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Aching inside

Sara's POV

"Yah!"

Nazlyn ran. I made her ran as fast as she could. I wanted to get away from Prince Gil. I wanted to be far away from him. I desperately wanted to be far from him that I didn't even stop and wipe the tears off my face.

Why did I even listen to them? Why did I tell Prince Gil? At least now I know what Prince Gil really feels. God…how could I have been so stupid! I shouldn't have thought that he love me too.

Finally. We were back at the castle. I headed for the stables, and once we were there, I let Joshua take care of Nazlyn. Joshua is the new stable boy. He now takes care of Nazlyn.

I went back inside the castle only to come face to face with Dorothy.

"Oh my goodness. Sara…why are you crying?"

Suddenly, anger boiled up inside me. I don't know why but it did. "Gee, I don't know…probably because you guys told me to go and tell him what I feel about him only to be rejected by him! I shouldn't have told him…I shouldn't have." I felt more tears. Why was I so emotional when it came to men?

"Hush now…don't cry. Please Sara…don't cry. At least you took the risk. Now you wouldn't be bombarded with "what ifs" all your life." Said Dorothy as she hugged me.

"I…have to go." I said. I wanted an excuse to go and fall apart on my own.

"Okay…" said Dorothy as she released me.

I went and ran up the stairs. There, I came face to face with none other than Prince Vincent.

"Ahh…what are you doing crying, my dear Sara?" he said

"That is none of your business, your majesty."

He stroked my cheek. "I admire women like you…such grace and such beauty…with such intelligence. I also admire your…bravery. But what I admire most about you is your ability to stand up to people. Especially to a prince."

All of a sudden, I found the courage to speak up to him. "Stop touching me, or I swear. You won't even have hands to touch me."

I thought he was going to stop. But he didn't. He just continued stroking my cheek. "My, my…You are one feisty woman."

I do not remember what made me do it…but I do remember my knee hitting his groin.

He winced in pain. "Sara! You'll pay. I'll make you pay for doing this. You better prepare for jail you woman! I'll make them put you in jail for assaulting a prince!"

"…And what will you tell them? That the reason I assaulted you was because you were harassing me? You better get out of my way if you don't want to be reported to your own parents." I scoffed.

Immediately, he went out of my way, and I went to my room.

Have you ever had a broken heart? Of course not. You're a diary. You can't feel.

Today, I was rejected by Prince Gil. I don't even know why I told him what I was feeling. I don't know why…but I took Dorothy's advice. I took the plunge. I took the risk. I told him.

I should have known that he didn't feel the same way about me. I shouldn't have told him when I knew that I was going to be rejected. I mean, look at the facts. He isn't a prince that would just disregard rules for somebody he loves. He isn't going to make the kingdom and his family look bad for a maid. For someone like…me.

Am I crazy for thinking of various ways to kill myself? I think not for I have a valid reason. Maybe I'll go decapitate myself…but I would need help. Maybe I should poison myself…or maybe cut my wrist…Maybe I'll borrow a gun and shoot myself.

Now, as I wonder about various ways to kill myself…I immediately think about Prince Gil. Will he come to my funeral? Will he cry knowing that I killed myself because of him? I think not. Perhaps he would only be there because I served his family last.

Maybe I should start writing my suicide note. Hmm…maybe I'll hang myself.

Wiping my tears, I closed my diary.

A.N: Hmm…what do you think of the chapter? =)