Author's note: I'm trying my best in posting a chapter in this fanfic story, while at the same time, continuing "An Agent in Disguise." So please, bear with me. I might not be able to post as often as I would like…but what could I do? BTW…reviews help in motivating me to post a chapter sooner so…you know what to do. =)

Disclaimer: I don't own CSI.

After three weeks

Three weeks passed by, and I barely noticed it. I had so much fun with the prince when I'm with him. During those three weeks, Prince Gil recovered nicely, and I am very thankful for that. He didn't scratch himself (under my supervision, of course…) which is why he doesn't have any scars or spots.

Tomorrow will be the most dreaded day of my life. Tomorrow will be the day when Prince Gil would choose a wife for himself. A suitable, caring, and has-the-same-status-in-society wife. What's worse is that I'm supposed to be the speaker for the ball, since I'm Prince Gil's personal maid.

I feel like a fool, still pining for Prince Gil when he clearly isn't meant to be with me. When clearly, he would find himself a wife tomorrow, someone who'll be the mother of his children someday. Someone he'll love and care for. Someone who isn't me.

And it hurts. It hurts because…it isn't me. What hurts more is that we couldn't be together and he's finding a wife other than me when he clearly reciprocates my feelings.

These past three weeks, I had not only been worried and sad for Prince Gil…I had also been annoyed. Annoyed by the other prince in the castle, Prince Vincent.

He constantly spoke to me, always tried to get me to go out on another dinner with him, and he always tried to grab my attention by trying to impress me. He impressed me alright. He impressed me with his annoyingness. However, I do not think that impressing me with his annoyingness is his goal. What's more is he was always trying to separate me from Prince Gil which was annoying. He was also going wherever I go, (except my bedroom and the bathroom of course, thank God.) as if he was some stalker! And I'm beginning to think that he is a stalker…and you know what? It's beginning to freak me out.

Prince Gil's friends are still here…and at this moment, they are with Prince Gil. Probably making up for lost time.

Do you think that maybe…if I tell Prince Gil about my feelings, he won't go to the ball? That if I confess that I realized how much I loved him, he would not find a wife?

I know deep inside myself that even if I did that, Prince Gil would still reject me like he did before. I know that he needs to move on. Even though I know it inside, I still keep on hoping. But still, I feel selfish. I only want him to be happy. But why can't I just let him be?

Probably because I know that I'm not going to be the one making him happy for the rest of his life.

Sara sighed, and closed her diary shut. She closed here eyes, willing the tears not to fall. But it still fell. And Sara's body shook once more with racked sobs because of her tears.

Because her falling tears, those she willed not to fall, reminded her of the things she couldn't stop from happening no matter how great she wanted it not to happen.

A.N: I know, it's short…but you know, reviews might make me post a longer chapter. =)