Okay guys sorry we have been sooo busy! School is a killer! Here is my (CDM) half of Save Me. SCC is really really busy and hasn't finished her bit yet. We have agreed that I will post my half to keep you guys entertained for now until we get our lives sorted out! I hope you guys enjoy!

Chapter Nine

JPOV(CDM)

It was starting to become a morning ritual for me to walk out onto the back porch for my morning cigarette but this morning I had a very unexpected guest. Bella sat on the railing, much like Charlotte did days ago, and just stared out into the backyard. I moved to stand next to her while playing with a cigarette between my fingers. Her beautiful face turned to look at me and she smiled. A genuine smile.

"You okay?" I asked with a hint of concern in my voice.

She nodded and moved a little closer to me. "I had the strangest dream," she murmured.

"You wanna talk about it?"

She shook her head in response. "Not really… I just… I don't know. I'm sorry."

"It's okay," I told her, noticing her shaking hands. I reached out and touched them softly, feeling how cold they were. "Bella you're freezing."

Her brown eyes just stared into mine and I felt like putty in her hands. Soon her sweet lips were on mine and we were kissing. Her soft plump lips were delicious against mine and I couldn't help but want more. I forgot everything about everything and opened my mouth under hers to kiss her deeply. Her hands moved into my hair and I couldn't help but groan.

Knock, knock. I woke up to the sound of someone at my door. I sat up in bed quickly and took a deep breath before running a hand through my slightly damp hair. What the fuck is going on?

"Come in," I called and watched my door open. I watched Bella walk into my room and stop at the door looking nervous. Oh Jesus.

"I'm sorry," she murmured. "Esme asked me if I could wake you up. Emmett's girlfriend Jane is coming over or something? And she wants your help."

I nodded, trying to contain my annoyance. "No need to apologize. Thanks Bells, I'll be down in a few."

She nodded and was about to walk out when she stopped in the door way. "You don't like him, do you?"

"Who, Emmett?" I asked, and she nodded. "To be quite honest, no I don't."

"Can I ask why?" she whispered.

I rubbed the back of my neck and she took that as a sign to leave. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked."

She was about to shut the door when I quickly got up and rushed to it. "Hey, wait. Bella, wait. I'm sorry." She stood there and looked at me. "I'm sorry. It's just, I know that you are Rose's best friend and I know you probably know Emmett a little bit. I just don't want to start anything."

"He scares me," she whispered. "I know Emmett is a nice guy but he just seems so intimidating."

I nodded. "I understand that. It'll be that way for a while."

"Do you think Rose doesn't notice or she's just ignoring you?"

I looked down the stairs past her before ushering back inside my room, shutting the door quietly. I watched her take a seat on the couch next to the desk and I took a seat next to her.

"All she cares about right now is Emmett, unless one of us ended up in a hospital she wouldn't really notice."

"And you don't like that?" she asked.

I nodded. "That's one, but I don't like that he hurts her. She seems so happy now that he's here but those nightmares that she had, they were because of him."

Bella gave me a quizzical look so I responded, "Rose is strong and has gotten over her rape, but when Emmett comes around it just reminds her that it happened because she automatically ties him to saving her from it. Does that make sense?"

Bella nodded, "I understand that, but if he makes her happy isn't that what's important?"

"It didn't hurt you yesterday that she had no regard for you when she mentioned Seattle? Or that she barely talked to Ali yesterday?" I asked.

Bella bit her lip and looked down at her hands. "Okay yeah, that bothered me but it was just a natural thing to say. We used to do that all the time."

"Really?" I asked, surprised. I wonder why Rose never told me she was in town, if she was there often.

Bella nodded. "At least once a month, those girls are shopaholics."

I smiled, "Yeah I found that out."

Bella attempted to smile back, "I better let you get ready… I'll see you downstairs."

Once I heard both doors shut I started pacing in my room. What the fuck is this? Seriously? I shouldn't be having dreams like that about her, I shouldn't even be thinking about her! This is bad…. This is really bad. I ran a hand through my hair and fought the urge to hit something.

"You fucking idiot!" I yelled before changing into my dark wash jeans that faded at the knee with a blue and white striped Hollister Co. V-neck tee. After being completely pissed last night, I showered so I wasn't going to bother this morning. As I trudged down the stairs I walked into the kitchen seeing all girls helping make lunch while Emmett was washing a few dishes. They all sort of stopped to look at me as I walked in and I froze in the doorway. I tried not to glare at Emmett but it was hard. I really needed a smoke.

"Jasper," Esme smiled softly. "Janey should be here in a few minutes. I was hoping you could help her get settled."

Why can't he boyfriend do that? "Yeah sure," I nodded. "Do you need any help in here?"

"No, but I want a hug!" Rose proclaimed with a smile. That's new… even Ali gave her a strange look. I chuckled and walked over to her. I engulfed her in my arms, lifting her off the ground. I missed Rose, I really did and I missed my Rosie. I miss the person she was before the rape, and right now I'm missing the Rose she was before Emmett showed up.

