Chapter 11

PAUL

I was wating for Alexandria to come to my room to talk. She's pissed off at me. It's an obvious fact. It's been raining all day too. Perfect kind of weather to go with what I'm feeling today. I see now that it's going to be difficult to talk to her with how upset she is. I've never seen her this mad before. She's always been pretty calm and doesn't really get upset. When she does, it's very mild. What bothers me the most is that she doesn't even know that I love her. I don't want to lose her before she knows how I feel about her. I heard a loud knock at the door and knew that it was Alexandria. I opened the door and saw her standing in front of me. Her eyes were cold. Her face didn't have any emotion. She still had on the black dress that she had on earlier, and she was still in her heels. Her eyes were glassy and looked like she could've been crying and her hair was a bit messed up as if she's been running her fingers through them. I stepped aside to let her come in. I told her that she could take a seat and she sat down on the chair that was near the dresser. She crossed her legs and said nothing. As if she was waiting to hear something from me.

"Why did you fight him?" she asked quietly, finally breaking the silence.

"I told you. I let my temper get the best of me." I replied.

"So I should just let me temper get the best of me, too?"

"You don't have a bad temper."

"Anger Management works wonders." she replied. "If it wasn't for that, I could be just like Randy in the temper department. Maybe worse. Would you like someone to try me without me doing anything I learned in Anger Management to see?"

"No. That's okay." I answered. If this is how she is when she's upset, I don't want to see her if she losses her temper. "Can you at least let me explain?"

"Go ahead. I want to fully understand why you broke the promise you made me. Did the things that he said or did really make you lose your temper?"

"I lost my temper okay? You think that I like breaking my promises to people, especially you? I didn't want to."

"So why did you? Wait, let me guess. You lost your temper. It got the best of you. Still doesn't make up for the fact that you broke your promise to me. How am I supposed to react? I'm supposed to be happy about it and not want to beat the hell out of someone right now to get this anger out of me? I'm pissed off!"

"I'm pissed off too Alexandria! I'm pissed off at myself because of how this is effecting you! I know how much this hurts you. I bet you that deep down it's tearing you apart."

"You're damn right, it's tearing me apart. I don't want to lose my brother but I'm not going to lose you either. I'm not going to break up with you because that's not what I want. So what the hell am I supposed to do, Paul? You can't force things on him. It's not going to work like that."

"I don't know what to tell you Alex. I don't like you're brother and I can't help the fact that he doesn't like me. But I'm not going to have someone tell me to break up with you because they don't want us to be together. I lost my temper and I broke my promise to you. What can I do to make it up to you?Or maybe you can come talk to me when you're in a better mood, so we can figure out how to deal with this."

"I don't know how to deal with you being this upset. I just want you to be happy."

"I'm happy with you! I just want to know that you really want to be with me. How do I know that you're not going to give in to all of his bullshit and leave me?" She let out a sound of frustration and started to walk away. "Just forget it. Forget that this ever happened. I'll talk to Randy to see what we can work out. I'm sorry."

"You don't have to be sorry about anything." I told her as I stepped in front of her to keep her from walking out that door. She was fighting the tears that were on the verge of falling down her face. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to break my promise to you and hurt you. I don't want to lose you. I want you more than anything. Please. I'll do whatever I can to show you that it's you that I want to be with and that I will not give in to all of the things that he has in store to try to break us up. Anyone for that matter. Please just give me a chance. I know you're mad at me. But please. Please forgive me. Please don't hate me. Not again. I don't know what I'd do if you hated me again. I know for a fact that I won't be able to handle it."

"What are you going to do to show me all of that, Paul? Because I don't want to hate you. Not again."

"You let me know what I can do. I'll do it." I replied quickly. "Just please, don't hate me."

She grabbed my face and pulled me close. I put my hands on her waist. I leaned down a bit and kissed her. That's the first time since yesterday afternoon, that I've kissed her. I picked her up and laid her down on my bed.

"The next time that you make a promise to me, don't break it."

"You got it."

"And please, don't break my heart." she added.

"I won't. I can assure you that I won't. I promise you."

She didn't say anything. She just nodded slightly and kissed me.

ALEXANDRIA

I woke up the next day and realized that I wasn't in my hotel room as I looked around. I felt a strong pair of arms around me tightly. I smiled knowing that this is Paul's room. I felt him tighten his grip a bit and felt him nuzzle against my neck. I turned to face him and saw that he was still sleeping. He looked so peaceful. Not the hectic Paul that I see running around sometimes and hard at work in his office. I softly, ran my fingers up and down his arm as I thought about last night. I remember that I came to his room and that we were arguing. Then I remember being with him in bed as he kissed me and gently placed his hands all over me. The only warmth that I had was from his body and how I wanted more. The way his hands felt against my skin, and the way that his lips felt against me and how gentle he was with me as if he was scared that he would hurt me.

