Hey! New chapter up for Save Me! As always, thanks to my beta and bff Can't Decode Me for being my co-writer on this. You're freaking amazing girlie! Also thanks to those reviewers/favoriters/alerters! You guys are awesome. And sorry about the long delay for the readers out there, I was out of town and Can't Decode Me started school, therefore we have had full plates.. sorry again. I(we) hope you enjoy this chapter!
We don't own twilight..unfortunately.
JPOV(CDM)
I stopped short as I noticed a blue haired girl on a very familiar motorcycle. I laughed and jogged over to it. "Well hello Beautiful," I murmured as I approached the bike. Charlotte turned to face me with a smile but soon glared at me when she realized my joke. I crouched and ran my hands over the bike with a smile. "Oh, I've missed you."
"Jasper!" Charlotte laughed with a teasing glare. I laughed and moved my hand slowly up her bare leg before kissing her thigh teasingly. She laughed and I did too as Peter decided to make himself known.
"Oh I see how it is!" He exclaimed. "When I'm not around you mess with my girlfriend?"
I smiled and hugged him saying, "Oh come on you know she loved me first."
"How was Hell day one?" Peter asked, leaning against my bike and wrapping an arm around Charlotte.
"Oh you know," I said casually. "The usual."
Then I realized Bella was still standing there, very awkwardly. I moved closer to her and gestured to Peter and Charlotte. "Sorry, Bella these are my friends from Seattle. This is Peter and his girlfriend Charlotte. Guys, this is my cousin's best friend Bella Swan."
Peter looked between me and her for a second before smiling. Don't touch her Pete... "Pleasure to meet you Bella Birdy."
"It's nice to meet you Bella," Charlotte greeted, stepping off the bike. "I love your shoes."
"Hi," Bella greeted as she attempted a smile. "It's nice to meet you guys too. And thank you Charlotte."
Her voice was soft and quiet, a lot more so than it had been all day. Then Alice and Rosalie showed up with loud greetings. "Peter!" Rose smiled, engulfing Peter in a big hug. "It's good to see you again!"
I watched Peter hug my cousin tightly with a surprised face before laughing. "I didn't realize I left such a good impression. Nice to see you again Rosalie."
"Hey Charlotte," Rose smiled. "Guys this is my girlfriend Alice. Ali, this is Peter and Charlotte."
"Hi," Ali greeted. "I've heard some good things about you guys."
"Damn it Jasper! What did you go and do that for?" Peter joked.
"Please like anyone can have anything good to say about you. Charlotte is the one worth praising." I said as I noticed a group of people staring at us. "Did you guys plan this?"
"Well mom found out last night. Does that count?" Peter explained with a smile. "I told you I missed your lazy ass."
"Well Esme will love the guests I'm sure," I told him before looking at Charlotte. "Looks like you get hang out with some girls Char instead of us guys. How long you staying?"
"I don't know, we didn't really plan anything because we weren't sure how Esme would handle." Peter said rubbing his neck.
"Well follow us back to Rose's place and we'll figure it out." I said as I turned to Rose who gave me an approving look. "Wait here Pete."
I walked Ali, Rose and Bella back to their car, making sure they were okay and Rosalie smiled at me. "I'm glad they're here."
"Me too," I murmured as Rose got in Ali's car. Then I turned to Bella who was waiting for me to move so she could get in the car. She was looking down at the ground a little nervously and I could tell everything really threw her off today. I sighed and rubbed the back of my neck.
"Bella, I want to apologize for all of that," I started, but she shook her head.
"It's fine Jasper," she stuttered, quietly.
I looked at her, making sure she looked me in the eye. "It's not fine. I was completely rude and selfish and I'm sorry about that. And I should've been more considerate about all of that and I wasn't. It was unfair to you and I am really sorry."
Bella nodded and attempted to smile. "Thank you, Jasper."
She said it like a whisper so I barely heard her but I smiled back and nodded. "Okay. I'll see you when I get back to the house."
