felt right, just like her in my arms felt right.
Adrian came back and opened the driver door. "The Doctor in there wants to check her out for awhile. It'll take about thirty minutes approximately. You guys can come in and wait in the Hospital if you want." I knew Adrian just didn't want me and Rose to be alone together bur Rose would never figure that out by the way Adrian had said it and was acting. Honestly, I think it was sad for him to be acting this way when we almost just died. Stupid royals.
"Yeah, at least it'll be warmer in there." Rose wasn't exactly wearing winter clothing. It was raining outside. Well, it was actually pouring outside and Rose was only wearing a short-sleeved shirt and shorts that she would normally wear for training.
I was such an idiot, she was probably freezing and I was just sitting here like a total dickhead.
I hadn't even known she was shivering until Adrian had pointed it out. I got out and grabbed a jacket from the boot of the car, it had been mine a few years back and it would be a perfect fit for her.
I ran over to her as she was walking through the entry doors. "Here, take this." I said as I wrapped it around her shoulders and stroked her arms up and down as we walked down the hall to where four seats were situated.
"Lissa's in that room there." Adrian pointed to a room only five feet away from us. The door was closed and I wondered what the doctor was saying.
Adrian was sitting across the hall from me and Rose. He was glaring at our intertwined hands. It was like you could feel the tremors of anger rolling off of him. His teeth were clenched and he was breathing in and out deeply.
We sat in silence, with a glaring Adrian, for more than twenty minutes when Lissa walked through the Doctors door.
"Is everything okay?" Rose asked. I knew it was out of politeness because she hasn't forgiven Lissa yet, she couldn't help but care about her though. She always has cared for her, her whole life had been revolved around Lissa. Rose didn't know what her future held anymore or what she was going to do.
Rose couldn't be Lissa's guardian anymore; they would barely talk or look at each other. It was hard being in the same room as both of them because you could feel the tension in the air.
You could see how much Lissa was desperate to be friends with Rose again. She was all she had left and she didn't want to loose her to anything, especially her.
"Yeah, the doctor said everything was okay, just to be careful for a few weeks." You could see how happy Lissa was that Rose was talking to her, even if it was out of politeness.
"Are we done then? I'm really tired and I just want to go home." Rose said whilst yawning.
I carried Rose back to the car soundlessly. I decided I would drive so Adrian had to sit in the back with Rose, not that he was objecting at all.
But I was stuck in the front with Lissa. Sitting next to her would be the most awkward thing I've done in my whole life. I couldn't stand being in the same room as her, imagine how I felt sitting in a car next to her. I could see from out the corner of my eye that she had turned to face me. Her blonde hair was swaying in the breeze. I didn't want her to make this more awkward than it had to be.
She just kept looking at me though, making it hard to concentrate on the road. Her gaze never seemed to leave mine so I decided to say something.
"You should probably get some rest Lissa. You've had a long day." She looked away and fell asleep the next minute; I was the only one awake in the car. It was going to be a long drive home.
Rose POV
I fell asleep thinking about what had happened today. I and Christian had killed Dimitri. I never thought I would have seen him again. I just didn't understand why he would kidnap Lissa.
I felt sleep overcome me and I was getting pulled into one of Adrian's dreams. Heavens knows that I don't want to talk to him.
"Hello Rose." He said politely, sitting down and patting the space next to him.
I took in my surrounding's. We were on an island that seemed to be in the middle of nowhere. We were sitting down on a blanket that was on top of sand. We were on a beach. The water was the most beautiful blue I had ever seen in my life and I never wanted to look away from it. The whole scenery was breath-taking. If only this place was real. I wonder if it was.
"Is this place real?" I said speaking for the first time since he took me here.
"Yeah, I used to come here when I was a child with my parents." He lay on his back looking up at the sun. It was weird seeing a Moroi in the sun like this. I knew it wasn't real but it's not something you see everyday. Moroi never went out in the sunlight, it hurt them too much, so seeing Adrian in the sunlight was something I couldn't not look at. It was something that never happened.
I lay back, next to him. The dream felt so real, you could actually feel the sun on your face and the wind blowing over your skin. The sand was as white as snow and it matched Adrian's skin nearly perfectly. Adrian was a little tanner than most Moroi for some reason I didn't know. Maybe he came to the beach with his parents during the day as a child.
His eyes were closed but I knew they were the perfect shade of green. They matched Lissa's eyes exactly.
"What are you thinking about?" I really was curious; he wasn't usually quiet like this. Every one knew him as a loud and drunken royal.
"I was thinking about how I screwed up the most important thing in my life." He opened his eyes as he turned to me, seeing my confusion he added, "I lost you to Ozera and it was because of something I did." he shook his head in frustration. "I'm such an idiot sometimes. I fuck every thing that's ever been important to me up." He sat up and turned to me fully.