"Paul..." I moaned as he kissed my neck and had my hands pinned above my neck.

"Tell me when to stop" he replied huskily.

"Don't. I don't want you to."

I wish it didn't end. But I'm glad that it happened, and that he wasn't sharing the room with anyone last night. I felt him place a kiss on my head and bought me out of my thoughts. I looked up at him and saw his sleepy smile and his messed up hair. Both, hopefully because of me. We kissed and it caused me to smile when we broke the kiss.

"Did I, you know, hurt you last night?" he asked.

"No, you did not. It was perfect."

"So if we yell at each other and argue, we can do this afterwards?"

I smiled. "Don't flatter yourself, Paul."

He smiled that sleepy smile of his and kissed me. "Come on." He said as he picked me up.

"Where we going?" I asked. I saw that went into the bathroom. I knew I was going to be late to breakfast with Kelly if she decided to wake up early today. We came out of the bathroom about an hour later and wondered how I was going to go back to my room without anyone seeing me or noticing that I have the same dress that I wore last night. I saw one of Paul's shirts and took it. I put it on and a pair of sweats.

"Here." I heard Paul say. I looked up and saw him hand me a pair of slippers. "I always bring a pair just in case I decide to wear them. You can wear them back to your room if you want. They might fit big on you though."

"Thank you." I told him as I smiled. I got my things after I finished getting dressed to leave.

"You have to go?" he asked.

"Yeah. Kelly's probably wondering where I'm at or what happened to me. I haven't talked to her since I came here. So yeah."

"Want me to walk to you to your room?" he asked.

"I'd like that."

When we got to my room, he kissed me without caring who was around.

"You look good in my clothes." He mumbled in between kisses. I smiled in the kiss.

"I'll see you later."

"Alright, baby. See you later."

"Where were you last night?" asked Kelly as I walked in.

"With Paul." I said hoping she didn't freak out.

"With Paul? I thought you were just going to talk to him. I see that you did more than that." she smiled as she looked at my wet hair and the clothes that I was wearing. "And you have a hickie, just in case you didn't notice."

"Are you freaking serious?"

"Yup. I'm standing like really close to you. It's small, so I doubt that anyone would notice. They have to be standing really close to you, like I am, to see it. You two so had makeup sex last night."

I felt my face grow warm.

PAUL

I went back to my room and I couldn't help but smile. Especially when I saw Alex's forgotten panties. I'm glad that we got everything worked out last night. I finished getting ready and went to get some breakfast. I was sitting with Shawn, eating my bagel, when I saw Alexandria come in with Kelly.

"Earth to Paul"

I pulled out of my thoughts and saw Shawn waving his hand in front of my face.

"Huh? Sorry."

"Oh. I see what's having you in a good mood. You had some makeup sex last night with Alexandria huh?"

"You say it like it's not the first time we had sex."

"It was the first time you had sex with her too?"

"Shawn. I don't need everyone knowing." I replied quickly.

"Sorry. But yeah, is everything okay with you two now?" he asked.

"Yeah. We're good now. The last thing I want, is to have her upset again. As sexy as she looks when she's mad, not going to risk it."

"Damn right you won't. She has a bad temper if you didn't know yet. Heard she took anger management to help her with it."

"Yeah. I learned that last night."

"Did you tell her you love her yet?" he asked.

"Nope. Not yet."

"Why not?"

"I don't know. I guess I got freaked out a bit and held back. Didn't think it was the right time either. Maybe when I'm more ready to tell her."

"You've been together for three months. It's about time you tell her." he told me. I felt a pair of arms slide around me neck and a kiss on my cheek. I looked and it was Alexandria.

"Hi"

"Hey baby." I told her giving her a peck on the lips. Her, as well as Kelly, sat down with us. I saw Randy come in with Cody and Ted. After the fight that we had the day before yesterday, I really don't want nothing to do with him. They walked up to our table and I looked at Alexandria wondering what they wanted. I got up as Randy walked up to me.

"Look, I'm not here to fight. I just wanted to say...I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too." I told him as hard it was to say that.

"Alex," he said, "Will you still talk to me?"

"After what you said to me yesterday? What do you think Randy?"

"I'm sorry."

"Okay. That doesn't change what you said. I'm sorry."

He didn't say anything else and left. Cody and Ted followed.

"Everything okay?" I asked her.

"Yeah. I'm fine."

What did Randy say to Alexandria to get her so upset at him that she doesn't even want to talk to him?