I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR THE Billy Gilman song "One Voice"
Some kids have and some kids don't
And some of us are wondering why
And Mom won't watch the news at night
There's too much stuff that's making her cry.
We need some help
Down here on Earth
A thousand prayers
A million words
But one voice was heard.
Its three minutes till Bella would awake; and I lay beside her troubled, deep in my own thoughts.
Do I really hurt when I speak poorly of myself?
I knew the answer but it didn't make me feel any better.
I'm not really so self-loathing? Am I?
Its normal to criticize ones self isn't it. I'm a vampire for Pete sakes; I am a dark, hurtful, lying, cruel, son of a bitch. That's what I am. I thought Bella understood that, hadn't she grasped that.
Just because she gets your vampire doesn't mean she see's you as a bad person. A Voice whispered in mind
But she has to see that I'm dark and evil person doesn't she see?
Are you forgetting that when you're with her you a better person; a loving and trusting person? Not the cruel sons of a bitch that you think you are. The voice spoke a little over a whisper with a calm tone
Well Esme is always saying how I'm no longer brooding. Jasper is still stunned when he feels my joy when I'm around Bella or even when I'm with him and Emmet hunting. Carlisle thinks about the "new light" that in my eyes when I'm around him.
That's because you're with a women that loves and accepts you for your thoughts and actions. She does not judge you and never will. The voice had a point. Why thank you I was wondering if what I've been saying was falling on deaf ears
"Who are you" asked aloud
Well I'm your, HMM, well that's a good thought who am I? Some would say I'm your inner voice, others say I would be you conscience speaking and some more liberal thinkers would say I'm your inner child. But you could just call me the voice if you like
"Why the voice," I asked aloud
Cause it makes me seem more important and kind of like a comic book hero, if you will, besides the voice is cool
"That it is."
"Edward?" my angel spoke. I turned to her not noticing that I was was pacing in front of her bed
"Yes love" I acknowledge
"Who are you talking to." She asked, her voice low and sweet as always.
"Oh know one just thinking aloud." I spoke sure if I could I'd blush from being caught talking to myself
"Well," she said, stretching as she sat up. "Stop thinking to yourself and give me my morning kiss.
"As you wish." I said as I sat on her bed leaning forward kissing her chastely.
AN: HEY FOLKS I'M BACK THANKS TO THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN WAITING AND I'M SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG, I CHANGED THE SUMMARY A LITTLE BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH THIS STORY IS ABOUT Bella's FANTASIES IT SHOULD ALSO SPEAK MORE ABOUT HER FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIP WITH EDWARD.
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s m Neal