Rose POV

"You have to be kidding me." He was so unbelievable.

"What do you mean Rose? Couples always sleep together." He said shrugging his shoulders.

"You're an idiot if you think we're still together. You slept with my best friend and then you denied it! I'm not stupid and I'm not an idiot!" I probably shouldn't have started yelling since people out in the corridors would hear me but Adrian was being an idiot.

"I know you're not stupid Rose," he said as he began walking towards me, "but we need to talk about this. We need to talk about us." Now he was standing right in front of me and our bodies were just touching.

"Okay, fine. We'll talk about us." I sat on the bed that was in the middle of the room. I have to admit it was pretty big and the colour was perfect. If Adrian wasn't sleeping here tonight maybe I would've had a nice night of sleep.

Adrian nodded and made his way over to where I was sitting. We were turned, facing each other.

"Why did you do it? I mean our relationship was going fine, we were fine and then you just- why did you do it?" I never really thought much about why he had done I just knew that he had done it. The whys just didn't seem that much important to me, just knowing that he had done it with my best friend was more than enough that I had to know at the time?

But, as I sat here in this room looking at the man that has hurt me so much over the past few days, I couldn't figure out why he would do such a horrible thing to me. There was absolutely no reason that I could find as to why he would've done this to me. He hurt me in the one of the worse ways that you could ever hurt a person and honestly, I probably won't ever forgive him.

"I really don't know Rose, I wasn't thinking. It was the biggest mistake of my life." he actually seemed sincere, I mean if I hadn't walked in on them doing it again, I might of felt sorry for him.

"It wasn't only once though, was it?" I might have asked the question but I was a little hesitant on him actually answering it. I didn't really want to know how many times he had cheated on me; it might help him to get it off of his chest though.

"Twice. I swear on my life it was only twice. Christian found out the first time it happened." Not so sure I believe his story. Christian had said that it had been a lot of times, every time Lissa had called him paranoid; it was just to get him off of her back. Christian had also told me that Lissa had been in love with Adrian.

I shook my head, trying to make sense of things. I didn't know who to believe. Adrian might be telling the truth about what had happened but then again Christian was the one that had been hurt so why would he lie?

"Adrian, Christian told me that she loved you. How can I believe you when Lissa loved you? For all I know, you probably love her too." This is what I would've expected if I hadn't known him better, so I had no idea why I had even said it aloud when I knew it wasn't true at all.

"I don't love her Rose. I love you, you know that. Look, why can't we just forget this? I know you hate me right now, but that'll change over time, you'll start liking me again the same way I like you so why can't we just speed up the process?" Speed up the process? Is he serious?

"You can't force things to happen, Adrian, they just happen." Which was exactly what happened with me and Christian, none of us would've though in a million years that we would've actually gotten along nicely, let alone have feelings for each other, but it happened anyway.

"I know Rose, but I just miss you so much. It hurts everyday when I wake up and I realize what I've done to you." I shouldn't have looked up into his eyes. They were pleading with me to forgive him, to say its okay and that I know he didn't mean to do it. They were also on the verge of crying, which made it harder for me not to cave in, I tried my hardest to stay strong and not say comforting words to him, he needed to know just how much it really hurt.

"Adrian, what you did, you don't know how much it hurt me because you weren't there, Christian was there for me." I knew I shouldn't have brought up Christian because Adrian might figure out what was going on between the two of us.

"Christians not good enough for you. I know how you two feel about each other but its nothing compared to the love I feel for you. You might think you love him but you don't, not really." I sat there, staring at Adrian. Had he really just told me that I don't understand my own feelings? I shook my head in disbelief. He had no idea what he was talking about.

"I know exactly how I feel. Don't think for one second that you know how I feel because you don't. Christians a lot better than you; he doesn't sleep with his partner's best friend, he's nice and he actually cares. You are the only reason why me and Lissa aren't friends anymore. You are the only reason why you and I aren't together anymore. All you do is hurt the people you care about so don't even try to call someone worse than you because you're one of the worse people in the world, you're only second to Strigoi." Harsh, Rose. He deserved it, but I still felt bad for what I had just said.

"Rose, I know how much I've hurt you, but I promise you it'll never happen again. I had to beg my Aunt to invite Tasha here. I need you to understand how truly sorry I am." He pleaded once again, showing me how hurt he was over the stupid mistake he had made. Usually I don't show much sympathy towards people but I used to be with him and that made it pretty hard not to feel sorry for him.

I used a much softer voice with him this time. "Adrian, you have to know that I can't just forgive you, but I will if you five me a bit of time, okay? Don't worry; everything will work out, one way or another." Okay, I didn't really believe that everything would magically sort itself out between me and him, but I couldn't handle a depressed Adrian, at least not when I know its my fault he's so sad.

