Authors Notes: Thanks to Jacobismineduh, Blackwater Crazii and Brankel 1 for reviewing my last Chapter. To answer your questions This isn't a Blackwater fanfiction sorry, Its awesome that you have a friend called Sora annndddd its good to know u hate renesmee :P
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Book 1
Leah
Chapter 1
Relief
My house was the only house on our small street with the lights still on. I could hear Seth's happy voice from inside consoling my mother. It had been three days since I had walked up the front steps or touched the door knob.
My jeans where torn my shirt in no better state. My cloths represented how I was feeling, jagged and torn apart but now oozing with guilt for putting the two people I loved the most through the same agony I had experienced over the last three days.
I admired Seth in a way, after all these years he remained cheerful for the sake of others and just like his age, he hadn't changed one bit. Mother on the other hand was a different story. Ten years ago she used to be stronger and able to tolerate a lot more than she can today.
She never really got over the death of my Father and as old age softened her she became more venerable to her emotions. Obviously these last three days had pushed her to the limit and it was all my fault that she stayed up all night crying just as Seth had told me.
I could never forgive myself for putting my mother through that pain and I owed the world to Seth for supporting her. As I opened the door and saw Sue lift her head. Her red, bloodshot eyes took a painful stab at my heart. The moments she saw my face her eyes brightened and she smiled as if I was already forgiven. That stabbed me again.
Mother ran across the kitchen and hugged me so tight I could barely breathe. It felt good to be in my mother's arms again but the sharp, painful stabbing continued.
My body hardened "Im fine mom really" I said pulling away trying to make the pain stop.
Sue's hands dropped, we stood there for a moment looking into each others eyes, agony streaked all over her face. I felt horrible. I started to feel the tears welling up in my sore eyes; I couldn't put my family through more pain by having them see me cry it hurt me too much.
I walked up the stairs as evenly as I could, trying to hold back the tears until I was safely locked in my room. I lay on my bed and shut my eyes as the tears dribbled continuously down the sides of my face. Everything I did would result into some form of misery, that's half of the reason why I was dying inside.
If I stayed here Sue and Seth would have to watch me in my depression while if I ran away again, Jacob and Seth would feel my agony plus Sue would be worried again. I knew either way I would cause pain for my friends and family. I lay as still as possible, wondering if maybe I could just drift off into a world of nothingness.
As the tears dampened my pillow I heard a light tap on my door. I didn't answer I kept trying to float away but the door creaked open. According the rhythm of the person's footsteps I knew it was Seth.
"Hey Leah" he said in a soft, serious voice.
His voice didn't have his usual spark, obviously something was upsetting him most probably something that I had done. I didn't say anything although I opened my shiny eyes and sat up a little.
He smiled a weary smile not expecting me to react to his statement.
"I wanted to talk to you about mom" He didn't pause for my reaction now but for a moment to collect his thoughts "please don't leave her again" he begged "you don't know how hard it was for me to watch her in such pain"
I still kept silent while processing the information he had just given me. After a while I knew it would be impossible for me to leave them after what Seth had said even if I wanted to.
"Seth" I said, my voice thick from all the crying "I can't promise you I won't leave again"
With those words Seth's face fell and the stabbing began again.
"But I will promise that I will never leave for more then a day" I couldn't see him like that, I had already caused him enough pain for a while, the least I could do is try to make Seth happy for all I owed him. That shouldn't be too difficult.
His eyes shot up, his white teeth glistened and that happy little spark came back.
"Thanks Leah" Seth cheered and he left the room.
That seemed appropriate, leaving for the majority of the day yet sparing Sue the worry by returning at night and not allowing her to see me in pain throughout the day. I think it could ease some of the misery of the people I loved.
I hauled my body up, my feet felt like led, and walked across my small room to reach my Dresser. I pulled out my pajamas and slowly walked into my bathroom.
I got into the shower, I intensely washed my hair and scrubbed out all the dirt, and then after I was finished washing I sat on the shower floor until the warm water turned into icy cold droplets that sizzled against my hot skin.
That became uncomfortable after a few minutes. By the time I climbed into bed it was 3 am. I turned on the small fuzzy TV in my room that perched on top of my dresser. I lay under the covers and just like before I tried to drift of into the world of nothingness but this time I succeeded.
I had a nightmare, but it wasn't the normal nightmare of the day on the beach when Sam had told me he had fallen for my cousin. No, this was a new unfamiliar nightmare but equally horrifying. Tonight's nightmare was about Seth and Sue.
Over and over I saw there agonized faces flashing past me and I couldn't turn away as if I was strapped to an invisible chair with my eyelids taped open being forced to watch my family, it was like some curl form of torture, I was completely helpless.
