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Ch. 6

A NEW ME

It was Monday morning and it was ten minutes till 7am, I had been up for over an hour already. Alice had made me an appointment with her stylist Garrett for 11am. From what I hear he works wonders. Which I know for a fact he would have to work some miracles on me and that was exactly what had me up early this morning. I was up all night thinking about what kind of changes they would need to do to my hair. Sure Alice had assured me that it wouldn't be any big changes, it would just be enough to make it camera friendly. What the hell did that mean? I like my hair the way it is I never had to do much to it, I guess that's why most girls from high school used to call me plain jane. It didn't bother me, I didn't care, I liked the way I looked and that's all that mattered.

I was meeting Alice at her boutique so that we can go together, she wanted to witness the transformation. I was early , so I had to wait outside for her. I was standing in front of the window staring at my reflection, I had mental pictures of what my hair could end up looking like. I shuddered at the thought, scary! Then I see a bright yellow porsche pull up, I turn and see the passenger window start to roll down. "Hey Bella! Sorry if I had you waiting long." It was Alice.

"Oh no, I just got here. Nice car by the way."

She smiled. "I know, right! It was a gift from my dear brother Eddie, well kind of. But that's a long story. So hop in, Garrett hates to be waiting." Okay….that was weird, but I guess coming from Alice what else would it be.

The drive to the salon didn't take long, it was located in a small high class plaza. I could almost swear that almost every car in the parking lot was a Mercedes Benz. We pulled up to the curb, they freaking have valet at the plaza. Who does that? Luckily the valet station was right in front of Garrett's salon.

Right when we stepped in Alice quickly greeted Garrett. "Hey sweetie how have you been?" Garrett was an average built with a tan that looked two shades too dark, very short gray platinum hair that anyone can spot from miles away. He definitely looks like the type that likes attention, they exchange a few hush words and then he turns to me. "Well you must be Bella, aren't you a doll. Come here sugar and give me a hug." Before I could decide what to do he moved towards me, he must of noticed my hesitation. "Oh come on I know you can hug harder than that. Oh dear!" He pulled back to look me in the face. Your not a homophobe are you?"

My eyes widened. Uh….what? I….I…." Oh my god he's gay!

"You know it's going to be very difficult to work on your hair if I cant touch you." He had the goofiest grin ever, I couldn't help but burst into a fit of laughter and he laughed right along with me. "Come have a seat and bear your soul to little old Garry." He guided me to an empty seat.

Garrett was a riot once he got talking there was no getting him to stop but I didn't mind. It kept the pressure off me making conversation and for that I was thankful. Alice was getting a facial so she left us alone for a while. "Okay doll let's get your hair loose, shall we?: he took my hair down from the ponytail I had been wearing. I was still a little nervous. "You have pretty hair Bella and it's going to make my job really easy." I smiled at him through the mirror.

When he was done he hollered for Alice, she came prancing around the corner. "Hey so how does my model loo….OH….MY….GOD! She looks fabulous you really out did yourself this time Garrett." the both of them were giddy with excitement, I was being spun around in the chair and I came face to face with the new me. Garrett had only made slight changes to my hair but boy did they make a difference, I think I know what Alice meant when she said picture friendly. Garrett had given me more layers and added some reddish highlights, he had blow dried and curled to get the full affect. I was truly starting to look like a real model now, I loved it!

I turned to look back at them, they were still staring at me. "I love it Garrett, thank you Alice!" I didn't know what else to say. We said our goodbyes and made plans to get together for some margaritas and I was all for it, I can just imagine the blast we'll have with Garrett.

Now in the car and on our way home I took it upon myself to thank Alice. "Thanks for this opportunity Alice, I'm really enjoying it all."

She smiled. "Don't mention it. Are you hungry?" I had only had coffee in the morning so my stomach was starting to growl, I nodded. "Good, I know the perfect place they make the best tuna cranberry salad."

We were sitting down now and waiting on our order, it was a really nice place. It feels like we are sitting in the middle of a garden. Alice decided to get something from the bakery next door and asked me to answer her phone incase her husband called. A minute after she leaves her phone rings, that was fast. I grab her cell phone, not hesitation to answer it. I didn't even think to check the caller id. "Hello, Alice's phone."

"Rose what time are you and Alice to meet us?"

I've hear that velvety voice before, it was Edward. Shit! What do I say? "Uh…..umm…" I was stuck.

"Wait….who is this?"

