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I am sorry that it's been a while since I updated. I hope some of you will still read this story and tell me your thoughts. I am a little nervous though because lately I feel a little unsure with this story. Thanks to dianehermans and forever-alwaysB-Davis, who told me again that I should update it! I hope you enjoy the chapter now!

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Brooke, Rachel, Peyton and Haley were lying in their beds in the same room. Everyone looked like war victims and were drugged, so that they would not feel too much pain. Haley looked down at her broken arm and had to look at Brooke again. She looked so lost and in contrary to the others Brooke did not say a word but just stared out of the window. Her tigger was gone and she knew that it would take a lot of time to get her back.

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Peyton touched her forehead and felt the big bump on it. Her whole body was covered in bruises and she did not know how to cope with the situation. She knew that all of them were suffering but she also knew that only one of them was a rape victim. She looked over at Brooke and wanted to take her hand into hers but Brooke took hers away. Peyton knew that Brooke was shutting all of them out. It broke her heart but she did not know what to do at all.

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Rachel saw how Brooke took her hand out of Peyton's and looked sadly into Peyton's eyes. They did not say anything but both of them felt and thought the same. She touched her mouth and could not believe that the men had hit her that hard that a tooth was missing now. She wished that this would just be a nightmare. "Wake up Rachel. Wake up.", she thought but unfortunately she knew that this was their reality.

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Brooke stared out of the window and felt like she was not inside of her own body. She did not feel any pain or fear. It was like she was not there at all. She stayed like this for hours until a nurse came into the room and checked on them. Suddenly her whole body began to shiver again and she held her stomach in pain. The nurse immediately went over to her and gave her a basket. She puked for the next minutes although nothing was left in her stomach. Her whole body began to tremble forcefully and she moaned in pain.

"It's okay Miss Davis. Those cramps are normal because of the drugs in your system. It will go away."

"It hurts. Make it stop.", Brooke started to scream in pain and tossed around.

The nurse injected something into her system and soon she fell asleep. So this would be how the next days would look like. A living nightmare.

The doctors had explained them all that these men used a new synthetic drug on Brooke and that her body still wanted more shots and would be in a lot of pain.

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Haley, Peyton and Rachel looked at the sleeping Brooke and felt so much pity that they did not know what to do. It was just so unfair. Of course all of them were suffering and afraid that these men would come back but Brooke's pain could not be compared to the other one's pain. No one knew what to say and soon they fell asleep as well.

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The next day the girls could leave the hospital and they were more than happy to hear that. The only one that did not say a word was Brooke. All she did was looking out of the window and not paying any attention to her surroundings.

Lucas came into the room and wanted to name her his "pretty girl" but he remembered that she did not want to be called this name any more. Although she was badly bruised, she was still his pretty girl and it broke his heart to see her suffering that much. He did not really know what to do. He knew that those strangers had raped her and it made him want to vomit and kill them, but he could not show those emotions in front of her. He needed to be there for her and to suppress his own fear, anger, sadness and feeling of helplessness.

"Hey.", he sat down besides her and hoped that she would turn around but she did not react at all. "The others are waiting for us.", he took her hand into his but Brooke took it back immediately. She did not want to hurt him-not at all but she felt disgusted and alone. Suddenly she held her stomach in pain and moaned. She did not say anything but Lucas knew what was about to come. He got the basket and held it in front of her and within seconds Brooke puked into it.

"It's okay. It's okay.", he stroke her back and tried to calm her down a little while her tears streamed down her cheek. Finally Brooke lay back again with sweat on her face and empty eyes. "I love you Brooke.", Lucas stroke her cheek but this time Brooke did not turn away but she started to cry. He wanted to hug her but Brooke jumped out of the bed and started to scream while the tears streamed down her face.

"I am not lovable. Don't say that. Don't say that to me. I am dirty, I need to get that dirt off of me.", she screamed and scraped her own skin a little and then she started to destroy everything that was around her.

"Brooke. Please stop.", Lucas walked over to her and could see all the bruises on her beautiful legs. His girlfriend was more than broken and he wished that he could turn back time. To protect her from everything.

Brooke did not stop until some nurses came into the room and injected something into her system.

