You know that lazy author that calls herself Tsubame-go? guess what! she finally updated second chance! amazing, right?
I sincerly apologize for how long it takes me to update. I do not own Gakuen Alice.
Sometimes I see fragments of the girl I knew all those years ago peak through you. But are you still that girl I loved so much? Are you still the girl I love?
"First things first," Ruka began, "You can't stay at my place; it's far too small for two people. I can't let you stay be yourself, judging by how you've been acting; so I've found an old friend you can stay with." Ruka smiled, waiting for her reaction.
"Do I… Know this friend?" Mikan replied weakly, she was still getting used to talking on a regular basis again.
"Sakura, before I went to the academy I didn't have many friends. By 'old friend' I mean someone we knew at the academy, actually they're some of the only people I've been keeping in touch with. I hope you don't mind living with newlyweds." Ruka laughed as he told her the last part. Mikan's confused expression was pricelessly adorable.
"Umm… I guess I don't mind…?" Ruka let Mikan's unspoken question linger tensely in the air for a minute.
"Don't worry, they have a guest room," Ruka paused, and then continued with a nod from Mikan. "Okay, then I'll call 'em now." He smiled, happy to let the mystery remain. He extracted his cell phone from his pocket and selected a number.
"Hello?" Ruka smiled at the man's voice from the other side of the line.
"Ah, hello, it's me Ruka again. Mikan said she's good with staying at your place." Ruka informed him, picturing the smile that would be creeping into the dark haired man's face.
"That's great! I'll go tell Misaki! When can you bring her by?"
"Probably in a few hours, I still haven't told her who the 'old friends' she'll be staying with are," Ruka told him with a chuckle.
"Ah, Ruka… You're truly an evil ma-aster mi-ind! Catch you later!" Ruka smiled at the last joke and suppressed a laugh. Mikan's eyes stared up at him, mesmerized in confusion.
"I take it I don't find out who it is I'm staying with until you drop me off in a few hours?" She asked in joking exasperation. Ruka smiled and nodded through shut eyes, glad to see her so lively.
"Don't worry, I'm positive you'll be thrilled when you them," Ruka told her, placing his hand on her head. "Wait here Sakura; I'm going to collect your possessions from the clinic, then I'll take you to their place."
~Mikan's POV
Can I return to that life I lived once upon a time? Am I to changed to return? Do I even know how to return? I want the certainty I once knew, but do I have the ability to turn back time?
Mikan sighed as she heard the sound of Ruka's footsteps fade away down the hall. To be honest she was a little bit concerned with who Ruka was dropping her off with, so much time had passed, Mikan coulnd't be confident that she could even recognize an old classmate if she met them. Mentally, Mikan ran through all the possibilities; but unfortunately she couldn't even be sure who they were, she was even having trouble recalling names! Of course there were the one she'd never be able to forget: Permy, Kokoroyomi, Hotaru, Tsubasa-senpai, Tobita-kun, Nobara…
To her own surprise, Mikan actually began to cry in frustration; she hated herself! She wanted to remember everything and everyone, but try as she might; her memory was blanking out on her. How could this be? She wanted to scream and yell until she couldn't speak a word, and yet she also felt the urge to go back into melancholy and despair.
"I want…?" Mikan whispered, faltering, frustrated at her inability to express herself through spoken words, even just to her own self. "To go back… to a time when I was happy." Hot tears were streaming down her cheeks as she tried to recall little bits of happiness, Natsume's smile, Natsume's joy when he learned Mikan was going to have his baby, Natsume, Natsume, Natsume… "Why… why… why! Why does the one I loved have to be gone?" Mikan asked no one in particular in her head for the thousandth time since his death. When Natsume was with her she could do anything; without him Mikan was hopelessly lost.
"Sakura, are you ready to leave?" Ruka's voice called back to reality. She had to try to find a way to be happy, for Ruka's sake as well as her own she realized.
"Yes Ruka-pyon, I'm ready." Mikan told him, speaking to convince herself as well. She could do this, she had to do this. But would she really be able to face someone from her old life?
That's all! hope you liked it! I'll try for a longer chapter next time... I hope. Am I lazy or do I just have too much home work? you decide. Remember to review!