I panicked and pressed the end button, what am I going to say to Alice? What if he calls back? Alice was back and was looking right at me, like if she knew. "Bella do you feel okay? You look a little flush."

"Yes!" Shit control yourself Bella. "I'm fine, look you had a call but before I could ask who it was the call dropped. Sorry!" it was the best I could do, I really hated lying to Alice.

"Don't worry about it, it it was important they will call back." Our food arrived, it was definitely the best tuna salad I had tasted by far, who would have thought cranberries in tuna would taste good. After lunch Alice took me home on our way she mentioned meeting up with her husband and brothers. I hope my little lie doesn't come up later.

The photo shoot was finally here! I was actually excited, I have been working hard for this day and hoped it pays off. I would be lying if I said I wasn't having a mental breakdown. I would hate to fail Alice and the rest of the girls because they had worked just as hard as I did.

I was told to make sure I was on time, not to worry about clothes, makeup or hair everything will be taken care of. Which was perfect I was barely able to shower and slip into my Victoria Secret velour suit. As I was walking into the living room I spotted jess on the couch. "Good luck Bella! I know you are going to rock!" she gave me a big hug.

"Thanks Jess, keep your fingers crossed."

"You know I will, now hurry before your late." I was out the door, in the taxi and on my way.

I was sitting in the makeup chair trying to zone myself out but it just wasn't working, I was starting to really get nervous, Garrett appeared out of nowhere. "Come sweetie they are about to start, let me take a look at you." I stood up and he looked at me from head to toe. "Dashing! Now don't you worry about a thing, this is you now." He gave me a quick hug, and sent me on my way.

Gianna was the first to start shooting, of course they would take the professional first and leave the inexperienced for last. Alice wanted me to watch Gianna work, her session was done so fast I hardly had time to focus. Sam the head photographer was complementing her expertise, wait till I'm up I have no skills whatsoever. Victoria was up next, she was very comfortable with her sexuality so she did just as well as Gianna. Her photo shoot took a little more time but I was able to see how more bold her shots were. Heidi was next then Kate, they both took an even longer time for the photo shoot. They weren't as comfortable as Gianna and Victoria were but I know they weren't as nervous as I was and they did great. I wonder how long into my session we'll be before the photographer storms out in frustration.

Alice was by my side the whole time as we watched the other girls in there solo shoots, reassuring me that I'll do great. With her being here majority of my anxiety evaporated; but there was still the awkwardness of being in front of a strangers taking pictures of me.

As Sam was talking to his crew about the lighting, background for my photo shoot I turned to Alice, "I don't think I can do this, this isn't me I'm not a model I'm no…" Alice looked at me with worry in her eyes.

"Bella..." She reached for my upper arms and rubbed her hands up and down consoling me. "Everything is going to be fine, you will do great don't underestimate yourself. Just relax, do you need anything?"

Why was I being such a nut case? None of the other girls had a problem with the photo shoot but then again they weren't as clumsy or a fucked up self-esteem either. Nope, they were coordinated, sexy and full of potential. I was fiddling with the tie to my robe, when I glanced up at Alice , she still looked worried. Fuck! I was being such an idiot how can I be so selfish Alice is counting on me. I looked around at the photography crew, they are professionals. "No I'm good. I'm not going to let you down Alice ." I pulled at the tie and let the robe fall off my shoulders. "Let's get this photo shoot over with."

Alice had the biggest grin, she took the robe and led me towards Sam. "Look Bella, if you feel that you can't finish just let me know and we will stop. I don't want to push you." She leaned in towards my ear. "I know there's more to it then you worrying about not having any modeling experience." She grabbed my arm and brought me to a halt, she was a strong little thing. "I don't know what's going on but I can see it in your eyes. You can trust me Bella I'm here for you." She pulled me into a hug, and then continued leading me towards Sam. She has no idea but can I really trust her? "Sam, this is our finishing model making her debut, my good friend…..Bella." She emphasized my good friend, I think she was letting him know that I was new to this and he'll need a lot of patience.

"Hello Bella. I understand that you are one of our inexperienced models, am I correct?"

"Yes."

