Sorry this chapter is so short. I'm really busy lately and wanted to post this. Oh, and I'm sure I have my fair share of spelling mistakes in here, but try to bare with me. I don't know how to turn my spell check on. lol Anyway thank you for the great reviews, and TurboWiz70, you always make my day. :) Thank you for the great review.
Eli's POV
~Six o'clock that night~
I parked Morty outside of Clare's house, and made my way to her front steps. My breathing was ragged, and my palms began to sweat uncrontrollably. I don't think I've ever been so nervous to see Clare in my life. But then again, I had never been in the position of having to have this sort of conversation with her.
As I made it to her door, I took a deep breath, and knocked. I stood there, rubbing my sweaty palms together, shuffling my feet back and forth, and looking in the opposite direction of her house. Anything to keep my mind preoccupied from what was about to come.
As she opened the door, I looked up and smiled brightly at her. She was only in her regular school clothes, but she looked beautiful. Especially with the light blue shirt she was wearing that made her beautiful blue orbs stick out like a sore thumb.
"Hi" I managed, still mesmerized.
"Hey Eli. Um, come in, we can go up to my room or something"
"Cool" I replied while walking past her and inside of her home. I had been here plenty of times before, so I quickly made my way up to her room and sat down on the edge of her small bed. I watched her slowly walk in behind me and do the same. Seeing that she also seemed a tad bit uncomfortable, made me ease up a little.
"So, uh, what did you want to talk about exactly?" She asked, looking down at her hands and no where near my face.
"Us" I breathed out. Her head shot up, and she looked straight into my eyes. But this time hers held no emotion. I had to admit it sort of frightened me. I mean, does this mean that I have no hope at all?
"Last time I checked, there was no us"
Well that hurt.
"Clare there was always an us, just not the us that you wanted there to be, and that's mainly because I never knew the way you felt"
"Well now you do. And I'm sorry that you found out, but I tried to do something about it when I switched schools"
"Why are you sorry that I found out?"
"Because it's not like this changes anything Eli. I never told you I liked you as more than a friend for a reason. And it's because I knew you didn't like me back. And if you came here today just to reject me and tell me all of the reasons that we can't be together, and how sorry you are for ever leading me on, then you should just leave now. I didn't tell you to begin with because I wanted to save this rejection. I recieved the first half the day I found out you were dating Sarah. I lost all hope that day. So I already know that you don't want to be with me. There. That's it. This conversation is over, I already said everything for you."
"Clare, would you just listen to me for a minute? First of all, I broke up with Sarah. Partly because she's a bitch, but mainly because I want to be with you. I only went out with her because I thought I had no hope of being with you. I was just as scared as you were. I didn't want to admit my feelings, for fear of being rejected. But I came here today to tell you how I feel, how I've always felt. You were always more than a best friend to me Clare. Well, atleast I wanted you to be. I tried to let those feelings go when I thought you would never like me in return. But I'm sitting here with you right now, putting my heart out on the line, knowing very well that you could reject me and never come back to Degrassi. But that's a chance I'm willing to take because...I love you Clare."
