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"You're kidding me right?" I shook my head avoiding his eyes. I don't want to see the anger so I shove past him and go up to our bedroom. I didn't hear him walk up the stairs but I haven't heard him leave either. I sat here petting our cat Bam and waited for something anything. I lay back onto the pillows curling into a ball before the door opened. I shut my eyes praying he would just leave.
Wouldn't it be easier that way, he could just leave. He could have his life and just forget about me and whatever I said tonight. I felt the bed dip and a hand rest on my hip. "I was thinking about leaving, I didn't think to tell you I think I was worried you wouldn't go."
I sat up grabbing his hand, looking into his eyes I can see there is something else I just don't know what. I closed my eyes trying to block the tears before opening them. I tried to say something I just couldn't, I just can't seem to make the words come out.
"Whitney I have to tell you something." I nodded squeezing his hand. He got up walking over to the dresser before running a hand through his hair. I just sat there watching him walk around; this can't be good considering that he is avoiding telling me.
"Last month at that party when you went on that trip with Ashley," He stopped thinking about his words before continuing. "I slept with Callie. It was a onetime thing I was drunk and please say something." I couldn't move let alone talk. How could he cheat on me? I thought he understood me when I told him that I couldn't, I wouldn't be with someone that cheats on me that includes runs.
Getting up I walked over to the closet getting a bag out. I proceeded to get clothes before I stopped sitting down on the bed. "How could you?" I asked my voice just above a whisper.
"I don't know it just happened." I shook my head, yeah and I just have a baby in my stomach. I thought to myself as I got up. I threw the clothes in the bag not bothering to fold them before going to the bathroom getting the necessities.
"Where are you gonna go?" I shrugged not really sure how to answer the question. Why should I let him know, why should he be able to keep track of me.
"I need time to think and I can't do that here." I slipped my flip flops on before picking up my bag. I wiped the tears from my eyes and turned to look at him. I can see the pain in his eyes and the hurt on his face. I try to tell myself that I shouldn't feel guilty for leaving but I do, I feel like it's my fault.
"Will you be back?" I shrugged; he took a step forward as I turned walking away from the room. I stopped taking one last look at him.
"Don't forget to take care of Bam and feed him." I turned for the last time going down the stairs only stopping by the door to grab my purse and keys. I walked out into the rain making a run to my car throwing the bag in the back before leaning my head on the steering wheel. Io sat back up and started it up pulling out before stopping to take one last look at the house. Shaking my head I left leaving the house to fade.
I drove around thinking about what I should do getting nowhere. How could he do that to me? Was I really that big of a bitch? If he did it that once he might have done it before that what if he has been doing it every time I am gone? I pressed harder on the peddle before slowing down as I came near a stop sign. I drove a little further before I could see waves crashing, I pulled up to the blue house getting out and running to the door. After practically beating on the door it opened.
"Dad." I breathed out hugging him. I closed my eyes holding him tight letting the tears fall. It may seem like a stupid thing to do, going to my dad's house but he is the only other person I have in my life. He has been there for me and has supported me through everything including Kozik although he has never been happy that I am with him.
"Shhh." He patted my back leading me inside and onto the couch. I don't really know how long we sat there, me crying and him holding me. I eventually felt the heaviness of my lids and closed them falling into a deep sleep.
I opened my eyes blinking sleep from them as the sun hit my face. I rolled over hitting the floor with a loud thump. My sore eyes went wide as I looked around my old room. I got up stretching my arms above my head letting out a moan at my sore muscles. Walking across the hall to the bathroom I turned on the water not letting it warm up before getting in. I just stood there letting the hot water run over my muscles relaxing them. I looked around and pulled the shower curtain grabbing the towel wrapping it around my body before going back to my room grabbing my bag and going back to the bathroom. I got my shampoo and conditioner along with my body wash and loofa before getting back in getting used to the hot water once again. I washed my body and hair quickly not wanting to use all the hot water before rinsing off one last time and getting out to dry off. I changed into light blue capris a white tank top and a blue hoodie with Adidas written across the front in pink. I pulled my blonde hair in to a ponytail and left the bathroom taking my things back to my room. I could hear my dad singing his classic rock. I smiled as I walked down the hall fastening my pink watch onto my wrist before leaning onto the counter.
He looked over smiling as he finished cooking. I watched for a few minutes before looking around the house. After all these years after my mom died he still keeps the house the same. Every picture on the wall in the same place. I touched my baby picture my other hand dropping to my stomach. I turned around going back to the kitchen sitting at the breakfast bar where my dad just finished putting breakfast on it. I sat down taking a sip of water.
"So do I get an explanation on why you turn up on my door step crying?" He asked casually taking a bite of bacon. I shrugged before putting my fork down looking at him.
"Did you ever cheat on mom, or did she ever cheat on you?" I asked before regretting it. I just need to know I have to know if everyone goes through this.
"No I cheated on your mom once but she forgave me and then we had you I think she was afraid of being alone that and she loved me." I nodded playing with my food before giving up.
"He cheated on me and I don't know what to do." I blurted out unable to stop myself, maybe I shouldn't have come here, maybe it would have been better to just stay at home and face things with Kozik, but then I wouldn't have this time to think to really think about what I want.
"Well he's an ass, I told you that a while back but I don't think it matters what I think of him you need to do what's right for you not him or me. But I will gladly beat his ass for you if you want." He laughed taking a drink of his coffee before shaking his head patting my on the knee.
I got up putting my plate in the sink before going to my room and slipping my pink flip flops on leaving for a walk on the beach. As soon as I got outside, the cold damp air hit me. I put the hood on dipping my head down before walking down the beach getting as far away as I could from my dad from everything.
I took the shoes off holding them in my hands as I let the sand cover my feet. I took a look around noticing everyone is inside going on with their life, taking a deep breath I let my feet go into the cold water. I kept going taking one step after the other until the water was up to my knees. I shivered feeling the hair on my arms standing up as I took another stop.
What if it was me that changed what if I am responsible for our relationship? It makes sense, I changed I took my work to serious and I ignored him, I pushed him away. This is all on me now, I need to fix this I need to figure out what it is I really want, but not for Kozik or my dad but I need to do this for me.
Taking another step I kept going as far as I could before stopping and letting the cold water wash over me. Taking a deep breath I ducked my head under the water. The water washing all over me my body submerged in the cold water where I feel weightless, where I can't be hurt and no one can find me. Popping back up I took a huge breath going back to the shore. My head went straight up in the air as I heard the loud rumble of motorcycles. He came here; he knew where I would go. I took off for my father's house not letting the water weigh me down, my feet pushed through the mushy sand and I finally reached the house. I ran up the porch throwing the door open only to find my dad sitting with about five bikers from The Devils Confederacy. I froze knowing that I shouldn't be anywhere near them.
Turning I went back to my rom grabbing my things for another shower. I was a lot quicker this time not wanting to waste any time getting out of here. I just want to see Kozik, to see those blue eyes happy unlike the ones I left back at home. I forgot clothes so I hugged the towel to my body and ran across the hall and into my room shutting and locking the door behind me. I was about to drop the towel when I froze seeing a man lying back on my bed.