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It was one o'clock and I was on my way to meet Edward. To say I was nervous would have been an understatement. I had butterflies in my stomach. I knew how I felt but I didn't know if it would change once I saw him. I just had to be careful and on guard around him. I checked my outfit one last time: olive green sundress, black flats and a black wrap (of course accessories to match). I wanted to look extra nice for him until I finally decided that this outfit would do. I arrived at 1:15pm and found him to be already there and waiting. I calmed my racing heart and walked slowly to the table. I got a good look at him in his olive green polo shirt and black cargo shorts. His muscular arms looked tanned and big and I could faintly see my name tattoo peeking under his shirt. As I got nearer, I could see his face more clearly and I wanted to cry at how perfect he looked. Were his eyes ever that green? Dimples that deep? With my heart racing in double time, it took all my strength not to sprint over and wrap my around him. He was looking out the window in deep thought so he didn't notice me until I cleared my throat.
"We match," I said in greeting.
He was startled, nearly jumping out his chair, and turned to face me in surprise. I guess he didn't think I would show up. He looked me up and down and smiled.
"Yes, we do but you look so much better," he complimented me.
I tried to look unaffected by his words and took a seat. We just stared at each other for a long time, taking it all in before I looked away.
"It's good to see you, Isabella. You have no idea," he was staring at me intently as he spoke.
My face warmed and I tried to ignore the way my name sounded coming from his lips.
"It's good to see you too, Edward. You look well."
"For now."
"So, what is it you needed to talk to me about?"
"Everything. Us. I want to let you know how sorry I am. The last time we spoke, I was half drunk, drowning in my miseries and said some hurtful words I didn't mean. Can you forgive me for that?"
I was a forgiving person on certain aspects so it was easy to let this go.
"Yes, I can and thank you for the apologies."
He smiled. "I would have called you sooner but I knew you needed time and I also needed time to figure out how to fix this. Firstly, I want to say there is no excuse for my actions and I deserved for you to leave me. I've never deserved you, Isabella, especially not your love."
Hearing him say that made me so happy. I was glad that he accepted the truth and was taking the blame. His words were sincere and truthful. He had never lied to me and would hate being lied to. Maybe he would hide the truth from you and delay you finding out but not if you came right out and asked him. That's why I could forgive him sooner.
"Thank you for saying that, Edward."
"It took me a while to see it but I know it's the truth. I deserve for you to never forgive me and to hate me but I don't want that, Bella," he continued.
I swallowed. "What do you want?"
"I want your forgiveness and mostly your love. I don't deserve it but I want it. I live for it, Bella. It's what makes our relationship special. You were the only girl that really loved me for me and I should have never taken it for granted. Can you love me again? Can you see yourself with me someday?"
Why did it take something like this for him to confess, for him to realize? You won't miss it until it's truly gone, they say.
"I never stopped loving you, Edward, and yes, I can forgive you but can you forgive yourself?"
"If it helps, yes, I can."
"I forgive you," I said smiling.
"We're obviously not ready for a relationship but can you see us being friends for now?"
"No, we can't be friends. It would only cause more issues but let's not put a label on what we have. Let's enjoy it for now."