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*******WARNING******* Just a little warning things get a little out of control in this chapter.

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Ch. 19

RELIVING THE PAST

BPOV

I'm not sure how long I've been sitting in this room; there are no windows and only one door. The few times the door has been opened I've gotten a glimpse of the corridor and it seems very dark and creepy. From that alone I could tell I wasn't in someone's home, they had to be holding me in some type of industrial building or basement of some sort. And that brought me back to the question, why? Why did Tyler bring me here? How is he involved with James? Every time Tyler has come into the room I try to get some type of reaction out of him but he just ignores me, does what he came to do and leaves not including the time that I provoked him. I wasn't planning on doing that again it was a poor judgment on my part, I wasn't thinking about the baby.

I've been sleeping quite a bit; I'm assuming it has to do with the pregnancy. Every time I wake up there is a new plate of food, drinks and a letter. Each letter was more disturbing then the one before, after the third one I stopped reading them, I tried to not think about the sadistic things he wrote. I knew deep down what James wanted but I tried to block it out of my head it made me nauseated every time I thought about it. How was I going to get myself out of this situation?

It's my own fault. After everything I went through with Tyler in High School how could I not expect it to come back and haunt me, not just haunt me but destroy me. I was so naïve back then, what High School girl in love wasn't? When we first met I was infatuated, a lot of girls liked him but he was intimidating, he was your typical jock and part of the popular crowd. I kept my distance, I wasn't in any social clubs in school and I didn't have many friends but some how I caught his attention. I stood after school helping my Algebra II teacher Mr. Clearwater grade yesterdays quiz when Tyler walked in. He had forgotten what page was for tonight's homework, Mr. Clearwater scolded him and then asked him how did the team do during practice. They had totally forgot about the homework page, when Tyler turned to walk out the class room I yelled, "page 117." That is when my world turned upside down.

After that day every time Tyler saw me in class, down the hall, during lunch, before and after school he would go out of his way and say hi to me. A few of my friends would question me about him but I would just shrug and say it's nothing. Homecoming dance was coming up and it was mandatory that every football player was to attended, as I made my way into Spanish 1-2 Tyler stopped me at the door.

"Hey Bella. How's it going?"

I stuttered. "Uh..uh…uh fine. And you?"

"Good, good. But I'm sure it will get better. Wanna know how?" He was smirking at me, and I nodded like the dork that I was. "If you say yes to going to the Homecoming dance with me my day would be perfect." He almost purred the word perfect in my ear. I blinked then nodded without realizing that I did. "Great! Make sure you wear red, so we match."

I should have known then that something was wrong but again I was a naïve teenager in love or so I thought. After the Homecoming dance everything kind of spiraled out of control with me not realizing it until it was too late. The Homecoming dance wasn't even over when Tyler and all his friends decided to go back to one of the other football players house. One thing lead to another and Tyler and I were making out heavily in one of the bedrooms.

It was like that the first month that we were dating, just making out. Then his hands started to wander which didn't seem bad to me at the time since I was enjoying it. A few weeks after that we would make out half naked and he would finger bang me. The first time that happened I was a little grossed out when he sucked on his fingers, he explained that it was like going down on a girl but since I wasn't ready for that yet he would settle for sucking it from his fingers. At the time I was turned on at the fact that he wanted to taste me so bad but still scared that things were moving a little to fast for me. I should have said something or try to slow things down but I didn't.

Not long after that he started "training" me how to give him a proper blowjob. It chopped my already low self-esteem down to half. I had initiated it but he stopped me and said, "No, no your doing it wrong. If you cant take me in all the way grip me here." He grabbed my hand and put it at the hilt of his shaft. "And move it in motion with your mouth. When you suck you grip harder. Now try it again."

I thought he was showing me how to please him but I was wrong he was preparing me for something more bigger then that. I had giving him a blowjob down to perfection all I heard was how good I was doing, grunts and moans. Then we moved onto sex. I'm not going to lie, it really hurt. For about the first week, once we had sex he wanted it all the time. Once the first week was over I started to enjoy it, anytime we were alone we would not waste anytime and fuck until he couldn't get it up anymore.