"Nooooooooo.", she screamed when they held her tight but the medicine started to work. Her world got dizzy and soon her wet eyes were closed and she lay on the ground and in the arms of a nurse. They put her back to bed and looked with so much pity at her. This beautiful girl had to go through the worst and it was still not over and it would be a long rode until this girl could smile again. Lucas decided to call Brooke's parents again. He was asked whether Brooke had someone to look after her and when he said that he would do it, they suggested that a grown-up person would be better.

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"Hello Mrs. Davis. This is Lucas, Brooke's boyfriend.", he had only met this woman one time and she was exactly like Brooke had described: cold. All she cared about was making money and looking good. Sometimes Lucas wondered how Brooke could turn into such an amazing person without any idols. Lucas tried to stay strong but he started to cry into the phone.

"Did something happen to Brooke?", he could hear that her voice cracked a little and that maybe she showed some empathy for the first time.

"Yes. She is in the hospital and…and…the girls were kidnapped by strangers and…she was raped Mrs. Davis. Brooke was raped by them and…", Lucas was shocked what Mrs. Davis answered him coldly.

"Did she take the morning after pill?"

"What?"

"I asked whether she took…"

"I understood it but I can't believe that you ask me that question. Your daughter, your only and beautiful daughter is lying here in the hospital and is emotionally and physically in a very bad state. I assumed that you would feel a little empathy with her but I guess I was wrong."

"In which hospital?", Victoria asked a little unsure. It was not like she wanted to be so cold towards Brooke. To be true, Brooke was the only person that made her feel vulnerable at times. The only person that she loved so much that she had to separate herself from her because those feelings were strange to her. She had always made sure that Brooke got the best nanny, the best trainer and so on but she did not know how to be a real mother.

"She can't be alone now.", Victoria said, "I will get her the best caretaker and therapist."

"I am sorry but I cannot talk to you any more. My girlfriend is lying here in the Tree Hill hospital in a very bad shape and you…you do not even think about coming and…whatever. Have a good life.", Lucas turned his phone off and needed to sit down again. It was probably the most intense talk he ever had to someone. "Fuck.", he punched the wall and did not care that he hurt his fist a little.

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Nathan and Haley were sitting on the couch in their apartment and Haley could not stop crying while she lay in his arms. He held her tight to his chest and had tears in his eyes as well. It was just too much. She was crying because she was in pain, emotionally and physically. And she was crying because she knew what had happened to her tigger and she could hear her screaming all the time while those bastards thrust into her. And she was afraid that they would come back. "I don't know what to do Nathan. I don't know it.", Haley whispered and Nathan nodded sadly.

"It'll get better and we figure it out. We figure it out.", he whispered but hoped that this was not a lie. To be true, he was scared himself. He felt helpless and he definitely hated this feeling. Right now he wished to have a gun and find those strangers and kill them in one second. He would not hesitate, he would just do it. Revenge was on his mind and although he knew that this would not really help the girls, he could not push those thoughts away.

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"Are you there Peyton?", Jake was holding Peyton in his arms while they sat on her bed. Peyton stared into nothing and wished to wake up from the nightmare. "Peyton. You are scaring me.", Jake kissed her head softly and was glad that she looked up.

"I am sorry.", she kissed his mouth and cuddled closer, "Why do those things happen Jake. Why? It's not fair. I hate the world.", she tried to suppress the tears but nevertheless they came out of it.

"I know. It's not fair and it will never be but I'll be there for you and…"

"I know. And I am so grateful for that. For having you but…I know I'll get better. Those are only bruises.", she pointed at every bruise "but…Jake. I was not the one that was raped. Rape Jake. My best friend was raped and…and I know her. She'll shut us out. Everyone. When I see her, I hear her screaming in pain. I…", it was enough for Peyton and she cried into his arms but then she jumped up. "Fuck. Crying won't help anyone.", she sat down on her chair and started to draw. She needed it, it was her outlet. Sometimes she just started drawing without really know what she would draw. This time it was Brooke. She drew a Brooke that was hugging herself and hid her head between her knees and cried in a corner while the people she loved tried to talk to her. But the Brooke on the picture closed her ears with her hands.

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Rachel and Felix were sitting in the living room. Nobody knew what to say. They were not a pair that long and it was a hard task for their relationship. "You can go home.", Rachel stood up and looked down at him.

"What?", he asked shocked and looked into a soft smile. "But…"

"It's okay. I would like to be alone. I call you tomorrow.", Rachel said honestly and could see the confusion in his face. It hurt her but she needed to be alone right now.

