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Mistakes

Grissom's POV

God…what did I do? I can't believe I told her that. It wasn't supposed to come out like that…I shouldn't have told her that I didn't feel the same way about her because I do. I do love her…but we cannot be. I should have rejected her nicely. Or better yet, I shouldn't have rejected her.

"Yah!"

I made John run as fast as he could. I arrived at the castle twenty minutes later. I led John to the stables, and then I went back inside the castle to be greeted by Dorothy.

"Dorothy, have you seen Sara?" I asked

"Prince Gil…what have you done? I saw her…she was crying. How can you do that to her?"

"I know that I shouldn't have rejected her…I know. And I'm sorry." I said

"I'm not saying that you shouldn't reject her. I'm just saying you shouldn't have rejected her quite so terribly." Said Dorothy

"In my defense…is there an un-terrible way to reject somebody? No. There isn't."

"You're right…your majesty." Said Dorothy

"Can you tell me where Sara is?"

"I think she's in her room."

"Thanks." I said.

I ran as fast as I could. Within seconds, I was knocking on her bedroom door.

"Come in." said Sara.

I turned the door knob and went inside to see Sara lying down on her bed with tears streaming down her face. She was staring at the ceiling.

I went beside her and started to wipe her tears but she pushed my hand away.

"Hello Prince Gil…I know that I haven't fed Hank…I'm so sorry…I should go and feed him now…"

I shook my head. "Sara, this isn't about Hank. This…is about us."

"Us? There isn't an "us". You said it yourself." She scoffed

"Did I say that?" I softly asked

"Not in so many words." She said

"Look. I'm sorry for hurting you…I didn't mean to. Look, you and I both know about the rule that states that Princes shall marry Princesses or Duchesses and nothing less. The truth is Sara…I love you too. But I must reject you now before it's too late. If I rejected you when we have a relationship, wouldn't you be more hurt?" I asked

"I know that I would be hurt. But I knew that from the start. I knew what the consequences were before I told you what I felt. Honestly, I wouldn't care if I were hurt. I just want to be with you. Even if it is only for a short period of time." She softly said as she wiped her tears. "But hey…I realized my mistake. I was ready to take the risk…but I didn't even ask myself if you were ready to take the risk like me. I guess I have to learn the answer the hard way. But may I ask you something? If you love me…as you said. Why aren't you willing to take the risk?" she asked

"I will not take the risk because I know that my family and the whole kingdom will look bad just because of a mistake that I did." I answered.

"Some mistakes were meant to be made. I knew from the start that you were a good prince. A prince who values his family. It just never occurred to me that you care more about your family than yourself. Look…just please go." She whispered softly.

"Okay." I said. I quietly let myself out the door only to hear Sara's sobs.

With a broken heart, I made my way to my bedroom.

I have really messed up my life. Not only mine but Sara's too. I told her I loved her…and yet I can't take the risk like her. Catherine once told me that only once in a lifetime will I meet somebody special. I didn't agree with her then. I do now. I am even lucky that I even met two special women in my life; Sara and Isabelle.

She asked me why I will not take the risk…like her if I really loved her. I told her one of my reasons; that I could not take the risk knowing that my family and the whole kingdom will look bad if they were to find out about our relationship. But I did not tell her my second reason; that I cannot take the risk because I still feel guilty…Guilty for loving another woman when Isabelle can be somewhere out there. I know that it is ridiculous…but I feel guilty because of my lack of faith in Isabelle.

…But what if Isabelle really is gone…forever?

If she is gone…I'm making one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I'm not taking a risk for Sara for Isabelle who may be gone. But if she isn't gone, then I'm not taking a risk for Sara for Isabelle who I may not even find anymore.

…But if I do take the risk for Sara…I'll be overcome with guilt the rest of my life and my family and the kingdom of Blymarix, our kingdom…will look bad in the other kingdoms' eyes. And I do not want that to happen.

What did I do to deserve this? My life is seriously…confusing right now.

I heard someone knocking on my door.

"Just a minute!" I said. Sighing, I closed my diary and walked towards the door. I opened it only to see Sara.

"Sara…what are you doing here? If it's about Hank, I already fed him."

"No…no…it's not about Hank. May I come in Prince Gil?" she asked

"Yes you may." I said, opening the door further to let her in.

"Listen…I was thinking about what you said…About you not able to take the risk…and I'm fine with it. But…I should at least get a consolation prize for struggling to tell you what I feel." Said Sara.

I don't remember what happened but then suddenly, she was kissing me.

…And I don't know why, but I didn't stop her.

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