"You're not coming with us?" she asked and then looked over her shoulder toward Peter and Charlotte. "Never mind."
I stepped aside and waited to watch her get in the car before heading back to Peter and Charlotte. I'm glad Peter was here for a visit, I missed him and Charlotte too, but I also knew Peter just doesn't come all the way down from Seattle for a visit without making some sort of plan, especially when I know he could've contacted Esme first. Something was up and we were all just being too polite to say anything about it.
BPOV(CDM)
"I can't believe they just showed up like that?" Rose said, it was a serious tone but I could hear the smile in it somewhere. "Maybe…" she trailed which made Ali look at her at the next stoplight.
"Maybe what, Baby?" Ali asked, taking Rose's hand in hers. I watched Rosalie just shake her head silently, letting go of Ali's hand.
"Nothing," she smiled, you would've only noticed the tightness if you knew her like we did. "They probably got bored with nothing to do. Peter and Charlotte are ahead of Jasper in school… maybe they are taking a gap year?"
Ali nodded as the light turned green and I watched her hands grip the steering wheel tightly from the backseat. This was one of Rose's and Alice's moments… they haven't had these in so long but they seem to be a little more frequent in these last couple weeks. I haven't talk to either of them about it because neither of them are ready to talk and to be honest I have no idea how I would be any help to them anyways. I reached into my bag and touched the rolled up t-shirt lightly. On my bad nights this t-shirt made me feel safer after curling into it. I know it seems stupid and silly.
I don't even know how I could bare to stand it, things like this t-shirt are only reminders of what happened that night. It comforts me though because it lets believe there are decent people out in this world who don't want to harm you, that there are people who just want to save you. Jasper was right, it was okay to be scared today because if I needed to be strong or feel safe, I had this with me. I still don't really understand it though, this of all the things shouldn't bring me comfort.
"Oh my gosh!" Rose squealed, which brought me back to the car. "Guys! Emmett just texted me, he and Jane are coming to town next week!"
Ali and I smiled to her. She always loved when Emmett came into town, he was her savior. "That's great Rose," I told her as we pulled into her driveway. Maybe tonight would turn out to be good, now that we are in better moods for our annual 'first day of school sleep over'.
APOV(SCC)
I walked in the door hand in hand with Rose, thought processes running through my head at lightning speed. Why does she keep doing this to me? All these secrets… it feels like she has a different fucking life apart from ours, andthe hurt travels deeper and deeper the more frequent it happens. I can't say anything, of course, I don't want to hurt Rose's feelings, but really? She completely just blew off the whole subject in the car when I tried to ask her about why she thought they just showed up. It seemed as though she knew something I didn't, and that wasn't a very comfortable feeling. It made me uneasy, my stomach becoming upset at the thought of secrets she was keeping from me when we walked in the house.
"You alright there, baby? You look a bit pale…" She trailed off, giving me a confused look.
"I'm fine," I must have given a convincing enough smile, because Rose dropped the subject. We took our shoes off in the foyer and Bella trailed behind us, my noticing she was more quiet than usual. And that was pretty damn quiet. I could tell that her meeting Charlotte and Peter might have been a bit much, and Rose and I's loudness must not have helped. I felt guilty and sick now, walking into the kitchen.
"Hey girls!" Esme said in the kitchen, pulling out bottles of water and pop for us, "Can I offer you guys something to drink?" She asked sweetly, her smile making me forget about my anger for the moment.
"I'm fine.. but Bella? Ali? You guys want something?" Rose asked, sitting down in a bar stool.
"I'm good for now, thanks," Bella said. I added a "me too".
"But…you might have someone else who wants something to drink…" Rose suggested, smiling in a way that clearly showed her excitement.
"Oh yeah? And who's that?" Esme said, and as if on cue, I heard a motorcycle pull up into the driveway, a few moments later to have Jasper, Charlotte, and Peter arriving in the doorstep.
Rose waited on her response to Esme so she could see herself, and Esme, with a towel in her hands, walked to the door to greet the three.
"Hey Jasper.. and…" I heard Esme say, before Jasper filled her in.