The final part of my nightmare was last nigh on the cliff. It wasn't quite as treacherous as the first half of my dream. Jacob and I sat on the cliff together
It is like nothing you will ever experience, as if nothing but that person is connecting you to this earth, nothing but them really matters anymore and you look at them like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
I remembered every word, the way he said it and the exact way he looked. Totally devoted as he remembered the first time he laid eyes on his dearly beloved bloodsucker.
I guess Bella wasn't the only one with a love for parasites, at least while she was still human, what's the difference now. My eyes flashed open, my breathing was fast and my skin felt hotter then normal.
I sighed heavily; the world of nothingness had a limit and once it had expired everything would come rushing back. I heard Sue talking on the phone. I had a hunch it was Charlie, he called almost every morning. My curiosity got the better of me as I drifted to the top of the steps to listen more carefully.
"Oh yes she came home last night" Mum said sounding a lot better then the last time I had heard her voice "no need to worry" she wasn't just talking to Charlie when she said that but also to herself.
I floated down the stairs. Sue turned around and smiled warmly. Her forgiveness was easier to tolerate now that I was well rested, I was so grateful for that so I smiled back which made her happy. I was so desperate to restore things with her. I spotted the morning paper. I flicked through it until something caught my eye.
WARNING: Wild Animal Sighted in Forks
Last night, the 1st of August Near the Western side of Forks there was a large amount of destruction spotted by a group of hikers setting up camp. Investigations where carried out by the police later that night. Evidence proves that the destruction was recent, only a few hours old. Giant paw prints and blood led the police men to believe that the destruction was caused by a wild animal. Shreds of clothing where also found at the crime scene which suggests that there may be victims. There theory was supported by a sighting later around 1 am; a local fisherman saw a large black shape lurking around the pond while he was in his fishing shed and he later discovered that the beast had broken into his house and had eaten all the mean in the kitchen and destroyed several rooms in the house. The prints and blood that was found in by the pond and in the house matched the prints and blood in the forest. The blood has been taken to a lab in Seattle for further investigation and research. Some people believe that the mysterious pack of oversized wolves had returned although they where smaller and only move in a pack. Police advise that citizens of Forks and La Push remain out of the woods until further notice.
I put the paper down. I could only imagine what my face looked like, shocked, confused and hard. The western side of Forks, that was close to where the Cullen's lived. Seth hadn't left La Push last night and Jacob went straight back to Renesmee.
I was positive that Sam and the other wolves wouldn't do such a horrible thing, could they? Possibilities kept running though my head although none of them made sense. Before I could think of at least one possible theory Seth tapped on my back.
"Leah, Jacob and Rudy are outside" he said, the look on his face told me that he already knew and hadn't ruled up any conclusions either.
Uh! I really hated Paul's little brother Rudy, the newest member of our pack. I didn't see why Paul and Rudy didn't get along, they where so alike in attitude and appearance. Rudy was worse though, but I didn't blame him, being turned into a werewolf at the age of thirteen must have been difficult for him.
So instead of joining Sam's pack, like Paul, he joined ours to get as far away from Paul as possible. I knew it was selfish but I was glad I wasn't the most hated wolf in the pack now. I wasn't the only one happy about Rudy, Seth was pleased that he wasn't the kid of the pack anymore although he had been promoted to babysitter when Jacob couldn't keep an eye on him.
That made me think, Jacob normally keeps Rudy at his side because he is so young, although last night Rudy wasn't with Jacob, could this animal really have been Rudy?
His eyes glanced to the open paper in front of me and nodded "come on, Jacob may know what is going on."
Seth led me through our small house and out the back door. Our backyard was very plain. It was a flat, grass covered oval shape surrounded by an outline of rocks and the forest. Sitting on one of the rocks was Jacob and Rudy. I scanned Jacob's face looking for any signs of him maybe having more information on the subject. Nothing, a complete poker face.
At that moment all hope of finding out the truth to this mystery vanished. Jacob stood up as we approached him, still nothing displayed on his face.
Seth beamed a smile up at Jacob completely ignoring "any ideas about what that animal thing was? Because Leah and I can't think of anything" he chirped
Jacob shook his head "Although I do know it wasn't a Vampire" his voice was just as blank as his expression.
If only I was a wolf and understood what he was thinking, sometimes being in each others heads had its advantages. Rudy stood by Jacob's side, he hated always being on probation.
"How do you know that?" I asked, to me my voice sounded desperate, If he was going to make me run patrol around the Cullen's house then I would rather him give us the order sooner then later, at least it would give me and excuse to get out of the house.