He took hold of my and closed his eyes. I knew what was coming and I didn't want to deal with it right now so I started waking myself up. I had learned how to do it a while ago when Adrian would visit me when I was upset or angry with someone.
I woke up to music on the radio playing. I could barely hear it; it was turned down so low. Christian didn't want to wake any of us up. He can be so sweet sometimes, like when he stroked my hair when I was crying.
I can see why Lissa loved him. He was perfect. He actually cared about you and made you feel happy. He was gorgeous too, his smile always brightened up his face.
I wasn't talking about the smirk he used to always give me. I was talking about his real smile, his genuine smile that made me happy despite what mood I was in.
I loved him.
I mean I loved that he smiled. He should smile more regardless of what he's been through everyone should be happy. I wanted to be the reason that Christian smile's.
You know, just for him to be happy and all. It wasn't like I was in love with him. We were just newly friends and he was Lissa's ex. Although I'm not sure if we were friends or not. Honestly, I really didn't care anymore what was done was done. There was nothing I could do to change it.
All the anger I've ever had seemed to have been drained away from me today. I fought my hardest to keep us all alive. Christian was the real reason we were alive though, if it wasn't for him while I hesitated we would've all been killed.
Would Dimitri have killed me though?
He's wasn't Dimitri, he was a Strigoi. I should've remembered that earlier when I had seen him. Seeing his face again in real life was nothing compared to wishing he was there. That's why I hesitated; I wanted to look at him for a long time before I had to kill him. That was the stupidest mistake I've made in my whole life. I could've gotten us all killed.
It'll never happen again. I'll never hesitate ever again in combat with a Strigoi. They were evil. They weren't who they used to be. They had become cruel creatures of the night and I will never forget that.
I had suddenly noticed that Adrian was awake and staring at me. Correction, he was glaring at me. He looked deadly. I guess he really wanted to tell me what he was going to say in that dream. He knew I had woken myself up.
I looked over to him and smiled innocently which only made his glare grow. He was mad as hell that I had woken myself up, not wanting to hear what he was about to say.
I closed my eyes while tilting my head back. I wished I was somewhere else in the world, somewhere like the places Adrian always took me to. He showed me the most beautiful places I had ever seen. We were never allowed to go anywhere exotic while we attended the academy.
It was still dark when we arrived back at the Academy but it was getting lighter. The sky had gone form being pitch black to a navy blue and was beginning to go into a lighter blue.
Lissa had fallen asleep so Adrian had carried her, rather slowly because he was a Moroi, to her bedroom.
I started walking to my dorm room when I heard Christian's footsteps behind me. I turned around to look at him and raised an eyebrow.
"What?" He put his hands in his pockets and looked down so I couldn't see his face.
"Your room is that way in case you've forgotten." I pointed in the opposite direction from where I would be going to my room.
"I know, just wanted to walk you to your door." He shrugged and started walking beside me.
"You don't have to. I'm pretty sure nothing's going to kill me." I looked up and smiled warmly at him.
He didn't smile back, though. I guess the whole dying part of the sentence was in poor taste. Oops.
"Rose, I just wanted to talk to you about something." I nodded my head for him to go on, "I forgive Lissa for what she did but I'll never be friends with her ever again." I understood how he felt; I really didn't care what had happened anymore. It was the past and you can't change it no matter how hard you try.
I knew more than anyone that you can't change the past. I remember wishing I could go back in time and save Dimitri from becoming a Strigoi. A few months ago I would've killed to get him back in his Dhampir form, but then I had killed him today. I helped Christian kill him knowing I would never see his face again after that.
It was going to be the hardest thing to accept. Accepting that you've killed the first person you ever really loved, it was hard. Not exactly something a teenager should ever go through. But I was tough, just like my mum. Janine Hathaway, the woman who had shipped me off to the Academy without a second thought so she could look after her charge.
I was beginning to understand why she had done it. I would literally do anything for my charge; anything but leave my child behind. She probably kept me here to make sure I was safe and learned from the best.
I had hated her when I was younger. I always felt as if she had abandoned me. I felt like I was unwanted, no child was supposed to feel that way from their Mother throughout their lives. I never really thought of my Mum as a parent. She had never been there for me on any occasion. I had seen her five times throughout my entire life and none of those times have exactly been blissful. Whenever I saw her, we would fight. It was inevitable, everyone knew it would happen.
What would you do if you saw your Mother who had abandoned you and shipped you off to an Academy? I know I probably acted a bit rudely towards my Mother but I've never hidden my feelings before and I wasn't going to do it just for her peace of mind.
We had screamed at each other, swore, and cursed what ever you wanted to call it at each other. She knew I hated what she had done to me. She had never even made contact with me in those eight years until she had showed up at the Academy and acted like I was just another Dhampir. It didn't surprise me when she didn't recognize me, I had expected it. After all she hadn't seen what I looked like since she had given birth to me.