We had been dating for about three months when Tyler propositioned me. We were at a little party after they won one of the most importation games of the year. I had taken to getting high with the guys, it was something that Tyler liked me to do, he said I was more freakier and I of course wanted to please him. I was on his lap with my face in his neck when he said, "Hey baby?"

"Hmmmm." I was really feeling the high now.

"Tom said that you look really hot today in this little mini skirt you got on for me." I giggled. "He wishes he had a girl like you."

"Too bad I'm taken." I kissed him sloppily making sucking noises on his neck while he moaned.

"Mmmmmm that's it baby make daddy feel good." I felt a little weird but he gently pushed my head into his neck to encourage me and then he thrust his cock towards my ass. I didn't hesitate and sucked on his neck more and maneuvered myself so I could straddle him.

I was grinding on his erect cock when I heard another voice in the room. "Ohhhhh yeahhhhhh. Grab her ass."

I quickly whipped my head around feeling dizzy as I did it and had to hold onto Tyler 's shoulders. " Tyler , he's watching us!"

Tyler had my halter shirt down already and was sucking on my breasts. "Mmmmmmm." He kept on thrusting. "It's okay baby he just want's to watch. I told you he wishes he had a girl like you. Why don't we show him what he's missing out on." He gripped me behind my neck and pulled me down to kiss him. He stuck his tongue in my mouth and his cock kept hitting my clit. I couldn't help but moan into his mouth.

I was so blissed out and high I didn't care that Tom was in the room with us anymore. Tyler reached to unbuckle his pants and pulled out his dick, he slid my panties to the side and slipped right in. "FUCK!"

"Yeah! That's what I'm talking about, fuck her. Fuck her good." I heard another zipper and I turned around to see Tom pulling his dick out and start jacking off. Tyler was making me feel so good that I wasn't fazed by Tom in the room at all, it actually turned me on. "Oh you like that huh? You like me watching you guys fuck?"

I moaned, and turned back to Tyler . "Fuck me harder." And he did.

"I want to see her ass take her panties off." Tom's voice was strained.

"You do it, she feels too good to stop." Tyler grunted.

I could hear movement and I felt something cold slide against my hip and then I heard a ripping sound and my panties being pulled away from my body. Tyler gripped my ass cheeks and spread them open, I could feel body heat behind me and before I could protest that's when I felt a warm wetness all over my ass.

That night when Tyler dropped me off he told me I did a good job and that he was proud that he has me as his girlfriend. I told myself that it wasn't too bad his friend never touched me. I wish I would have had the courage to stop it then but I didn't.

I started to notice that almost the whole team was paying extra attention to me as the days passed, in the back of my head I knew rumors where flying around about that night. Tyler convinced me that Tom would never do that and not to stress if they ever found out it wouldn't go beyond the team. Thinking back now it sounds upsetting that I was okay with that comment but what was I suppose to do he was my everything.

Something told me not to go to this party, well not something someone. My friend Tess had asked me if there was going to be a party after the game because she had heard that only the team was getting together at someone's house. I was under the impression that there was going to be a party and shrugged off her comment. Later that week Tess approached me again saying that she over heard a few of the team members saying some inappropriate things about me and that I shouldn't go to the party. I told her Tyler wouldn't let anything happen to me, I was wrong.

If you ask me today I don't remember how things escalated that night, I'm more then positive now that I think back they drugged me so I wouldn't put up a fight. I remember walking into the house with Tyler and at first there were a few couples, I remember laughing at how ridiculous Tess was acting she was probably just jealous that she wasn't invited. After a few drinks the girls that were there started to disappear before I knew it Tyler had me on the couch fully naked sitting on his lap. He would whisper in my ear things that really didn't make sense and I would just nod in agreement and that was the last thing I remember until I woke up completely naked and with a massive hangover. I sat up and looked around I was still in the same room, I looked around for my clothes when I saw….condoms. Lots of them, everywhere. I felt like vomiting, I never once thought to blame Tyler only myself.

