A/N i will only have time for one today. hope you like it.
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It was a few days since JJ had to be re-stitched. She was sat up in bed looking out the window watching the world go by and daydreaming. Morgan was sat in the chair next to her stroking the back of her hand.
He would never admit it to anyone but he was scared. The woman in front of him was no longer the JJ he knew. This woman was lost and scared.
The door to the room opened and JJ didn't move. Emily and Hotch walked in. They looked at each other when JJ didn't look up to greet them.
"How is she?" Hotch whispered sitting down next to Morgan
"She had another nightmare last night." Morgan looked Hotch square in the eye "She hasn't moved since." He took a deep breath "Hotch…were loosing her." A tear slid from his eye, he didn't wipe it away. It didn't matter how macho he did or didn't look, all that mattered is that they got JJ back.
"We can't loose her Hotch, we all need her." Emily sat on the edge of JJ's bed.
"We need to get her to talk to us but I don't know how." Hotch got up from the chair and moved round to the other side of the bed. He took her hand in his and moved in front of her line of sight. JJ didn't look up or acknowledge that they were still.
"JJ look at me" Hotch's voice was clam but JJ didn't look up, so he used his stern work voice "JJ I want you to look at me" JJ still didn't move. She lay on the bed now staring at his shirt.
"JJ please your scaring us" Emily said wiping the tears from her eyes "Talk to us, let us help you."
"C'mon princess let us in; you don't have to do this on your own." Morgan squeezed her hand tighter.
For a good 10 minutes the only noise in the room was JJ monitors.
"It hurt so much" JJ whispered. Its like life filled her empty eyes when she looked at the people in the room.
"Hey there you are." Emily gently rubbed her lift leg to comfort JJ.
"I was so scared you wouldn't find us." She started crying again.
"Keep going JJ" Hotch tried to het her to talk.
"No" She said shaking her head "I don't want to, I don't want you to hate me. Please go."
"JJ we're not leaving you." Morgan scooted closer to the bed.
"Why not? I wouldn't blame you, I'm damaged goods now. I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to touch me ever again."
"JJ stop." Hotch told her before she got hysterical "We are not leaving you and none of what happened is your fault you need to understand that." JJ looked at him scared.
"You need to talk to us. Tell us what's going on inside that pretty little head of yours" Morgan tucked her hair behind her ear.
"Every time I close my eyes I can see then, feel them on top of me, feel him in me. It's my fault I wasn't strong enough, I didn't fight hard enough and I just lay there and let them do it to me" More tears streaked down JJ's face.
"JJ look at me" Emily tilted JJ's head "You did what you had to do to survive you couldn't fight them off because they had beaten you so badly. You went through all of that to protect Henry and you know what…you did it. Pen has him and he is safe." JJ broke out into sobs, Emily scooped her in her arms and held her while she cried.
"I hate feeling like this, I hate being weak." JJ said once she had clamed down.
"Your not weak princess, you are one of the strongest women I know. Your amazing baby girl." Morgan rubbed her back.
"Give it time JJ, everything will be ok, I promise" Hotch looked at JJ. She looked like a little lost girl.
"You can't make promised like that." JJ looked at him.
"Yes I can, I no you JJ, things will get better." He could see JJ's eyes getting heavy "Now get some sleep."
They all climbed off the bed and went to sit in chairs as JJ lay back down.
"Emily" JJ whispered.
"Yeah?"
"Will you lay with me?"
"You don't even have to ask" Emily climbed on the bed next to JJ and pulled her best friend in close.
That was the first time JJ had managed to sleep without having any nightmares.
It was about lunch time the next day when everyone walked into the room.
"Hey JJ how you doing?" Hotch asked as everyone made them self comfy round JJ's bed.
"OK I guess" JJ could still only whisper.
"Hows your voice?"
"It doesn't hurt as much as it did, its getting there" She gave him a smile.
"I was wondering if you were up too talking for a little?" Hotch said with worry in his eyes.
"IM'm...I'm not sure I'm re…ready to talk about..."
"No! Its ok i didn't want to talk about that again. Not yet anyway. I just have a few questions to ask you. Is that ok?"
JJ took a deep breath and nodded.
"Just take it nice and slow and if you want to stop i will." JJ nodded again "There were Two Unsubs?"
"Yes. Matty and Rowan." JJ felt Emily squeeze her hand.
"Do you know why they took you both?"
"Erm..." JJ had to think for a minute "They wanted a ready made family for Matty. He was…challenged, he drowned when he was a child i think i remember the other one saying" JJ was trying to keep her emotions under control and it was working.
"Good you're doing really well. When they had you, did they take you to any other place except the room you were both in?"
"No, i only remember the basement."
"Last one for now. What's the last thing you remember before waking up in the hospital?"
JJ winced as Henry wiggled in his sleep. She looked down at him and saw that his fists were still holding JJ's gown. She closed her eyes.
"He'd just…erm…ra…" Altho the team knew what they did, she was really struggling to say it out loud "He'd just finished and got of the bed, then he started beating me again, he climbed on top of me to do it again." JJ's emotions were starting to show again.
"You're doing really well" Emily held on to JJ's hand tight for support "Take your time" JJ took a deep breath.
"He stopped when he heard loud noises coming from above us, then I remember he had his hands round my throat and then...i think i heard gun shots." JJ tried to think harder for another few seconds "No I'm sorry that's it"
"No don't apologies JJ you did really well" Rossi said taking over.
"What happened to them?" JJ asked looking round at everyones faces. The team all looked at each other; none of them knew what to say "Tell me."
"The eldest brother was shot dead. That was the gun shots you heard" Morgan said putting a blanked over Henry "and we believe the other brother was up in one of the fields and ran when he was all the police cars."
Panic started to rise and the team could see JJ's heart rate go up on the monitors. JJ knew that if he was clam he wouldn't hurt a fly, He took Henry to the hospital for crying out loud, but if he was angry JJ knew first hand the damage he could do.
"Hey, Hey Jayje" Garcia took JJ's face in her hands as the colour drained from it "Listen, nothing is going to happen to you, either of you. Our super agents won't let that happen. Take some deep breaths for me" JJ did as she was told "That's it butterfly"
When JJ calmed down she could feel the tiredness start to over take her body and this time she didn't fight it. For the first time in a long time JJ felt safe knowing her baby boy was in her arms and her family were round her. Without another word to anyone JJ rested her cheek on top of Henrys head and fell into a deep sleep.
"Is she going to be ok?" Garcia asked the team her voice shaking with emotion.
"I don't know baby girl" Morgan moved round the bed to hug Garcia.
"I think with our help JJ will pull through this. She's one tough cookie." Rossi said looking at the now sleeping blonde.
A/N i know its not a long as te other ones but if i added the next bit it would be too long. i dont htink i will be able to add any moretill the weekend but i should have it finshed by then too. See you later keep smiling!
AJ x