Now, I understood why she had done it. In ways it was safer for me to be here at the Academy than to be with her. She would have to protect her charge over me. It wouldn't be that she didn't want to protect me; it was the law to protect Moroi no matter what the cost was.
We were born to protect them. Our lives didn't matter to them. Dhampir's were nothing compared to Moroi, especially the Royals. None of them cared. Well, except for Christian, he knew how life could be hard. He knew how I felt.
He had lived amongst people staring at him, waiting for him to turn Strigoi. He would never do that though; he was the only Moroi I knew that could actually put up a fight and maybe even kill them.
People didn't know that and he judged him because of what his parents had done all those years ago. He had only been a child; he wouldn't have known the difference between Moroi and Strigoi.
I hated people who judged other people. I never judged people, not even Royals. I'll admit that I thought Adrian had been like any other Royal but I didn't judge him on that. You get to know a person and see that they're nothing like who you thought they were.
I probably should've used someone different from Adrian since he had cheated on me, but he was the only other royal, apart from Christian and Lissa, that I had ever bother to talk to.
Christian was the only royal I knew who actually cared about a persons feeling's. Adrian and Lissa obviously didn't considering that they had sex while Adrian was with me and Lissa was with Christian.
I had just noticed that Christian had been as quiet as me while we had walked to my bedroom.
"What are you thinking about?" We were almost at my door so we must have been quiet for a long time.
"You really want to know?" I wanted to know what was troubling him so much. He looked deep in thought a minute ago, he was frowning.
"I really want to know, Christian." Emphasize on the really.
He looked like he didn't want to say anything about what he was thinking about. He looked down, nervous about what he was going to say to me.
"Spit it out Christian." I said forcing a laugh out to make him feel more comfortable.
"You know what Adrian said the other day about me loving you?" Oh, shit. This can't be happening. Why me? Why do I have to love him, and he doesn't love me back. I hate whoever controls the Universe; they're making my life hell.
"Yeah, but I know he was just talking shit." I acted casual hoping he couldn't see through the lie. No one besides Lissa knew when I lied because I would fidget with my hands or I would blink a few times. This time I did neither, maybe because it wasn't a lie.
"You're wrong." He told me while cupping my chin. "I love you Rose and I know it's a little soon and I'll be your friend no matter what direction you choose to take." He kissed my forehead and walked away.
He just walked away like it was nothing. Fucking stupid guys. This is why I've always hated talking to the goddamn Royals; they always walk away from you.
I was so fucking tired at the moment I didn't give a shit what had just happened.
I collapsed on my bed and fell asleep straight away. Just like earlier I was being pulled into Adrian's dream. He'll probably tell me what he was about to earlier.
"Rose, why did you wake yourself up earlier?" He was pissed. He was fuming, really. It was weird seeing him this angry, he was always so laid back and didn't give a shit what people say about him. It must have been really important to him if he was this mad about it.
"Umm, I don't know." That has to be the smartest thing I've ever said. Note the sarcasm; I just hadn't known what to say. 'Oh, I just didn't want to hear what you were going to say.' Wouldn't exactly let me off the hook if you know what I mean.
"You don't know? You purposely woke yourself up so you didn't have to listen to what I was going to say! Can you just listen to me for a minute!?"
I immediately said yes so he wouldn't get madder. His face was nearly red from the anger he was holding in. I didn't know he could hold much more anger in but I was wrong obviously.
"Rose, I'm so, so, so sorry for what I did, but I love you. You know I love you so can't you just take me back? Christian will go back to Lissa. Just forget anything happened." What the fuck? Was he on crack or something? He fucking cheated on me, you can't just forget about something like that. He's a fucking idiot. I swear to god, I'll hit him one day.
"Neither me or Christian will go back to being anything with you and Lissa. Christian's forgiven Lissa and so have I but that doesn't mean we're friends again."
How the fuck can he act like that. If he was drunk he wouldn't be able to pull me into his dreams.
"Rose, I just miss you so much. I miss you being in my arms. I hate that you don't like me. I want to be friends again." He walked over to me and pulled a strand out of my hair.
"You have to talk to Christian about forgiveness before I can even consider being friends with you." I wanted Christian to forgive Adrian to so there would never be any hostileness between the two of them. They have hated each other from day one but it has multiplied after what happened between Adrian and Lissa.
"Why do you care so much about him? Why does it matter if he forgives me or not? What does it matter to you if he forgives me?" I had no idea why he was so upset about me mentioning Christian.
"Why the fuck are you so pissed about me saying I want Christian to forgive you?"
"Because he fucking loves you! You're only supposed to be friends with him! You're not—
"It has absolutely nothing to do with you! You fucking cheated on mw with my best-fucking-friend! We're not together anymore; we never will be together again!"
I woke myself up, sick of fighting with Adrian.
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