Meus Dulce Angelus – Chapter 21 - Proud

AN – Many thanks for all the reviews, keep 'em coming! Things start getting a little brighter in this chapter.
Skaramoosh x

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Proud

A POV

Bella woke up after a few days. Once again Jane helped her clean up and she sat on the edge of the bed. Carlisle looked happier than he had in a long time.

'You ready?'

'Absolutely.'

Felix kept his arm around her as she took the medication.

'I'm not sure how long they will take to kick in, just try and relax.'

She turned to Felix and sighed.

'You need to hunt.'

'I...'

'No excuses. I'm not letting you starve.'

I felt a surge of pride course through me at her selflessness.

'Alright, I'll be as quick as I can. I love you.'

'I love you too.'

They kissed and he left. Bella stayed sat on the bed, staring at her hands. I noticed they were shaking.

'Are you afraid?'

'I just... I don't know what's gonna happen.'

I held her carefully and we sat in silence for a few minutes.

'Woah this is weird.'

'Filia? What is it?'

She grabbed my arm and focused on her breathing.

'It's like... the pain is still there but it's not as... intense.'

She cried with what I hoped to be joy and hugged me. I hugged her back, still being careful. Jane poked her head around the door.

'Hey Bella, some of us are watching a movie, want to join us?'

'I'd love to.'

I smiled and let her go.

J POV
On the way Bella told me about the medication. It was obvious that she was still in some pain but she did seem a lot happier. We reached out own private movie theatre and she walked inside. Alec ran over to her and hugged her, as did Demetri.

'I've missed you guys.'

She sat on the sofa, curled up against the armrest. Demetri picked out some old film; no one was bothered by what it was, as long as our sister was with us. About halfway through Felix walked in. Bella grinned at him and positioned herself on his lap when he sat down. Eventually they started making out; they looked very comfortable with each other. I didn't realise anything was up until Alec burst out laughing. (AN – 'up')

'Having fun Felix?'

Bella blushed.

'Fix you're... urm... hard.'

'I'm sorry.'

'Don't be, I understand.'

They carried on making out for the rest of the movie. When it was over they made their excuses very quickly and rushed off.

F POV
She was so much more animated and I loved it. We got into her bedroom and sat on the bed to start making out again. I wanted to show her how much I loved her without scaring her so I let her take control. I had no control over myself though. Especially when we lay down so that she was on top of me.

'Now, if you're gonna do that, you can't blame for getting excited.'

She giggled and kissed me again. Then she looked away.

'Why would you want me though?'

'Bella, you're beautiful.'

'But I'm not... pure. I've been used. I'm not an innocent virgin.'

'Look, the way I see it, what that thing did to you... that wasn't making love. There was no love involved in that. I know that the physical aspect of it happened but what happened mentally... that wasn't making love, that was rape and there's a difference between the two. If we were to make love, it would be because we love each other and not because one of us is sick in the head.'

'Fix...'

She stroked my hair.

'That's really sweet but... I'm not ready.'

'That's okay.'

'Are you sure? I know you must have... needs.'

'My only need is making you happy. Besides, I'd find it hard to get pleasure from forcing you to do something you didn't want to do.'

'Felix, I love you so much. I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable.'

'It's alright; could you just get off me for a second?'

It was easier to concentrate without her all over me. She put her head on my chest and we talked for a while. After some prodding she got me to tell her about my human life.

'I had a good childhood. From what I remember my father was a military figure of some kind, he was my hero. I wanted to be in the army because of him. I didn't realise the consequences, I just thought it was cool. I was an only child, which was rare where I grew up. I never had anyone to play with so I put all my time into getting ready for the army. I guess I just wanted to make my father proud. I... I can only just remember my mother's face.'

'Did you have a wife?'

'No. I spent too much time training to have anything to do with romance. After all that I only spent a year in the army before I was shot. Then Caius found me and...'

'Caius? Caius changed you?'

'Yes. When I woke up I was here and I got started in the guard, my size gave me an advantage and I went up in the ranks. I was the one to change Demetri...'

'Really?'

'Yes. That's partially why we're such good friends. I've been in the guard ever since. Although, of course, my life never really got started until you came into it.'

I kissed her happily. Aro walked in smiling fondly at us.

'I'm sorry to drag you away Felix but you're needed on guard duty.'

I hated the idea of leaving her but I knew I still had to be a Volturi. I kissed her one more time before leaving.

A POV
She gazed after him looking slightly flushed, in a good way. I sat in the bed and put my hand on her shoulder.

'I know you're very happy with Felix but... please don't forget me.'

'How could I ever forget meus angelus?'

She hugged me.

'I'm sorry if I haven't been spending as much time with you as I should have.'

'I understand that you and Felix are in love and that that must be really exciting, I felt the same way when I found Sulpicia. Still, it would be nice to spend some time with my precious filia.'

She agreed and we went to my study. I played the piano for a while; it had been so long since she had heard any sort of music she sat there captivated by every note.
'Angelus, do you know how long this medication lasts?'
'No I'm afraid I don't. Why? Do you think it's wearing off?'
'No, I just thought that... it could wear off and I wouldn't have any warning.'

'When that happens you need to let someone know.'

'Not to be crude, but I think it'll be fairly obvious. I've heard that pain is worse after it's been dulled for a while.'

I grimaced at that, she didn't deserve any of this.

'I know it must be so hard for you filia, but you need to get better and this medication will help you do that.'

She nodded. I was so proud of her bravery. I was distracted from my thoughts when she gasped.

'I'm actually hungry!'

I smiled at her delight.

'Let's find you something to eat then.'

AN – So, onto the news *shuffles paper unnecessarily*. Fairly soon I'm going on holiday which is very lovely but I have no access to the internet. So that means no updates for two weeks! I know it's very sad... but there is some good news. While I'm away I'm going to publish some one-shots, some of which will be some alternative plotlines from this fic which ended up not making it. Outtakes so to speak. There might be some other random ones, maybe from other books/films, I'm not sure yet. It depends on how inspired I get while I'm away! Tell me what you think please.

Skaramoosh x