"Do you want go see Lissa? She's been bragging me about it ever since she found out you were coming here." My breath caught up in my throat. She practically threw herself at me this morning, trying to hug me. I didn't really want to go and talk to Lissa right now; I knew she would be harder to deal with than Adrian. She would be harder because I know how breakable she is when it comes to losing people.

I shook my head. "No, I don't want to see Lissa; she's with Christian as well so…" I let my sentence drop off, I didn't want to see Adrian's reaction if I had finished it. I could tell Adrian hated the fact that I had any feelings whatsoever for Christian.

"I thought you would've wanted to see Christian. O well, do you want a tour of the Court?" I nodded. I might as well get to know this place; last time I came here I hadn't been able to see everything that I wanted to. I knew the Court was massive and that was part of the reason why I wanted to figure out where everything was, so I didn't get lost.

"Okay, come with me then." We both stood up and exited the massive room. Adrian took my hand and he steered our way through people to get to the front doors that I had come through today. "This is the front doors of the Court where everyone meets the Queen." He pulled me to the left and we were in a lounge room. "This is where most of the children that come to Court hang out." We walked into a dining room that had gold painted walls and looked very formal. "This is where the Queen spends most of her time eating." He started pulling us into another room when I stopped him.

"Adrian, I'm really sorry. I know how much you're hurting right now and I hate knowing that it's all because of me, I wish—"

"It's not because of you Rose. This is all my fault, I know that, I'm not stupid. I was the one that fucked up our relationship, I know that. I still love you Rose and if you ever need to talk, I'll be here no matter what happens between us. I love you too much to ever hurt you again." A single tear that had been forming in my eye escaped, rolling down my cheek. Adrian, with his other hand that wasn't holding one of my own, wiped it away and kissed my cheek. The touch of him on my cheek only caused more tears to come. He pulled me into a hug and refused to let go.

"Adrian." I said in a pain filled voice that barely sounded like me. We were too close for my liking but it felt so nice to be in his embrace again, I couldn't step back. His warm hands were rubbing my back up and down and he was saying sweet words that were being whispered into my hair.

A voice I hadn't expected came from behind Adrian. "What did you do Adrian?" it was filled with so much anger and ferocity that I had never heard him use before. I turned my face towards the voice to find a very pissed off Christian standing there with a very annoyed Lissa.

"I didn't do anything to her. I'm just trying to help her." This got Christian even angrier as he made his way over to where me and Adrian were standing, still holding onto each other.

"You're not helping her, your just making it worse. She never wanted to come here because she knew you'd be here. She doesn't care about you!" Christian yelled at Adrian. I might have been the truth but that didn't mean that I wanted Adrian to know it, it would hurt him even more than he already was.

Adrian looked miserable. He knew it was true; he wasn't going to fight anyone on that. I wish Christian hadn't of said it aloud though, come to think of it I have no idea why he blew up anyway?

"Christian, what the hell is wrong with you? He was just trying to calm me down because I had a breakdown, that's all." He turned his face to me. It was the first time Christian had looked at me throughout this whole argument.

"He was trying to calm you down? Are you stupid? He's Adrian Ivashkov, the only thing he's ever done for you is use you!" which is why I cried harder than I ever have in my entire life. I hated the fact that it could be true. Moroi used Dhampir's for their own personal gain everyday, why was I so surprised that Adrian might be the same? Probably because I've deluded myself into thinking that he wasn't like all the other Royals, I thought he actually cared for me somewhat.

"You think she's stupid? When you see someone crying you don't make them cry harder you…." The sound of my cries drained out the voices around me. I was still half aware that Adrian was still hugging me and I could feel his lungs breathing in and out.

I felt Adrian pick me up in his arms and carry me to our room where I fell asleep next to him, wishing all the pain could just go away.

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I woke up in Adrian's room and noticed that no-one else was in the room so I got dressed and walked out of the door. Lissa and Christian were walking past the door and I could tell they were getting along together. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, if Lissa wants something she'll get it no matter what.

Lissa was clinging onto Christians arm and Christian was looking down at Lissa with a smile on his face. I walked down the opposite direction they had taken and noticed Adrian sitting alone on a couch.

I sat down next to him and took his hand in mine. He looked over to me and smiled faintly. "Are you okay Rose?" no, I'm not.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said as I nodded my head. He could tell I was lying but he didn't push for the truth. Instead he looked over to where the Queen was talking to Tasha.

"He loves you, Rose." Adrian said which caught me off guard.

"What are you taking about?" I wondered if it was Adrian's time of the month to go crazy, the boy never made any sense.

"Christian, Rose. He loves you."

