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14. Chapter

"Stop being so damn rational! We both know that you want us to continue."

"Can you please open up the zipper now… I am not going to discuss these things in a changing room with you."

House's hand went to the zipper again and opened it up like it had never been stuck before.

"We are not in the hospital. Switch off your brain and relax. Do the things YOU want to do and not the things your brain wants you to want."

"Right now I just want you to leave me alone!" Her voice was loud and cold. Much colder than she actually had it intended to be.

House looked at her. It was clearly visible that she had hurt him with her words. Without saying another word House left the changing room as well as the boutique.

Cuddy sighed and butted her head against the wall of the small stall.

Shit! She just screwed up very big…

He was nowhere to be found. She had checked each bar and each coffee shop there was but there was no sign of House.

She had already called his cell phone about six times but he never answered. He was obviously really pissed at her.

And Cuddy was truly sorry for that. She didn't want to hurt him. It didn't happen intentionally. She was just so confused on her own. His proximity had messed with her feelings. The only protection she had were her words. But she never intended to hurt him with them. It had just happened.

She was just about to make her way back to the car to look if he was there when she suddenly caught sighed of him. He was sitting on a bench next to a grocery store, his hand was on his right leg rubbing it. His facial expression told her that he was in pain. In physical as well as emotional pain.

Suddenly Cuddy felt even more sorry for her stupid behavior.

She slowly approached him and dropped down next to him on the bench.

"I am sorry." Her voice was calm and regretful. "I didn't mean to be so harsh."

House kept massaging his leg. He said nothing. It seemed like he had decided to ignore her.

"House?"

No reaction.

"House, please look at me."

Her voice had been so soft that he couldn't help himself: He looked at her.

"Our kiss confused me… And my first reaction was to push you away… " Her hand moved to his and took hold of it. "I'm really sorry, House." Her thump caressed the back of his hand.

"What the hell are we doing?"

"What do you mean?"

"This." He said and looked down on their joined hands.

Cuddy looked down as well. She knew what he meant. And she had no clue how to answer his question. She would like to have an answer herself.

"I don't know." She whispered.

"You told me you want to stop sleeping with me but you don't stop the teasing. I am getting mixed signals, Cuddy."

"You are my friend. I love this thing we have. You never fail to make me laugh. You never bore me. I can trust you…I just enjoy spending time with you."

"Then why did you end it?"

"Because I didn't want to lose what we have… I didn't want the sex to get in between our friendship... "

"It didn't get in between our friendship. It had been okay."

"I hadn't been okay… You know that. Every time after we had slept together we were both distant. We both felt weird… And I don't want to feel weird around you."

"Don't forget that you were the one that always left… I've never asked you to, I never asked you to be distant."

"Oh come on House… you wanted me to leave. You made it perfectly clear that you never wanted more than sex."

"You have never asked me."

"What?"

"You have never asked me if I wanted you to stay and neither have you asked me if I wanted more than sex. You just assumed it."

Cuddy looked up at him in surprise. Now she was totally confused. "Do… Do you want more?"

"God, Cuddy…Why do you think I came to your place the other night? Why do you think I wanted you to come with me to the funeral? Why do you think I just kissed you? If I just wanted sex I would have called a hooker and not you."

Cuddy was shocked. Did he just tell her that he wanted more? Did Greg House just tell her that he wanted a RELATIONSHIP? A relationship with her?

She was totally caught off guard. House always managed to surprise her. "I thought you want no commitments and no responsibility?"

"I don't want them… but with you…" He didn't dare to look at her. "It's just something else with you… " His voice was barley louder than a whisper.

Her lips formed to a smile. Once again she noticed that House was actually a softie at heart.

"Explain it to me."

"Explain what?"

"Why is it something else with me?"

He shrugged. "It's just different."

"How different?"

He sighed. As much as he loved this woman in front of him sometimes she could be more than just annoying. "It's fun to be with you… ", he said. "I'm not afraid of your near… I'm not afraid of losing my freedom. All I am afraid of is that… that you will walk away from my life and I'll be alone."

Cuddy was totally touched by the sweetness of his words. She lay her head down on his shoulder. "I'll always be here." She whispered.

"You are saying that now. But some day you will realize that I am a drug addict that is not only physically but also emotionally crippled."

"You are emotionally damaged but that is something that can be fixed. I will try to fix you."

House suddenly started grinning.

"What?" Cuddy wanted to know.

"You are such a Coldplay fan."

"You are obviously one as well, otherwise you wouldn't even have noticed the reference." Cuddy's hand went to his cheek and turned his head in her direction so he was looking directly into her eyes.

"What do you want?" She whispered. She wanted to hear him say that he wanted this. That he wanted her.

"I want to have unlimited access to Petty and Selma as well as to Big Mamma."

Cuddy started laughing. This was his very own, unique way to tell her that he cared about her and that he wanted to be with her.

She buried her head into his chest and wound her arms around him. "I enjoy being here with you." She murmured against him.

He took her face in his hands and made her look up at him. Their facial expressions were serious. This whole thing between them was serious.

"So… Can I kiss you now without you freaking out?" House asked while tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

She smiled and then nodded.

House caressed her cheek and bent down nearer to her. When they were just a few inches apart they closed their eyes.

As soon as she could feel his lips touching hers it felt like thousands of butterflies were flying around in her body. She actually had believed that things like that just happen when you are a young girl and have no clue about love but obviously this feeling doesn't have anything to do with age or with experiences.

Cuddy immediately returned the kiss, put her hands around his neck and pulled him nearer into her. She shifted so that she was now sitting on his left leg. Her mouth was still attached to his and would probably be for quite a while.

She had not intentions to stop kissing him. She wanted him as near as possible.

House's hands were buried in her soft, black hair and held her head steady. He didn't want to stop kissing her either.

He never wanted to stop again.

If it were possible he just would stay here with her in his arms forever.

TBC…

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