"Okay then. We need to go over a few things. First thing to know about modeling is never look straight into the camera unless you are told. Do not stand still or straight with your arms flat at your side unless you are told. You have to constantly be moving and changing your facial expressions from sad, happy, angry, horny and thoughtful. If you can express it do it, that's my motto. I encourage you to do anything you are comfortable with, if you want to hike up your dress go ahead, if you want to open up a button from your top to show more cleavage go ahead. Do you understand me so far?" I nodded, I didn't think I could talk I was a little intimidated by him. "Okay. If I see you do a pose that I like I will tell you to hold it, when I got the shot I will say continue. I might ask you to do certain poses, like for instance lift your hair up, look to the left or right. So be expecting it and go with the flow. Sometimes these photo shoots can take up to a few hours so if you feel you need a break just go ahead and let us know and last but most important if at anytime you feel uncomfortable let us know. Please do not hesitate, do you have any questions?"

I cleared my throat. "No."

"Okay then let's get started." He walked me over to the background drop where there was an X marked on the floor with black tape. "You will stand here. Try to stay around the X." I looked down at the X, how was I going to know if I moved away from the X? I don't think they will like it if I kept on looking down at the floor to make sure. "Don't worry too much about it, if you wander to far from the mark I will let you know. Jacob can you come here please." A tall, tanned, muscular guy walked towards us. "Bella this is Jacob our props manger and my soon to be protégé. Jacob this is Bella."

Jacob reached out his hand and had a huge grin that showed his perfect bright smile. "Hi Bella nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too Jacob."

"Jacob will be assisting us with our background drops and props. So don't mind him if he gets in the way just keep on doing what your doing, unless told otherwise. Okay now that everything is set we can get this shoot started." Sam walked towards his camera to set up and left me and Jacob standing there.

"So it's your first time huh? Hey don't you worry, you'll do great. Let me give you a tip… become one with the camera."

Become one with the camera? I'm sure I looked confused. "Excuse me?"

"Become one with the camera. You know….block everything and everyone out; don't think about Sam, Mrs. Whitlock, the crew or me. It's just you and the camera, trust me it works."

"Okay Bella I'm ready when you are." Sam hollered.

I looked towards Sam, okay I could do this. I moved to stand on the marked X. I could feel everyone's eyes on me, I scanned the room. Sam, Alice, the crew and Jacob were all looking at me. "Become one with the camera." Jacob's voice kept repeating in my head like a tune, I shut my eyes really tight and took a few deep breaths. I could hear Sam and Alice in the distance. "Maybe we shouldn't push her to do this shoot, you should have enough shots with the other girls."

"No! I know she can do this, she just needs a little time." Alice said fervently.

"Become one with the camera. It's just you and the camera no one else."

I opened my eyes; I glanced at Jacob and gave him a quick grateful smile. "I'm ready."

Jacob's advice really did help me out; I moved with grace and attitude. Not once did I hear Sam ask me to move back to my mark or suggest a pose, all I heard throughout my photo shoot were murmurs of how amazing I was doing. Alice was constantly squealing in the distance and cheering me on. I was only supposed to have five outfit changes but Alice decided to add a few more. I probably would have complained but I was so comfortable with modeling and I really wanted Alice to know I was serious about this.

Before I knew my solo photo shoot was over, a lot less time then what I originally expected that's for sure. We were now working on a group photo session, it was a lot more fun to work with the rest of the girls. Gianna and Victoria eventually coupled up and so did Heidi and Kate. I ended up in the middle posing on my own while they held onto each other. This photo shoot was over before we knew it, we even sighed in disappointment. At the end we all walked over to Sam's laptop as he loaded up all the shots. I was amazed, we all were. They were beautiful shots, at first I didn't even recognize myself. Everyone was complementing me on what a good job I did, even Sam came over to me and told me I was a natural. Who would have thought/

Alice decided to take us all out to eat and celebrate the success of the shoot. I however was celebrating something else, I was slowly but surely breaking out of my rut. No more dwelling on my mistakes, the past is the past and nothing more. But first I needed to thank someone.

Right before we were getting ready to leave I walked up to Jacob. "Hey. I just wanted to thank you for your advice it helped a lot, more then you'll ever know."

Jacob smiled down at me. "I told you it would. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself, you definitely have a talent."

"You think so? I did enjoy it, very much. I wouldn't have if it wasn't for you, I owe you big time."

"Well that sounds interesting, hmm I might just take you up on that." He was contemplating his IOU.

I couldn't understand it but I felt like I have known him forever, kind of like a big brother. "It's once in a lifetime so you better make it good." I smirked at him.

"Cool. I'll let you know when I decide but until then why don't we go ring up Mrs. Whitlock's credit card bill with a few rounds of shots. What do you say?" He put his arm around my shoulders.

Giggling as we walked to try to catch up with the rest of the group. "Hell yeah I have a lot to celebrate."

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