I didn't go to school for a whole week, I had dozens of calls, messages from Tess, Tyler and a few of my other friends. I didn't tell my father about what happened, we weren't close as a matter of fact he didn't even question why I was home all week. Tyler showed up to my house unexpectedly I was so sure he was worried about me after what happened. After an hour of silence I decided to confront him about that night.

"How could you?"

"How could I what baby?"

"You….you let them….:" I couldn't even finish, I was really shaken up.

"What? Are you kidding me? You're going to blame something on me that you enjoyed?"

I was appalled. "WHAT? I ENJOYED?"

He laughed. "I cant believed this shit!" He got up from where he was sitting and walked over to where I was standing. I backed up into the wall and he leaned into me, my body was already betraying me. "You fucken enjoyed it Bella. You asked for it, you asked for more. You didn't want to stop." He gripped the back of my hair and tilted my head towards his and kissed me. "Fuck you know how much that turned me on watching you get fucked over and over again.' He gripped my thigh and hitched it around his waist. "What I wouldn't give to see it again. You came so many times Bella. YOU. ENJOYED. IT."

He shoved his hard cock at me and I moaned. "I feel dirty Tyler . I feel like I was raped I didn't know what was going on I don't even remember any of it."

"That's because you where on an orgasmic high, besides being drunk I told you to slow down. But trust me baby you loved it and the guys cant stop talking about it. They even wanted me to tell you that you were the best sex they have ever seen." I shook my head. "Don't think about it so much, just know that you satisfied me in so many ways that I cant repay you enough but I will try." He lifted me up and carried me to my room. He caressed me, massaged me, kissed me all over, and he made love to me. He showed me just how much he loved me, how could I not shake those bad feelings off when he just worshiped my body.

From then on I was the football teams play thing or mascot is what they would call me. I was at there beckon call, it was sickening to watch. My friends where not my friends anymore all I had was Tyler . I was a mess, I was dressing like a slut for school and my own father wouldn't even question me. He would look at me with disgust and turn the other way. He seen the signs that I was spiraling out of control but did nothing, what kind of father does that? The kind that doesn't care. The rest of the year came and went like a blur I was so hyped up on drugs that I couldn't remember half of my senior year of High School.

When you're in too deep so deep that you think there is no way out there is always one time when you get a rude awakening. Tyler 's parents threw a big graduation party with no adult supervision. I showed up a little later then everyone else, as I made my way into the house at first I thought no one was there. Tyler 's house was pretty big so I assumed everyone was outside, as I got closer to the family room I could hear cheers and yells from the guys. I being the curious person that I was I quietly made my way to see what all the fuss was about. Before I could make it there a group of girls were coming down the hallway, one of them being Tess. They looked at me as if I had a disease or something, but Tess' expression was what hit me the most, she had tears in her eyes. One of the girls said, "Your fucking disgusting." Another said, "Tess I cant believe you use to be friends with this whore."

I knew they all talked about me behind my back how could they not? I was always the only girl around the guys, word was bound to spread. But….I wasn't prepared for what I was about to see. I took one last look at Tess and walked towards the room. They were watching a movie, not just any movie they were watching me. Somehow without me knowing they had filmed me…I wasn't high, I wasn't drunk, I was completely sober. I was sober watching them laugh at my expense, they laughed at me sucking Tyler's dick, and fucking his best friend while others watch. They thought I was a fucking joke, after everything that I had did but that wasn't the worse part. Tyler was laughing too. "Look at that whore bob on my dick, I trained her well." He was talking about me, my boyfriend called me a whore. "HEY! The movie star is here. Look at you go!" He pointed at the screen and I was getting fucked by Tom while everyone watched. I couldn't breath, I looked at Tyler one last time and ran and I never looked back until today.

Sitting in this room not knowing what might happen was driving me crazy, what if he hurts me? Something could happen to my baby. I wanted to cry but I couldn't I needed to be strong, someone had to notice I was missing I had people that cared about me. Jessica, Alice I had snuck my wallet in her purse hoping she would see it and try calling me but would she notice in time before something bad happens? God I hope so.

