Side Note: For those of you who don't know. In Season 2 of the show Stella had a boyfriend Frankie (he was a forensic artist in the lab) Early in their relationship he posted a video of them having sex online. After she found out Stella broke up with him. Later Frankie who was extremely deranged at this point held her hostage in her own apartment fearing for her life Stella in self defense shot and killed him.

Mac tried his hardest to tell Stella the entire story form start to finish it was much more difficult then he ever thought it would be.

He once again took another deep breath and said shamefully "After I drank that one cup of red wine I don't remember much else when I next woke up again I was.."

His voice trailed off into nothingness.

Mac didn't think he could tell Stella the main details of what had occurred next.

Stella once again that day reached across the table and took his hand in her own.

She squeezed it softly and replied gently "Mac I told you, you don't have to tell me this if you don't want too."

Mac took another deep breath.

He closed his eyes and remembered again back to his last session with Dr. Collins and what he had asked him specifically about this exact situation

I can start off slow right I don't have too tell her everything all at once?

No you go at your own pace. I'm certain Stella will understand.

Mac exhaled slowly and said "No Stella it's okay I want to tell you I just need to take it slow."

Stella nodded understandably and replied warmly "I get it Mac, I do when ever your ready to start again I'm here."

This time Mac reached across the table and squeezed Stella's hand for a second.

He then sighed and said "Well when I woke up my hands and feet were handcuffed to the top and bottom bed posts and I was well...not wearing anything."

Stella gasped slightly.

She reached for Mac's hand again and Mac let her take it eagerly wanting the support of her touch as he recounted the horrible events.

Mac then said slowly "The next thing I know I'm vomiting over the bed and calling Ella's name."

Mac took a breath and said uncomfortably "She came into the room wearing lingerie I could tell almost immediately that well.. that we did.. it because I could smell it, it was so... strong."

Tried as he might Mac shuddered at the memory.

Stella said nothing she just held onto his hand trusting him that he would continue with his story when he wanted too.

The support Stella was giving him made Mac want to break down into tears.

He took another long sip of his coffee and sighed.

He then said embarrassingly "She told me that she had drugged me which I had already figured out because of the vomiting and I had remembered nothing of the night before."

Mac then let out another breath and said somewhat fast "She well... she wanted to do what we had done the night before... I wasn't able to fight her off, I- I- didn't want too but I couldn't figure out a way to stop her it felt like... I was having sex with my daughter, she was so rough and... it hurt it was the most awful experience in my whole life."

Mac slowed and said despairingly "Stell, I have never felt so powerless, so.. helpless she would hit me if I didn't do what she wanted or how she wanted it I was able to seduce .. -"

He took another breath and replied hurridely "I vomited a lot in those two days because she hit me a lot I was finally able to seduce her and got her to get the cuffs off of me I put her in a choke hold put my pants back on and called you the next thing I remember was waking up in the hospital and seeing your face."

Ashamed in spite of himself Mac leaned back in his seat relinquishing Stella's hand in the process.

Stella too leaned back she took a deep breath and said in a somewhat low voice "Mac I'm so sorry that this happened to you I really am."

She reached for his hand again through Mac kept his hands off of the table.

Stella asked concerned "What is it?"

Mac replied irritated "You don't feel disgusted about what I just told you about what I did but what she.. she made me do!"

Stella held up her hand and said in a calming voice "Mac she had dominance over you. I don't feel disgusted I felt the same way when Frankie held me hostage you did what you had to do to survive."

Mac felt like throwing up by her words instead of being reassured by them.

He took two deep breaths and said somewhat assured "You really feel that way?"

Stella nodded with conviction and replied "Mac I know you went through hell with Ella but I'm here for you and I'm 100% sure that the rest of team will be here for you too."