Well Here we are with the last chapter ( there might be an epilouge but we will see) . I'm Happy with the way it ended and i hope you are too ( If you're not then i can accept that also)

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BPOV

If ben hadn't jumped between me and Angela I would have done more damage than necessary. She just stood there looking pathetic waiting for me to hit her but I had more important things to do. I vowed to never waste any more energy on people like her she was officially erased from my memory. I kicked them out and hurried to get ready and go to Edward. My mind was on auto pilot with one fixated focus and did not include work but Irina called and said I had to come in.

I tried to trade shifts but I missed so many days already so it was a done deal. Being at work wasn't like it used to be all I wanted to do was get out of there and go find him. I had so many things to say and I wanted to sort out any problems we had. I needed this closure from all the heart break and pain I've experienced this past month. I knew we couldn't go back to the way we were before and I knew part of me couldn't trust him but I wanted to at least have some kind of connection to him.

I wanted to feel loved again, I wanted his love anyway I could have it. One thing I should have never doubted was his love for me even if I had reason to. I needed to hear his side of the story. Time was dragging slowly at work for the first time ever and if that wasn't bad enough, Angela came to work also and avoided me completely so much so Irina had to ask what was going on. I did not want to rehash anything it was time for me to move on one way or another.

James called and I felt guilty and sick for the way I treated him. I was messed up last night that was the only way I would ever sleep with James. Nothing about him but I could never see myself sleeping with someone I didn't love. He was so good to me through all of this I knew I owed him more than ever. I knew it wasn't fair to keep being his friend either he deserved so much better.

"I wasn't sure if I should call or not but I had to check on you" he sounded remorseful and sad.

"Thanks so much for even wanting to call me after how I treated you" I admitted gratefully.

"Its fine Bella I knew what you were going through" he assured me.

"No it's not fine, that's no way to treat a friend like you I'm so embarrassed by my actions"

"I forgive you Isabelle, if it's okay with you I would like to come over..."

I sighed this was going to be the hard part, I didn't want to give him up but I had to. He was still pining over me and even though he never complains I know it's not easy for him.

"I don't think you should come over James, I know you have feelings and I can't give them back"

"I can handle it Bella I know one day you'll see me as more"

"That's it, I don't see you as more and I never will. I can't be your friend with that hanging over my head James"

"I guess I understand…. But are you sure you'll be okay?"

"Yes I'm going to talk with Edward today, Angela came to my house to tell me what really happened and I found out more than ever"

"You're giving him a second chance?"

"Maybe but I still love him no matter what and I know he loves me"

"I hope you're right Isabelle I really hope that you are right"

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I went by our house straight after work, it felt strange walking up to the door and not going straight in. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I kept knocking for about 20 minutes but no one came to the door. I contemplated where he could be, I didn't want to call him because this needed to be face to face. I got back in the car thinking about what to do.

When I came to my apartment I decided to call him but the sight in front of my door stopped me. Edward was waiting by my door pacing back and forth; he looked up at the sound of my car and started to walk towards me. With my heart beating loudly I stepped out at the same time and started forward.

"I was just about to leave" he said taking me in.

"I went by the house looking for you" I replied.

"Really?" he asked surprised.

"Yes I think we need to talk" I replied carefully.

He sighed "I know I ran into Angela and James these past two days"

"You talked to James?" I ask surprised.

"Well not really talked he told me what he thought of me and so forth but we got some facts straight"

I unlocked the door and ushered him in all the while sorting out my thoughts.

"This won' take long I just wanted to say I get why you thought something was going on between me and Angela again. I deserved it for what I did and its fine that you don't trust me but you need to know when I make a mistake I don't repeat it again because that's what it was, a horrible mistake and I love you too much to even think about doing it again" he started talking before I could sit down.

"I know and I'm sorry for doubting that you loved me"

"Don't apologize to me"

"But I need to; I did jump to conclusions never getting your side of the story until Angela came by"

He looks surprised "Bella you should know I had no idea of her feelings and I feel sick that she used me, I've only loved you and will always love only you. I know we can't go back to the way we were and I understand if you never want to see me again but I needed you to know nothing happened between me and Angela and nothing will ever happen again."

He pulled me into a tight hug and kissed my forehead. I melted into his embrace feeling at home. I've missed having his arms around me and I missed his minty smell. I never wanted to let go and stay here forever but I couldn't so easily. I pulled from the embrace sighing.

"I guess I'll go now, take care of yourself Bella" he said turning to go.

I was completely surprised; I expected him to beg and plead to stay. I thought he would fight not give up.

"You want to leave?"

"Well I didn't think you would want me to stay"

"I do and I don't, I want us to be together again but I know it won't be soon so I'll take being your friend over not having you at all"

His smile was pained "I don't think I can be your friend Bella"

"Wait not just friends but special friends, we won't be together but we can do what you normally do in any relationship. It will take me a while to completely trust you again so we can work from friendship on up"

His smile was full of happiness now "what does special friend entail?"

"This" I replied reaching up to kiss him. My body was on fire so was my lips; this kiss was intense with lost time to make up for. He pressed me into him and took over the kiss telling me how much he missed me and how much he loves me with his lips.

It burned but it was a good burn full of passion and promise, promise to tread carefully. We made a mess of our relationship but it was a beautiful mess.

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