I could hear talking outside the door; I never heard talking outside the door this could only mean one thing. Before I could even think it in walked James with Tyler right behind him closing the door. I gulped, my heart beating fast. James loosened his tie and unbuttoned his jacket and took it off laying it over the chair near the door. "How are you feeling? Have you been resting? I noticed that you haven't been eating much of the food and I'm a little disappointed you're a little too on the thin side I would have preferred you have more meat on your bones."

"Well maybe you should kidnap another girl." I snapped back.

"Well from what I hear you do things willingly with a little bit of contraband in you." I shivered and glanced at Tyler he had a hard face. "Do I need to repeat history?" I shook my head. "Good. I like my women sober and responsive."

"She would respond" Tyler spoke up but was quickly cut off by James.

"Did I fucking ask you to speak? I said you could be here but I did not say you can comment on anything." My lips twitched a little at how much of a pussy Tyler really was.

"So Isabella do you know what I want?" I just stared blankly at him not trying to give anything away. "You're a whore! A very good one in fact." I flinched at his comment. "Don't look so modest I've seen the videos, and I'm quite pleased but there was just something missing." I looked away from him towards Tyler , which was a big mistake, he grabbed my hair yanking my head towards him. "LOOK AT ME YOU BITCH!" He was breathing heavy now. "He's not in charge anymore I AM! When I fucking talk you look at me, when I fucking ask a question you answer me. Do you fucking hear me slut?" I nodded my head. "Now where was I, oh yes I seen the videos and the thing that was missing was me."

"Your not going to get away with this someone is going to notice I'm gone."

"Who is going to notice? Cullen? He doesn't want you, your nothing but a fucking whore to him, to everyone don't you remember. Maybe we should remind you how much fun it use to be." He reached out towards me and started pulling at my clothes and ripping them from my body I was screaming for him to leave me alone but that spurred him on he was getting off on it so I stopped fighting him. Once he was done he looked at me and seen my composed face and it pissed him off. "LOOK AT ME!" I looked straight ahead at his belt buckle, and I seen his arm lift right before he swung at me and struck me in the face. "FUCK! She's infuriating you told me she likes this kind of stuff."

"She did before. Why don't you tie her up." I glanced up quickly to see Tyler looking up towards the ceiling, I looked towards where he was looking at. There was some kind of contraption with chains and leather straps. I closed my eyes and tried to stay calm.

"Your right. She needs some encouragement. Come help me."

I could have fought against them but what good would it have done so I willingly let them tie me up. My arms were spread apart towards the ceiling and my feet where shackled to the floor also spread apart. I was still clothed but my clothes were in shreds.

"So let's see how responsive you really are." Before I could even comprehend what he meant he struck me on my ass and I screamed. "Oh yeah baby that's how I like it." My chest was heaving from the searing pain. Again and again he repeatedly hit me, after about six hits he rubbed his dick into my ass. "You feel that, huh? You feel how hard you make me just by screaming. GOD I FUCKING LOVE IT!" I felt so defeated there was no way I was getting out of this situation, I looked at Tyler and he looked ashamed and quickly looked away. As James breathed heavily into my neck, I realized the key word he just gave me, "Screaming" he was getting off on my screaming. When he pulled away and started to hit me again I gathered all my strength to not scream, it was the most excruciating thing I ever had to do. After a few hits you could tell that James was getting upset, each hit was getting harder. He grabbed my hair and yanked my head back. "What the fuck bitch?" I gritted my teeth I knew if I said anything you would be able to hear the pain in my voice, I wouldn't give him that satisfaction. "Maybe I need to do something a little more extreme."

"Maybe she's numb to the pain already. She's weak, she hasn't been eating her food." I looked at Tyler and he had his hard face again.

I didn't hear James move or say anything for awhile. He walked around and stood in front of me. "I'll be back tomorrow I suggest you eat your food and rest because I'm not through with you. Take her down." And like that he was gone.

Tyler untied my arms first. "If your not too weak try holding on to me." Then he untied my legs, and gently lifted me and placed me on the bed. He sat there for awhile I didn't expect him to say anything. "I'm sorry."

Before he walked out the door I said, "Yes you are." I turned to look him in the eye. "You're a sorry excuse for a man."

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