"Esme, I'd like you too meet my best friend, Peter, and his wonderful girlfriend, Charlotte." He said, the smile apparent in his voice.
"Oh, so nice to meet you all finally! Can I get you anything?" Esme offered, turning to the kitchen after giving both Peter and Charlotte a once-over. I think she was shocked to see Charlotte's hair the way it was in person.
"I'll have a coke, if you have that." Peter said, stepping into the living room, "This is an absolutely stunning house, Esme. It's just gorgeous." he complimented.
Charlotte followed Peter in the living room, before coming towards Rose and Bella and I, joining us back in the kitchen.
"Thank you Peter, so kind of you. Anything for you, Charlotte?" Esme asked, "And Jasper, of course dear, you can help yourself to anything, as always. You know where it is." She said with a smile.
"Um.. a coke would be great, too, please." She replied, before sitting down next to Rose in a bar stool.
"Thanks Esme," Jasper laughed, leaning against the counter next to Peter. It was nice to see everyone together, and Jasper with his buddies.
"So… Esme…" Rose started, clearly nervous about what she was going to ask. Esme looked around nervously for a minute, not sure what Rose was about to request.
"Yes, dear?" Esme replied.
"Well, Peter and Charlotte are in town for a bit to spend time with Jasper, and I was just wondering.."
"If they can stay here?" Esme cut Rose off, sensing her question before she asked it, "Well of course! You are all welcome, as far as I'm concerned. I'll have to make sure it is okay with Carlisle, but I'm sure he would adore to have the guests around." Rose squeezed my hand out of excitement, before getting up to hug Esme.
"Oh thank you!" Rose cried, clearly very enthusiastic about the situation. I didn't think that she was so close to Peter and Charlotte, she had never mentioned it. It may be because they make Jasper happy. But then again, she didn't mention him much either. I sighed, trying to reason in my head, coming up with no such conclusion. Here we go again… I thought. Great.
"Well, I can let you guys get settled, I'm going to the store to pick up some stuff for dinner." Esme said, grabbing her jacket and purse from the table. I looked at my phone and saw that it was already almost 5.
"You coming Bella and Ali?" Rose asked, already halfway up the stairs.
"Yep," Bella and I said simultaneously. We left Peter, Charlotte, and Jasper to get reacquainted while we all went upstairs to get beds and everything ready for tonight. Our sleepover was a ritual, and we had never skipped a year thus far, and it was something we looked forward to after the first day of hell, something to keep us going from the terrible thought that we still had all those days of school to suffer through.
Esme came home with what seemed like hundreds of dollars of groceries only 45 minutes later, and Carlisle arrived shortly after that. He was of course alright with everything, he and Esme were two of the most generous people I have ever met. The girls and I helped Esme to unpack everything, while Peter and Jasper kept more to themselves upstairs, unpacking he and Charlotte's things and getting settled. Esme made a delicious dinner of lasagna, garlic bread and caesar salad. It was fantastic and we all had a great time talking around the table, like a huge family. Nothing was ever awkward between any of us, the conversation flowed, and Esme and Carlisle were interested in getting to know Peter and Charlotte better. Charlotte seemed very nice, and Peter seemed like a great person to joke around with, while also being someone you could talk to seriously. Before any of us knew it, it seemed dinner was over and we all went our separate ways, everyone going upstairs except Carlisle and Esme, who were casually watching TV and reading the newspaper. We did our nails and talked like normal, and even though it was simple things, the sleepover was something I looked forward to every year.
"I'm so glad that everyone could come over," Rose said, kissing me in the bathroom after we had gotten ready for bed.
"Me too, baby, me too," I smiled at her, longing for her love. It was great that everyone was here, but I had barely spoken to Rose all night, we were chatting our own conversations, and just kinda got lost in the hustle and bustle of everyone. At least I could spend the night laying next to Rose, which put a smile on my face. Bella slept with us too, and then Jasper had his own room, and Charlotte and Peter shared a room.