I shook my head. "I saw him with Lissa this morning. They're probably back together or something like that." I shrugged my shoulders hoping that Adrian would change the subject. All last night Adrian had been bugging me to talk about it, talk about what Christian had said and how it wasn't true, I on the other hand had no intentions of talking about it with anyone.

"They aren't Rose. You know Lissa wouldn't do that to you. She knows how you fell about him." There was no way she could've. We hadn't even talked back at the Academy; we haven't even talked here so how could she know about me and Christian. "I told her Rose. I saw how you two felt about each other, no matter how much I hate that you like him I can't deny that it's the truth." Oh, that made sense I guess. Wait, Lissa knew and she wasn't upset about it. No, that doesn't sound right she's way too fragile to take this so easily.

"How do you know she's okay about this?" I was doubtful she would take it this easily since they were in such a serious relationship before she fucked the whole thing up.

"I can see auras remember," he said tapping the outside of his head, "I could tell that she was okay about it. It doesn't make much sense to me since she was pretty deep about him and such but I guess she knows that they weren't the best couple in the world…" Adrian kept on rambling on while I tried to make some sense of things.

When Christian and Lissa had been together, from the outside you would've seen them as the perfect couple, they had matched each other perfectly. Both of them seemed to complete each other. "But they seemed so perfect for each other." I muttered out loud, forgetting that Adrian was there.

He stopped in the middle of his sentence and took what I said as a question. "Rose everyday their relationship was getting worse. They were having fights everyday and she had to try her hardest to block you out so that you wouldn't find out. Don't ask me why she wanted to block you out, maybe so that you wouldn't take away the darkness in her when she had a fight with him." Adrian looked over at me and smiled kindly. "You're the one that's perfect for him Rose, not Lissa. She never made him as happy as he is when he looks at you. Believe me, he really does love you."

The talk I had with Adrian definitely made me see the truth. The only question that was left that confused me was why they were walking together this morning.

I made my way back to Adrian's room when I saw Christian and Lissa making their way over towards me. This time they both looked miserable, like one of their best friends had just died or something. They were no longer holding hands; they were walking side by side. They wouldn't even look at each other.

"Hey guys, what's wrong?" they jumped when they heard me speak. They looked at each other for a while.

Christian was the first one to speak. "Rose, I'm really sorry about last night. I didn't mean to say those things. You're not stupid, we all know that. I'm really, really sorry." He seemed pretty sincere for a guy who never says sorry to anyone.

"It's fine." Honestly, I just didn't want to talk about it. Everyone knew how much I had cried last night and I didn't want any reminders on how weak I was. Usually I would try and distract myself so that I wouldn't cry, I hate feeling weak and hate it even more when I show how weak I can be in front of someone else.

"No, its not. I just couldn't believe that you and Adrian were hugging and I just- I got- I'm sorry." I know what it would've looked like on the outside but he should've known better. He knows how much I hated having to come back here and I had no idea I had to share a bed with Adrian.

"Its okay." I shrugged, once again. Lissa looked pretty upset about it as well. I slipped into her head to make sense of her feelings.

She felt sad about me crying. She knows how much I hate it. She was angry at the Queen for the bedroom arrangements; she didn't want to be near Christian. She wanted to share a room with me so we would be forced to talk. She wanted so badly to just be forgiven.

"Liss, its okay. I forgive you. I know how bad you feel about what happened the other week. I admit I was pretty upset that you would do that to me and Christian but I get it. Adrian told me what was going on between you and Christian at the time." It felt good to forgive her. She was happy about it too, more like relieved but she knew we weren't friends at least not yet.

"Thanks Rose. I have to go talk to the Queen but can we talk soon?"

"Yeah, sure." I'm not too sure what she wants to talk about but whatever it is I hope it can wait until tomorrow.

So, here I was, stuck in the corridor with Christian. The moment Lissa had left the mood immediately changed to awkwardness. Memories of him and Lissa this morning came to mind and I wondered what they had been up to.

"Rose—"

"What were you doing this morning?" I cut him off. What he was about to say really didn't matter right now. I doubt that he had even seen me this morning. I saw the confusion on his face. "This morning when you two were walking down this hall and you were talking." He smiled.

"We were talking about you Rose. She was telling me about a time when you two were outside of the Academy." His smile faltered. "What did you think we were doing?" I could hear a little bit of anger in that sentence that I didn't want to be there.

"I just- I thought that- you know- you guys were always so perfect for each other- I just." I stopped to take a deep breath.

"Rose, I love you. You know I don't like Lissa anymore. She likes someone else as well. We can barely stand being in the same room as each other, Rose." He shook his head and walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me. Being in his embrace felt so nice I could've stood her for the rest of my life.

"I love you Christian." I said as I looked up at his pale blue eyes.

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