I will forever be grateful to him for stopping that bastard, but I hate him for what he does to her. And I hate myself for being exactly in his position. I don't want Bella to find out. She took in a deep breath and giggled, "You smell good."

I laughed again as I set her down, "I do? Good to know."

She went back to chopping some vegetables and I stood behind Ali to wrap my arm around her shoulders. "How you doing, Al?"

"I'm pretty good, 'bout yourself?" she responded with a smile.

"About the same."

"That's good," she said but stopped suddenly when we all heard Bella squeak.

"Ow!" she hissed as she held her hand to her chest.

I quickly grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her finger gently. She shook her head while reaching up to wipe a tear away from her eye. "I am so sorry!" she exclaimed in a rush. "I can't believe I just did that!"

"Oh, Bella Dear, don't be sorry!" Esme said as she came to the other side of Bella. I sat her down and unwrapped the towel to examine her finger. She bit her lip as I looked at it.

"You got it pretty good, but I don't think you need stitches. Just a really good bandaid and antiseptic." I told her and Esme agreed with me.

"I feel sick," she whispered and Ali looked at me.

"She faints at the sight of blood."

"Of course you do," I smiled. "Come on, I'll take you to Carlisle's study and clean it up."

"Thank you Jasper," Esme smiled.

I led Bella out of the kitchen with my arms out, ready to catch her. I knew she didn't really want to be touched. Suddenly though, she started to fall and I quickly reach out on instinct. She gasped but didn't do anything louder than that as I scooped her up in my arms. "Sorry," I murmured. "I didn't want to you falling."

She just nodded quickly and rested her head on my shoulder. Suddenly the doorbell rang as I walked toward it to the study. I gave a shout to the kitchen but I don't think anyone heard me so I held Bella in one arm and answered it. A short blonde girl with soft mahogany eyes was at the door with a bag by her feet.

"Jane?" I asked.

She nodded and offered a smile. "You must be Rose's cousin."

"Yeah, I'm Jasper. Come on in," I stepped aside and brought both my hands back to Bella. She bit her lip awkwardly as Jane looked at us. "I have to go take care of this one, Esme is straight through to the kitchen."

"Thank you Jasper, it's nice to see you again Bella."

"You too Jane," she mumbled before I took her into the study.

She groaned into my shoulder. "That was so awkward!"

"Sorry, I didn't want to leave her standing on the doorstep or have you fall over…"

"No!" Bella said, her cheeks heating up pink. "I was just saying. I know you were being helpful. I'm sorry."

I fixed her finger up and made she was okay enough to stand up before I was kneeling in front her as she sat on Carlisle's black leather couch. She looked down at me with a soft almost-smile and played with her hair. "Thank you Jasper."

"It's no problem," I told her as I reached out to rub her knee lightly. We both froze at my action. "Shit, I'm sorry Bella. I wasn't thinking."

She shook her head, "N-no, it's fine. I know it wasn't anything."

I nodded, "Okay."

We sat there awkwardly for a moment before I saw her move forward a little bit and her eyes searched my face. I straightened up and moved toward her. As I stared at her face now, I realized how beautiful she was. I mean I noticed since the night I saved her, even just seeing her face lit by red and blue flashing lights, but today she wore no make what so ever and she looked so natural. She wasn't fake like most girls, and the blemishes and scars from the rape only made her more beautiful. I reached out slowly and let my fingers caress her cheek. I don't know what came over me, but I couldn't stop myself.

She leaned forward a little more and I raised so that my forehead touched hers. Her eyes were closed but I could hear how calm her breathing was and I felt her shaking almost stop under my touch. I was so close, I could taste her sweet breath on my lips and I could only imagine how she tasted. My lips almost touched hers before I pulled away quickly, standing up and taking a few steps back. I ran both my hands through my hair and stared at her.

"Fuck," I whispered under my breath. "Bella, I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry. I can't, I can't do that to you. It's not-"

"Jasper!" Esme called, interrupting me.

I looked behind me to the door and quickly retreated after a another 'sorry'. What the fuck am I doing?

BPOV(CDM)

My heart was racing as I sat alone on the couch, fighting the tears that came to my eyes. He didn't want me. How could anyone want me? I'm broken, dirty. No one wants that. I wiped my eyes quickly and stood up slowly. I walked upstairs and grabbed my purse and cell phone. When I came back down I left them by the door and walked back into the kitchen to find Jasper and Jane gone, probably settling in, and went straight to Ali.

"I'm going to take a walk, I need some fresh air to clear my head." I told her.

"Okay," she said, setting her spoon down. "Just let me grab my jacket."

"No, I'm fine. I was just telling you so you know that I left. I'll be fine. I need some time alone."

"Okay…" Ali trailed. "Do you have your cell phone?"

I nodded. "Yes Mom," I teased to make her think I was in a better mood than I was. I hugged her and Rose before I grabbed my black satchel purse and left the house. I need to clear my head and get far away from that house as possible. I needed to be as far way from Jasper as I could possibly get. God, how embarrassing was that? I can't believe I did that. I don't even know why I did that.

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