Meus Dulce Angelus – Chapter 19 – Outside

AN – I'm off school for a few days, so with any luck I'll get some chapters pre-written! Also, it helps so, so much if you listen to As Long As You're Mine from Wicked (Original Cast if possible) when it goes into Felix's POV (all rights to their respectful owners). Seriously do it, it helps so much.

Skaramoosh x

Disclaimer: I do not own Twiglet.

Outside

B POV
Jane helped me get into some pyjamas and sat with me on the bed. Soon enough meus angelus walked in followed by Carlisle.

'Hey, I wanted to apologise for being so... standoffish when you were um, looking at me.'

'That's perfectly alright Bella, I understand. Your father and I were just talking about how we can help you. Am I right in thinking you didn't eat whilst you were there?'

'Sic, I didn't drink either.'

'My goodness, it's a miracle you're still with us. What about your menstrual cycle?'

'It stopped.'

'Must be a result of the starvation. Venom does eventually stop the heart but it also keeps it working mid-change.'

'So, the venom that's hurting me is the only thing keeping me alive.'

'That's a possibility.'

'So if it stopped, I would die.'

'That's a possibility.'

I felt myself start to break down again, if it was this pain or death I knew that choice I made would hurt everyone.

'If father makes me sleep, will I be asleep for ages again?'

'Probably, your body's desperately trying to repair itself and rest will help that.'

'So, my body could repair itself and the venom would stop of its own accord?'

'That's a possibility.'

'So one day I could die in my sleep?'

He heard the panic in my voice.

'I can't lie to you Bella, that's a possibility. I'm sorry.'

If I'm honest I was more worried about what it would do to my family if I died. Also my mind brought me to what it would do to Felix... At that very moment he came through the door.

'Jane, Marcus wants you.'

She nodded and left. Meus angelus spoke carefully, as if I would break if he spoke too loud.

'Carlisle and I still have things to discuss; do you think you can stay awake a little longer?'

'Sic.'

'Filia, you seem to be talking more, is it getting any easier?'

I shook my head.

'No, I'm just getting easier at coping.'

My voice went on the last word and I buried my face in my hands. I had been so active and it was all catching up with me.

'Felix would you...?'

The next thing I knew his strong arms were around me, I heard meus angelus leave before my ears were filled with the sound of my own screams.

Carlisle POV
'Maybe I should go back...'

Poor Aro, I could tell that everything about this situation was upsetting him.

'Let's focus on how we can get her better, yes?'

'Yes, call me selfish but I can't bear the thought of losing her.'

'Look, her body needs to be able to function without the venom. Until then there's no way we can do anything about the pain...'

He saw red then.

'What! You cannot honestly ask me to let her suffer when I could stop it!'

'We can't risk destroying the venom and stopping it from keeping her alive. Even if that wasn't the case normal painkillers are designed for the human body therefore they'll have no effect on vampire venom.'

'I just can't stand seeing her in so much pain.'

He sat down looking defeated.

'I have to be honest, it could take a while and even then her body might not fully recover.'

'So she could be in pain for the rest of her life?'

'That's a...'

He banged his fist on the desk in rage.

'DON'T SAY THAT'S A POSSIBILITY!'

'Aro, listen...'

'No. Get out. Get out right now.'

F POV
When she stopped screaming she just sat there in my arms for hours. I have to admit I liked it. I liked being able to offer her some comfort.

'Fix?'

'Yeah?'

'I'd like to go outside.'

I saw the resolve in her eyes and found it hard to deny her. I picked her up in the same way I had when I first found her and took her to some doors which lead to the gardens.

'Are you sure?'

She smiled and nodded. I put her down and steadied her with an arm around her waist. After I pushed the door open with my free arm I heard her gasp.

'Oh my god... it's the sun!'

She hadn't been outside for so long I started to worry if it was too much for her to take in.

'I had almost forgotten, it's so... bright.'

She started to walk forward on her own. I stayed close behind her and soon enough the pain brought her to the ground. I caught her half-way down and lowered her gently to the ground. She ran her hand along the grass and started crying. She turned to me.

'It's so beautiful.'

She lay down on the grass and curled up on her side. I lay so that I was facing her back. I slowly walked my fingers over her hip then my hand rested on her abdomen.

'Your hand's cold, it feels nice.'

No time like the present.

'Bella, I'm not quite sure how to say this...'

'You don't have to, I understand. You don't have to look after me.'

'That's not what I meant.'

I sighed. It was kind of now or never.

'Look Bella, I think you're... wonderful. More than wonderful, you're smart and brave and beautiful. I... I love you.'

She turned around to look at me in awe. We both sat up. I gently placed my hands on her waist and her hand came up to my face. I leaned into her touch and she ran her fingers through my hair. Her other hand caressed my cheek. I stroked the back of her head and slowly pressed my lips to hers. The kiss only lasted for a few seconds but it left us breathless. There was a silence that lasted for too long.

'Bella? I'm sorry if I was too forward, I just...'

'Fix.'

The word was barely above a whisper but it had so much meaning. I heard her heart rate accelerate as she kissed me. Our second kiss was longer than our first; it was less tentative, more... familiar. We broke apart and I cried. We both cried because we knew we would always have each other. I laughed.

'I'm supposed to be this big, tough guard, not being very tough right now am I?'

She moved so that she was sat closer to me.

'Felix, you're perfect.'

She sighed.

'I'm so tired.'

I scooped her up into my arms.

'Shall we go inside then? We can always come back out here.'

She nodded. Looking across the gardens I could tell that we would find a special place here. When we got back inside I put her down and she got on the bed. She tried to get in her arms shook. She sighed and her eyes filled with tears.

'I shouldn't be so tired just from showering and being outside. I'm so weak.'

'Bella you're you not weak. You're in a terrible amount of pain. I wish I could make it all go away baby, if my ashes could stop your pain then I'd jump into the nearest fire.'

I helped her into bed and stroked her hair until Aro arrived.

A POV
I smiled when I saw Felix with her in the bed. I could sense that something had changed between them.

'Do you want to sleep now? You will probably be out of it for a while.'

'I'm tired angelus; I need to sleep even if I could never wake up.'

'Please don't think like that, you'll get better I promise.'

I hated lying to her but I couldn't distress her anymore.

'You two have my blessing by the way.'

They smiled at each other in an adorable way; I knew he would make her happy. She fell asleep in his arms.

AN – I've had a horrible few days and reviews cheer me up *hint hint*

Skaramoosh x