I yawned in front of the mirror, while Rose came behind me and wrapped her arms around my midsection.
"It's been a long day," I smiled, once I was done yawning.
"It has, I'm glad I can actually sleep now. I'm exhausted." Rose said, kissing my neck.
"Mmm.. shall we go in with Bella? I don't want her to be alone."
"Yeah me neither, let's go." Rose unwrapped herself, letting me go, and I followed her out of the bathroom. We got situated in bed, it was a good thing it was a California King, leave it to Esme to buy the best.
"I'm so tired, I could just fall asleep," Bella mentioned, yawning herself, "I haven't gotten up this early in so long. But I am glad everyone is here, I really like Charlotte."
"I do too, she seems so sweet, and I love her hair. She's my type of girl." Rose said, trying to hold in a laugh.
"Hey! Not nice! What about me? Remember? Your girlfriend?" I got a little pissed for a second even though I knew Rose was joking, things were a bit fragile between us lately.
"Relax, honey, you know I'm just kidding. You know you're my only type of girl." She smiled, and soon all of us were laughing. Okay, maybe I overreacted. I just wish Rose would tell me what she was hiding. If I was being completely honest with myself, I just felt left out. That's all.
We all said our good nights, before falling into a fast sleep after a long day. I would have to get used to this schedule.
I woke up to the sound of a screaming Rosalie next to me, me jumping half a foot in the air by being startled. Bella had leaned over to turn the lamp next to her on, also freaked out, which stopped Rosalie's loud screaming a second later, but not the crying. I looked over at the still shaken up Rose, before seeing her face. She looked absolutely horror stricken, fear washed over her face.
"Oh my god, what's wrong baby?" I asked, leaning over to hug her and reassure her as much as possible. She cried and squirmed in my arms, her body violently shaking, "Oh my baby..." I held her tight, waiting for her to tell me what she dreamt. She didn't. I hated seeing her like this, it wasn't often that she had nightmares, so I wasn't sure how to comfort her. There wasn't much I could do for her. Soon then Jasper and Esme both came running in the door, woken up from Rosalie's screaming. Carlisle must have gotten called in at work.
"What's wrong?" Esme said, looking extremely worried. Jasper, hair in all directions, walked to the bed and sat next to me.
"What happened?" He asked, repeating the same question we all had asked already.
"I had this horrible nightmare… he was trying to.… it was all over again… the same nightmare." Rose cried out, her sentences coming out with sobs. She wiped tears from her face when Jasper handed her a tissue, her body was wracking with sobbing again. Bella sat there sympathetically, she knew what Rose was going through, but was too quiet to know how to help Rose. I, quite frankly, didn't know how to help, either. I rubbed Rose's back before she got up off the bed and went into Jasper's arms.
"Let's get you cleaned up," Jasper said, walking in the hallway with her to the bathroom. Her cheeks still had tears running down them, but it was almost as if his voice was calming to her. When he had came in the room at first, she had calmed down for a minute before trying to explain what had happened, when she burst into sobs again from the memory.
"I'm worried about her, she hasn't had this nightmare in a while," I said, thinking aloud to Bella.
"Yeah me too, and it's interesting that Jasper is the one who can calm her down." Bella pointed out. I thought for a minute before they both came walking into the bedroom, Esme having left since Bella and I told her everything was alright. Rose, as if magic had been performed, looked much better already. She was no longer crying, and her shaking was much less.
"Well, if you girls are alright now, then, I'm going to head back to bed, since we do have to get up in another 2 hours." Jasper said, smiling slightly, before leaving the room, "I'll see y'all in the morning." He added.
"You sure you're okay, Rosie?" I asked her, taking her hand in mine and kissing her.
"Yeah, I'll be fine. I'm just gonna get some rest now… and hope that nightmare doesn't come back again." She curled up into my side before I could tell by her breathing that she was fast asleep, as well as Bella. My mind wouldn't go back to sleep, it was too wound up. Why? Why him and not me? Rose and I have been together forever, and he calms her down better than I even can.
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