"Rachel, I…"

"Felix. Please.", she pleaded and he nodded after a minute and hugged her, "Call me if you need me. I am there for you."

"Thank you.", she looked after him when he left her house. She did not really know what to do. She just sat down on the couch and tried to suppress the images from their kidnapping. She tried to suppress Brooke's screaming and how they assumed that she would use drugs. She tried to suppress it all but it did not work. She knew that the old Brooke was gone. She remembered how she felt when she had almost been raped. That was an experience she would never forget. Even she had felt dirty and worthless although the man had not succeeded. But Brooke had been gang-raped. An image she tried to suppress. Rachel lay down on the couch and hugged her pillow tight. She did not want to cry right now. She knew that this would not help anyone. Not her, not the others and especially not Brooke.

She walked to her closet and saw the white powder. She knew that this would only help for a while but it would not solve any problem at all. She took it into her hand and hesitated.

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Brooke had to stay in the hospital for another night. She was emotionally not stable and they did not want to let her out until a grown-up person would take care of her. Of course she had to see a therapist but Brooke did not say a word during the session. She just stared into space.

Karen had agreed to take care of Brooke and already changed one room for her. Of course she did not know how to handle her either but she knew that she wanted to help her son's girlfriend every second.

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Brooke woke up in the morning and was glad that she was alone. She still felt dizzy from the medication they gave her to sleep and tried to take a sitting position. Her whole body was aching like hell and she winced a little. She did not know whether she was happy to feel this pain or not. The pain showed her that she was not dead but alive. Inside she felt more dead than alive but to be true she did not really know which option she preferred. She turned around when she saw someone gasping and looking at her. Her eyes widened in shock and she did not know what to say. In front of her was standing someone she had not seen for a long time. Her feelings towards her were mixed. Somewhere between love and hatred.

But suddenly she could not hold back her tears and when Victoria came closer towards her and Brooke saw tears in her mother's eyes, she broke down as well. "Mommy.", she whispered and cried in her mother's arms. She had never seen her mother crying. Never. And she could not remember one moment where her mother had actually held her when she'd been crying.

Victoria Davis was shocked to see her little daughter so bruised. She had imagined the worst but this definitely was worse than she thought. She had never shown any tears to anyone but seeing her girl suffering that much, broke her heart. She did not even know that she still was capable of crying. She had always suppressed any tears that wanted to come out. She felt how Brooke held her tight and it almost hurt a little. Without thinking she went into bed with her daughter and behind her. She held her close and maybe this was the first time that she really felt like a mother.

"Mommy…", Brooke cried over and over again, as if she was afraid to loose her.

Victoria did not really know what to say. It was like being thrown into real motherhood without any preparation. She realized that she did not know much of her daughter. But it broke her heart to see the young girl, her own blood, that hurt and she promised herself that she would try her best. She did not know whether this was enough. She rocked Brooke back and forth and kissed her head.

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A little later Victoria Davis talked to the doctors and therapist while Brooke was sleeping again. These talks emphasized again in what an emotionally state her daughter was in and that she could not leave her alone. She tried to call her husband but he did not pick up his phone. Nothing new. She wanted to enter the room again but Lucas stood in front of her and blocked the way.

"What are you doing here?", he asked shocked and with so much hatred in his voice. Victoria took a deep breath and then snapped back.

"You called me if you don't remember. Now let me get through the door to my daughter that I will take home now."

"No you won't. You did not care for her her whole life and you'll hurt her even more. I don't know why I called you. It was wrong and you'll hurt her more pretending you care now and then leaving her alone again."

"I won't leave her alone and actually it's none of your business Mr. Scott."

"Of course it is. She's my girlfriend and I love her and want what's best for her. A mother should usually want that too but…"

"I don't have that talk with you right now.", she pointed at him and then they heard Brooke screaming after her. "She needs me.", Victoria opened the door and went inside to her daughter. Lucas stayed outside for some minutes to calm down. He did not want to show his fury to Brooke. He opened the door and found Brooke in her mother's arms. He did not know whether he thought that this was a good or bad thing. It really depended on Victoria; how she would react in the next days.

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Meanwhile three of the strangers could not believe that the girls had managed to escape and that one of them was lying in the hospital. No one had ever escaped them and they wanted it to stay this way.

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