Meus Dulce Angelus – Chapter 31 – Understanding

AN – I hope that you guys are still sticking with this story. Italics are Bella's thoughts.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twiglet.
Skaramoosh x

A POV
I travelled at a normal pace, I feared if I didn't I would scare Bella.
Angelus please don't make me go back into that body, it hurts.

'I understand that, even if you won't let me see those particular memories.'

I have to admit it was exhilarating, finally being able to see inside my daughters mind.
If I let you see those memories you'd feel what I felt. I can't put you through that.

'I just thought... if I knew what you felt like, I could understand what we need to do to help you.'

I know, I can see it in your head.
She giggled and the sound warmed my heart.
Oh angelus this is bizarre. Wonderful, but bizarre.

'That's true. You're safe here filia, and I won't force you to do anything.'

We shared a few moments of silence. She was just glad to be free of the pain. I felt like I needed to feel what she felt, just so that I could know what she went through for all those months.
Angelus I couldn't hurt you like that, I won't.

'Please filia, just for a second.'

Felix shot me a confused look; he could only hear half of the conversation so he had little idea of what was going on.
Are you sure?

'Absolutely.'

I felt her sense of foreboding as she cast her mind back to those months. The next thing I knew I was on my knees, blinded by this excruciating pain. It was a million times worse than I had imagined and that's not an exaggeration. After the longest second of my existence it stopped.
Angelus I'm sorry.

'How did you... how did you even manage to speak? How did you manage to breathe?'

I still don't know.

'Aro?'

Felix looked both worried and confused in equal measure.

'I asked Bella to let me feel the pain she went through.'

F POV
When we finally got inside Bella's room I went and sat down next to her body. This whole situation was so weird; I couldn't quite get my head around it. Aro was sat in the chair next to the window; occasionally he would mutter something in response to Bella's thoughts. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous. I wanted to have that connection with her as well. I looked over to see him with his eyes closed and his head against the window. I approached him slowly.

'Aro? Are you... sleeping?'

'She is. I'm watching her dream.'

He smiled.

'It's just... everyone she loves... looking happy.'

I found it impossible to be jealous when the woman I loved was so amazing.

'She's so selfless and sweet.'

He nodded. I sat down on the floor and wished I could hold her again.

'You know when you said I was like a son to you? Did you mean that?'

'Of course I did Felix.'

He put his hand on my shoulder in a comforting gesture. He answered my biggest question.

'I can't make her go back into that body while it's still broken. Maybe if there was some way to mend it so that she could live in it.

'We could ask Carlisle if there's anything he can do?'

Aro nodded and I went to find him. He carefully examined the body and explained that he could put her on life support.

'We can use machines to keep her body alive then it can heal itself. I could get the venom out of her system which would involve having to remove a lot of her blood. I trust there is plenty of blood here?'

'Of course.'

'Then I can get blood back in her system. There are lots of risks with this, it might not even work.'

'It's worth a try.'

Carlisle nodded.

'It will take a while for her body to recover enough for her to be in it. I can't know for sure but I would say at least a month. I'll get the necessary equipment now if that's alright?'

Aro nodded and I went with Carlisle. If there was anything I could do to help Bella than I was sure as Hell going to do it.

A POV
Bella was confused when she woke up; it took me a while to reassure her that she wasn't dead. She saw the conversation with Carlisle in my mind.

Do you think it will work?

'I don't know. I just want what's best for you filia.'

I know angelus, but what if it doesn't work?

'Well I am more than happy for you to stay here, but Felix wants to able to hold his mate, amongst other things.'

I know, I saw into his mind when you did. It surprised me.
'Why?'
I didn't realise just how much he loved me.

'Filia, look into my mind, look at my memories. I've been inside the mind of almost everyone here. Look at how much everyone loves you.'

I felt the wave of positive emotions inside her and I didn't feel like such a failure. She watched with me as Carlisle went about trying to mend her body. When he had done all he could for the time being he left. I couldn't even try to fully explain where Bella was, I merely let everyone know that she was alive and she wasn't in any pain. Felix kept himself busy, I could tell he missed being able to have physical contact with her.
I wish I could stop Felix from being sad.
'There's nothing you can do about that, all we can do is wait and see if your body heals itself.'

F POV
Despite her presence in Aro's mind it felt like Bella was dead. I couldn't hold her, or kiss her or even talk to her. Every day I bombarded Carlisle with questions, I must've really got on his nerves even if he was too kind to show it. Eventually his patience wore thin.

'Look Felix, if I discover anything new you and Aro will be the first to know. I'm working as hard as I can.'
'I'll stop distracting you.'

I wandered aimlessly through the castle trying to find something to do. I just wanted to have my baby back.

AN – I know I had been away for a long time so I kinda expected to get less reviews... but I'm back now. I'll get the next chapter up as quick as I can.
Skaramoosh x