Chapter 4: Perfect..?

Zach POV-

"…And I'll send Zachary Goode, Jonas Anderson, Grant Newman, Nicholas Harbors.." My ears perked up at the sound our names. "YES!" I smirk.

"My British Bombshell!" Grant squeals like a little girl, interrupting Dr. Steve. If it were possible, my smirk got even bigger, and Dr. Steve gives us a look. Grant blushed then cleared his throat, "C-continue" He says. The rest of the guys are trying to muffle their laughter.

Dr. Steve continues, "You guys leave for Gallagher at midnight, you also have the rest of the day off to get packed. You are dismissed." When Dr. Steve dismissed us, the eight Freshman are grinning and making jokes about the 'hot girls' and the eight Sophomores, including my roommates and I, are talking about seeing our girls again. I smirk, "Look out Gallagher Girl, here I come."

Lili's POV-

The buff guy went to the mall. I've been following him for almost 3 hours, listing to my iPod, eating, and shopping. I'm pretty sure he hasn't seen me yet. I'm just that Goode. My favorite song is playing, I can relate to it perfectly.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

The buff guy, who I've decided to name 'Bob', starts to talk to himself. Well that's not weird. At all.

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

He looks around and spots a red head with.. Emerald eyes? I gasp. I look so much like her. The eyes, the freckles, what the hell?

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

The red head who looks like me and 'Bob' sit down at a restaurant and start talking. It's hard to see, but emotions flash across the red heads face just as fast as they came. Happiness, anger, and then sadness.

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

The woman spots me looking at her, I get up and leave. I look back and see her following me. "Damn" I walk into Hollister and hide in the dressing rooms, trying to think of a plan. Maybe I should have let Danny come..

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like WHOA!
Just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...

When I come out about 45 minutes later, and new clothes on, I don't see the woman anywhere. "I want to go see mom, then go home." I leave the mall and get Mia from school early. Who cares if she misses a few classes? It's not going to kill her right?

No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

When we get home from seeing mom, it's around 6 p.m. and Mia wants to have a movie night. I put in Step Up, and grab all the junk food we have in our house.

"After this can we watch the rest of the Step Ups and Happy Feet, please?" She asks, stuffing M&M's into her mouth, and I can't help but smile. "I'm gonna miss you, Mia Renee. Please don't leave."

"Sure Mia." I don't know what else to say. I have to be the perfect daughter and sister. For mom and Mia, I just have too. "What is perfect?" I shake the question away.

"Thank you.. Dork." She smiles. I use her line against her and she gasps at me. "Thief!" I fake being shocked and laugh, and then we both quite down to watch the movie.

But one question was gnawing at the back of my mind throughout every movie.. Who were those people, and why did that woman look like me?

A/N: So do you understand why she relates to the song? She doesn't fake being caring for her family or loving them, but It's still a lot of pressure. She can't cry or act like a teenager, she has to grow up and take care of her family, but she feels out of place with them. If you're confused, then just PM me. Review?