"After me and Renesmee found out about it we headed over to the Cullen's house, Alice tried to see if it would attack again but it was another blind spot for her. It could be a Werewolf or another half breed or something else" Jacob said, this time his perfect poker face failed as his eyebrows turned up casting ripples of worry over his face.
Despite this disturbing news Seth's beaming smile still continued "So what do you want us to do boss?"
Jacob didn't hesitate to answer Seth's eager question "Seth I want you to go find Sam and tell him everything and see if they have any further development on the situation" Seth nodded obediently, still smiling, and dashed back into the house, probably to tell Sue that we where going out.
"And Leah, you're the fastest" He smiled, knowing how much I like that
I smiled as well, almost as wide as Seth, I hadn't smiled in a long time. I was the fastest and I loved being acknowledged for it, I used to be the underdog of Sam's pack , being a girl and everything, being the fastest was the only thing that I had.
"I want you to run patrol around the Cullen's house and around the crime scenes also if you pick up any strange scents follow them, as for me I will be with the Cullen's just incase that thing comes back and tries to attack again. Promise me you won't run off again"
My smile faded as I was reminded of my nightmare but I nodded "Yes, oh mighty Alpha" I snarled my body quivering, I was eager to go, he just rolled his eyes at my remark.
I was way too eager to go, accidentally phasing ripping through my pajamas. Great. I let out a whimper, Jacob seemed to get the message.
"Don't worry I will get you some cloths and leave them under a tree, just go" he said urgently. I nudged him with my nose and bounded into the forest.
Running seemed to always clear my head. It was as if I had outrun all my worries, if I could outrun them then I could outrun almost anyone, and when they where gone I felt like myself again, the old Leah before all this relationship crap came along and ruined my life.
I knew the pain was still there and I was beginning to believe that the pain would never be relieved, but running was like a pain killer for me, it only lasted for a couple of hours but it felt good to be relieved from the agony for short periods of time.
I concentrated on the rhythm of my strides as I crossed over the treaty line and made my over to the usual route I took when I patrolled the Cullen's house.
Leah have you found anything? It was Jacob, Rudy running silently by his side
Im running the usual course around the Cullen house I replied
Rudy you take over, run the perimeter of the Cullen's house Jacob urged, he was in a rush to get some answers.
Really? Rudy asked, ecstatic for being trusted on his own
Yes! Now go kid! Jacob snapped
Ok, so where would you prefer me to run? I asked
Maybe around the crime scenes and pick up any scents he repeated
Well alright I thought skidding to a halt
What about you Seth? Jacob asked
Well the scent of the pack is leading towards Emily's house so I think their there
I tried my best not to think about Emily and Sam and the mention of Emily's name and concentrate more on picking my pace up and sniffing the ground for new and interesting scents.
Leah, are you ok? Seth asked wary of my reaction
Sorry I apologized for my negative thoughts.
Something new came to me, a new smell, something sweet and floral but something was wrong, a familiar scent was covering the sweet scent. Blood. The thing that had passed this way was hurt, severely.
Leah, what is it? Jacob panicked
I found a scent a new one I replied equally as panicked as he was
Ok! Jacob commanded Seth! Change of plan, forget Sam and head over to the Cullen's
Forget Sam that sounded nice.
Yes sir! Seth chimed making a U turn and headed out way
Leah, go see what that thing is, but be careful He ordered
Have you finally lost your mind Jacob! I protested what if it is dangerous
Im about 5 minutes behind you don't worry He encouraged
I sighed and bolted down the trail. You can take it Leah, whatever it is, it can't be stronger then a werewolf and anyway its hurt there is nothing to worry about.
The smell of the thing was getting stronger, I was getting closer. And then I saw it. A 17 year old boy, with straight brown hair that was grown an inch longer then his ears and his nose was dusted with light freckles.
He only wore a pair of jeans that where soaked in his own blood. The boy didn't look like he had much muscle and his flat stomach and thin arms covered in deep cuts. His left leg was bent in an unnatural position, it was broken.
But despite his injures he was breathing evenly and sleeping peacefully as if he wasn't hurt at all. That wasn't all though, this boy, this injured boy, meant something to me.
I suddenly didn't care if he was dangerous, I had to help him. Just by seeing this boy I suddenly realized what Renesmee meant to Jacob, Bella meant to Edward and even what Emily meant to Sam. I remembered what Jacob had told me last night.
It is like nothing you will ever experience, as if nothing but that person is connecting you to this earth, nothing but them really matters anymore and you look at them like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.
And that's how I felt, nothing could tear me away form him not even if Sam told me he loved me. For the first time in a long time I was truly happy, feeling like myself again without running at 100 miles per hour.
My permanent relief. I felt the strongest bond I had ever felt with another person. I lay next to the boy whose name I didn't even know yet and waited for him to wake up.