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Chapter 2
Italics Bella's journal /Bold Edward's thoughts…
EPOV
It was night once again and found myself lying in bed with my Angel. Today we did the usual; Bella would get up, then get dressed, eat breakfast then off to school, then I would drop her off at her house after school and go home for a few hours. However when I returned to night she was sitting in bed writing in her Journal. I waited outside of her window watching from the forest. I waited outside for almost an hour before she put her journal away. When she did I climbed in her window kissed her forehead and hummed her Lullaby. When she was finally asleep I grabbed her journal. I glanced at her just to make sure she was in a deep slumber. I opened the Journal eager to see what her fantasy was….
Dear me
The meadow was beautiful as always, the beautiful green grass seemed so inviting after climbing of my Adonis, So, I'm her Adonis now; I think I liked Greek God better. I laid on the grass give my love my come hither look; it seemed to work, since he was lying down besides me in a blink. Nothing was needed to be said we looked into each others eyes and I saw nothing but love in his eyes. I was so content in this moment that I closed my eyes and drifted of.
When I woke I notice I as now in Edwards Volvo and he was driving like a maniac, Stupid Shiny Volvo owner. Great another nickname, I still like Greek God more. What does she have against my driving; I remember that day, I only went 100 mph. I always wonder what it would be like to make love to Edward in his precious car. Oh really, this going to be good. With that thought I was in my fantasy. Edward and I were in the backseat kissing passionately, his tongue grazed my bottom lip asking for entrance. As if he even had to ask. Access was granted and the taste of sweet mouth against mine brought on my arousal. My Angel began to pull at the buttons of my jeans but I swatted away his hand. He tried again and swatted away his hand. He was becoming frustrated and tried to pull away from me, but I took this as an advantage. I flipped him over and now I was on top. He looked up at me with a look of confusion, good I was wondering what she was doing too.
I placed my finger to his lips shushing him. I bent down and kissed his lips softly and then trailed my kisses to his neck and then up to his ear, "Its my time to please you Edward," while unbuttoning his shirt I kissed kiss chest down to his navel. I licked his navel and looked Edward had his eyes shut. I then began to unbutton his pants to see my love decided to go commando. "I thought it would be easier for you when we got to this point love." I smiled to him as my way of thanks, my hand reached to his jeans to free him, In that moment I began to lick his tip while my hand played with his shaft moving my hand slowly up and down teasing him. I can't believe she's playing with me like this. But I can't help the moans that escape my mouth as I continued to read, my little temptress. Edward was whimpering and he wanted me bad but I wasn't done yet. I removed my hand and took him in my mouth; my head bobbing urgently moving up and down his shaft while my tongue wrapped around his shaft each time I went down. Edward was panting so many profanities came out. "God damn Bella, that feels amazing. Bella, you have to stop now I about to come;" Me too. But I didn't I went faster and Edward was growling and grunting only making me go faster. And then it happened he exploded and I drank him eagerly, I liked away at him. He tasted so amazing and wasn't letting it got to waste. After I licked my lips I looked at Edward he had his eyes shut with huge smile on his face. I pecked his lips and climbed a back into the front seat. "Edward", I said. "Hmm," his eyes were still close and he was still coming off his high. He couldn't even give a coherent response; Damn, I'm good. "We should continue this at home I" before I could say more we were already driving and he was going 200 mph. I looked at him with a puzzling look, "What, you and I are not finished and I wanna hurry and get home so I could please you." He said this with a smug smile and I knew as soon as the car stops I would be screaming his name.
Till Tomorrow
That's were it ended, that can't be it can it? I turned the page to see another entry
Dear me
He did it again he questioned my love for him. Oh no I remember this day after this little argument we didn't talk for a few hours.As if I can't love him as much as he loves me because I'm human how dare he assume that? I love him just as much even more. Doesn't he see that I love him more that anything would die for him? You would think that trip to Italy proved that. Doesn't he see he is a gift form God given to me? Does he not know how horrible it was for me when we were apart? I do remember those months and they weren't well and Bella looked like she was the living dead. She lost 15 pounds she didn't have and looked sleep deprived. I will never forgive my self for ever leaving. He also did that self loathing thing again. Doesn't he see that it absolutely perfect? He's always telling me that I don't see myself clearly, but I think it the other way around. When will he see that he has a soul cause if he didn't I couldn't love him and he couldn't love me in return, he hurts me so much when he talks of himself that way.
Till Tomorrow
After reading and rereading that passage I swept in guilt and I looked to se my Angel still asleep and that it was dark outside. I put her Journal back, and climbed in bed with her. I kissed her forehead
"I love you Bella and I'm sorry"
"I love you too." She was still asleep but she knew it was me talking.